Let's hope it'll be a nice day for once

What a lovely morning!

My room was super warm  and the sun was shining in from my window which made me feel super cozy.

It totally felt like I was in Estonia.

Felt like running out and playing hopscotch with my friends or something.

Then I saw a cat on my neighbour's shed roof, was accompanied by another cat.

Not that interesting, but oh well. I love cats.
Ok, while taking a shower the weather has taken a turn for the worse - it's pissin' out.

And the cats are gone.

 Anyway, while in the shower I started thinking about this video I saw.

It was about people expressing their views on skinny models in magazines and how they 'set standards'. It really grinds my gears that people are so stupid and insensitive towards those girls and dare to blame them for setting a bad example. Those skinny models are not starving themselves for young girls, they're doing it cause they want to reach their dream and they're told to lose weight if they want to reach their goal. It's the people behind the scenes, the idiots who call the shots and have that sick way of thinking. Those are the people who have no heart, they see the girls as walking hangers and the skinnier the girl is the better business they do. So, in my opinion it is tremendously unfair to lash out on those skinny, ill girls.

Running a forum for young girls and seeing 11 year olds talking about diets doesn't really make me want to give out to them. It just makes you feel helpless and angsty cause you know it's wrong but there's nothing you can do, cause there are the 'fashion people' out there whose sick inhumane voice echoes further than your own and who set the bad example to girls with their unhealthy business. The amount of pressure the girls are under is incomprehendable to me.

In addition to that, I don't like it when people are standing up for overweight people saying things like 'Oh, who wants to be a pile of sticks anyway' or 'Men like curvy girls' or 'Big person, big heart' or whatever that is demeaning towards the lean or skinny women.

First of all, who wants to be fat? Secondly, yes there are men who like obese women, there's also men who like skinny women, men who like any kind of women but if talking about curvy, then a fat person doesn't necessarily mean curvy. Curvy means the hour glass figure, genetical big boobs and bum, not jiggling bellies and flappy arms. A skinny person can be curvy aswell.

And if the fat people had as big of a heart as it's made out then they wouldn't go round saying it's okay to be overweight but not skinny.

Tools!

Orphan

Hm, so I watched a film with Katriona - Orphan.

Thought it was gonna be about ghosts and stuff.

To my surprise it was about an Estonian psycho killer. :D

I squealed with delight!

I warned Katriona about locking her door tonight cause I'm Estonian and you never know when my psycho killer side decides to show up. :D

Anyway, been feeling like poop since yesterday.

Started taking leftover Ulcid tablets and Motilium.

Plus, talked to my Dad's wife, a nurse, she told me to take B vitamins and fish oil - vitamin D3.

Oh and boyfriend was over yesterday. Had a bit of an...argument type of thing.

Well, I don't really argue, just sulk and give the silent treatment...and cry. :D

Anyway, we made up after a few minutes.

It was cause he was bored and rushed me with eating so we could do something and it's super hard for me as it is so I don't want any pressure from anywhere or anyone when it comes to it.

Oh and I've read my earlier posts and I thought it would be weird to read about my sex and period stuff but it didn't feel awkward to me, so... :D Yesterday was a mess. The first time was quite alright but the second time we had to stop cause it looked like a massacre in a slaughterhouse. :D

He was like, "Holy shit!" And I was thinking yeah...imagine being a girl and seeing that every month. Not so nice, huh? What with the shedded uteral lining and blood, plus PMS.

BJs are nice though. :) Mmm...

Anyway, got 2 more followers - Kaidi and Birgitta., total of three now:

Great stuff! I'd be more enthusiastic about it if I didn't feel so sick.

My GP is still on sick leave so hopefully will see him next week, will have  my landlord call him to speed things up and to be taken more seriously.

Should also see my violin teacher on Monday for 30 minutes.

Oh and we watched Glee the other day, maybe I wrote about it, cannot remember now.
Anyway I was drooling over Kevin and one of the girls said, "You' re so on your own on this one." Hahahaa, oh well he's hot to me!

My Oscar speech

I've been mad busy with my forum.

I've also had the time to die several times a day during the past three, four days.

Really have to see a gyno, something inside me that I lack is trying to kill me.

Or maybe it's some overdose of bodily ingridients? whatever you call those things

Felt super super weak, light headed and crampy.

Oh started taking iron tabs three days ago.

Anyway, didn't have the time to come on here for quite a few days.

And I did now and wow! I'm like super popular! :D

I have a follower! A follower! :D

Wow, I feel like reciting a thank you speech I'd give if I won an Oscar. Hahahaa

Anyway, here she is.

Ingrid, my first follower: 

Thanks for paying attention to me. :)

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Just reach in and corner it and give it a rub

Red: Surprise! This ought to keep you company during the week.

Kitty: Roy's Pet Store. Red, you got me a cat!

Red: Well, it's like a cat.

(opens the box and takes out a bag with a fish in it)

Kitty: A fish? Red, it's a fish.

Red: See, it's like a cat.
They're both pets.

Kitty: No, they're not. Pets are called pets becuase you pet them. How do I pet this thing?

Red: Well, you just reach in and corner it and give it a rub.

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Okay, I don't really like dogs, but this puppy is cute. Especially its tail.

It makes some really cute noises. :D Aww :D :D

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Also, I tried to find a good live version fo Booty Luv's Boogie Tonight but couldn't.

This is the best version. A very very good song.

The singer has got some boobs on her! Me, jealous? Nah. What woman doesn't want AA's on her?

How much wood could a "woodchukka" chukka...

Hyde: (To Fez) Shoes say a lot about a man. In your case, your chukka boots are screaming "virgin."

Fez: Damn you, boots. What else have you told them?

Kelso: Hey, Fez, seeing you wear those chukkas makes me wanna up-chukka.

Hyde: Nice.

(Kelso and Hyde high five)

Kelso: Yeah. It's like I ate too many "chukkalate" chip cookies.

Hyde: Okay.

Kelso: Yeah, how much wood could a "woodchukka" chukka...

Hyde: Hey! Shut the "chukka" up.

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What hurts a man?

Eric: ...We're just friends now, because she's over it. Well, guess who else is over it?

(Hyde, Fez, Kelso raise hands)

Hyde: I am.

Kelso: Me too.

Fez: So over it.

Kelso: Look, man, breaking up sucks, okay? When Jackie dumped me, do you know what she said? "Something, something. Never wanna see you again. Blah-blah-blah." Hey, you think that didn't hurt?"

I love those boys. :)

Euww

What kind of a retard takes pictures like that and what kind of an idiot releases it in press and what kind of an imbecile in the censorship doesn't class it as porn, voyeurism? Why don't you little bean brains take a picture of your butthole and give it to your children on their birthday?!

Maybe for Christmas you'll let them toy around with it?

That is a disgrace! 

Extremely disgusting people.

Fuck 'doctor' D

What a cunt?!!

I fucking hate him!!!

The biggest piece of shit in the whole world!

I hope your whole damn shitty family will get cancer in their fucking shitty...bodies and that you all rot to death, you cunts!!!

Fucking shithead!!!!!!!!!!

Die, you rotten dick!!!!!!

Fucking cunts!!! You and your damn servants, get bent, you cocksuckers!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Naturally

Started feeling kind of icky last night so...when my man came over nothing really happened.

So I felt like blah because of it.

Anyway, this whole thing is kind of doing my head in at the minute, so I don't want to think about it. Whatever.

Visited a friend today. She's on Facebook.

I had an account aswell, but deleted it. Don't like it.

Anyway, some people I know had signed up there and were on my friend's friend list.

God, I am just so jealous of this one little rat that was on the list.

He's like a super clever person, like...naturally. :D

He never even has to study for anything, he's just naturally intelligent.

And because he's such a genius he got to go to China as an exchange student.

How unfairly lucky?

Not only is he super clever, he also gets to travel to such a far away and amazing destination.

Yeah then me and my friend went for a walk and we were both complaining about us not working.

Okay I'm thinking if I'm not as clever as someone who gets to have fun trips then I just have to work hard enough to reach that level. Have to balance my hard work with their natural knowledge and the ability to process and remember everything.

I know I can only do as good as my personal boundaries allow but...you know, I want the goodies.

Who says I cannot have them, I'm not saying that and I'd definitely not set my boundaries somewhere where the good stuff in unreachable.

Going to doctor tomorrow, so I'm gonna tell him what's what and hopefully will sort something out about my health.

Loadsa gibberish but ever so often I feel like I'm not good enough for anything or anyone.

It's not because I have low self esteem, I'm just not good enough for people and things.

Well, mostly I'm not good enough for myself and then the rest follow.

I want a proper education and a job.

I'll clean it up later, dude.

The Formans' basement

Hyde: That was probably our second-best potato chip war ever.

Red: (coming down the stairs) What the hell?!

Kelso: We'll clean it up later, dude

  Fez and Kelso's apartment

 

Kitty: ...remember, you are a guest in these kids' home. Just like they've been a guest in our home for years.

Red: Yeah. I'm a guest. Just like they've been guests in my house. (grabs a bowl of crisps, sits on couch, changes the channel on TV)

Fez: Hey, that was my programme.

Red: Yeah, that's a bummer! (pours out the crisps on to the couch) Oops!
Kelso: What kind of animal just dumps food on someone's couch?

Red: I'll clean it up later, dude.

My Valentine's day

So yeah, was the big day then.

Started as usually. Got a really good sleep. Deep one and long enough.

Didn't feel too sick or anything.

Boyfriend rang around half 2, wanted to collect me and go up to his house.

Anyway, he was over by 4.

We stayed at my place, cause I don't want to go anywhere before I know what is wrong with me.

So I know I won't be feeling sick anywhere and if I do then I can take a pill that will make me feel good.

So we stayed at my place and watched a film, Madagascar 2.

Ordered a delivery, Thai food, number 24 - mine mild with chicken and prawns, his was spicy, plus spring rolls for me.

Oh and just for the record 'today' and 'yesterday' caused me pains.

So for some time during the evening I had pains in lower tummy aswell as in lower back.

Oh and in some previous post I said I had burning nips, well I told my boyfriend aswell.

Said, "...it was an allergic reaction to shower gel."

Boyfriend, "Did you throw it out?"

Me, "No, I just don't wash my nipples. Wash around them." :D

I explained that I cannot waste my money by throwing stuff out.

Anyway, then we watched Family Guy on DVD. I got mindlessly bored.

I don't like watching TV!!

Plus the logs in the fireplace were filling the room with smoke and terrible smell.

Made me dizzy.

Came upstairs, to my room, filed nails, went back downstairs, then came upstairs with boyfriend.

Were on internet for a while.

Then I read unicorn and tarot cards to my man.

He was half asleep though.

Anyway, he went to sleep properly and I started to write my blog.

- He got me a card for the day. And chocolates. Ha! I was absolutely craving for something sweet last night.

I didn't get him anything though.

- Although, Katriona came into the sitting room when we were watching family guy and handed us Avon mag.

It had the rub-and-sniff pages and I found a fragrance I want to get for my bf. I asked him if he'd wear it, he said yes. It was a scent for women, so hopefully it'll be as nice for men.

- Oh and before Katriona walked in I had fallen asleep on the couch. Boyfriend said he can always tell when I've fallen asleep without actually knowing if I'm asleep or not. He said that I always start twitching when I'm asleep. :D

- He also said that I liked 'light' flowers, not roses or red flowers.

Ha! He got that wrong! I only like blue flowers! Well, I don't like roses or red flowers, he got that right.

- Geoffrey Oryema is just so good! The boyfriend said he liked his music aswell.

Ye ye ye!

Films and lyrics

Watched Adventureland yesterday.

Yeah it was quite boring. That Kristen Stewart or ..well..she's called something like that looks nice but that's about it.

Watched Just Friends and Over Her Dead Body with Katriona today. She's a lovely girl. I like her.

Both of the films were kind of...the kind of films where you can switch your brain off. Not too funny, but they'll do. Anna Faris is great!

Been feeling sick, like usually. Tablets are not helping.

Oh and Shania Twain has about the worst lyrics ever! There are like really really bad songs out there, but even those really really bad songs don't have lyrics as terrible as Shania's.

Check out the lines from her song Up!:

'Even my skin is acting weird.

I wish that I could grow a beard.

Then I could cover up my spots,

not play connect the dots.'

How stupid are these lyrics? I would understand if a boyband sang those lines but a mature beautiful woman?


Oh and this probably goes under TMI but I have like the fieriest nips! :D I swear. I hope it's a reaction to shower gel and not pregnancy. I've never had anything like that before, though. Will do a test tomorrow.

Reiki cramps

Had some Reiki done on me today. Good stuff!

Although I ended up with really bad cramps in arms, hands, legs.

Felt really heavy and tingly all over.

Lady C said that I am not well and told me to see a doctor and tell him about my health.

I've done that a hundred times! The fuckers just don't listen to you.

Doctors are stupid people. Like, there's people saying that boybands are like fabricated projects that have nothing to do with music, well that's exactly what doctors are, all money, nothing to do with people or their health.

I think they should go dump their shitty brains out and wipe their asses with their damn degree certs. Get rid of all the shit and be like a normal person.

Saying that, I have an appointment on the 17th Feb at the hospital, will be talking about my endoscopy and colonoscopy which hopefully will be done the following Monday.

Just got in from a walk with a girl that moved into the house a few days ago.

The house is full now, 4 girls living in it - Anette, Colette, Katriona and me.

Oh bought watermelon yesterday, had half of it last night, eating the other half now. Also bought bananas for cramps.

Mh and had a bit of spotting today which is odd. Might be cause of Reiki.

Blah, head's empty, maybe I'll paly The Sims or watch That 70's Show again.

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"Pole eales keegi mind veel köitnud nii nagu sina teed..."

So me and my bf had been planning to see Avatar for ages.

And finally we got to see it yesterday.

I didn't really get to enjoy the film that much cause I was concentrating too hard on not feeling sick.

Today's a killer aswell. Boo!

Anyway, looked quite good and I liked the leading lady a lot, she wasn't too lovey-dovey.

Most of the time I was thinking the film was exactly like Mononoke Hime.

Except I like the ending in Mononoke Hime more cause well there is a love story in it, but it shows the characters staying true to themselves and I like personal developement a lot better than a soppy love story.

Oh and I like the tree spirits in MH more. They're not as obviously cute and beautiful.

My 3D glasses. Keeping them for Alice In Wonderland.

Yeah, the cinema people are a bit mad - what kinda place charges 3.25 for a bottle of water?! You can get 4 bottles for 2 euro in Pound Shop!

There's also the popcorn and Fanta my man got.

Yeah so...was with my boyfriend, did the usual couples' stuff. Oh and we might go to the zoo on Valentine's Day. He said he doesn't really give a shit about the day and think he was relieved that I'm not that into it either. Well he was talking kind of sarcastically about women who make men do stuff with/for them on that day and also make them buy stuff for them and...stuff.

Oh and he also said women, most women, are catty and manipulate with their man and get them to do stuff for them and live by their 'rules'. And apparently I'm not like that. He said if I were like that he would have run away long time ago. So I take it I'm a good girlfriend. No? :D

Oh and here's one more video I love. How cute!?

And another beautiful beautiful song!

"Pole eales keegi mind veel köitnud nii nagu sina teed..."  

How feminine and lovely!

Lovelies :)

 

Mh, been listening to this non-stop. Lovely tune :)

 

How gorgeous is this artist?! I adore Geoffrey Oryema!

Bombs to flowers

So, I received my first comment! :) 

Thanks a lot. It's in English but I suspect it was an estonian person who left it. :D I'll be posting more of my favourite parts from the show once I...can be bothered to mess around with screencaps.

Anyway, had a terrible night, thanks to my sick stomach. Boyfriend came over last night, left at half 3 or something at night cause the bed was too small for him. Hm...

Ha! The other day he bought me a sandwich, which he got right. He didn't get it right the time before - he got me one with white bread, butter and spicy chicken. I want mine with brown bread, mayonnaise and plain chicken.

Oh and it's weird what people remember about you. I randomly told my boyfriend once that I played Minesweeper, but had to change the bombs to the flowers cause the explosions gave me a fright when I clicked on the wrong square. So one time I tell him I'm gonna go and play Minesweeper and he says, 'oh yeah and change the bombs to flowers, cause the explosions give you a fright.' Ha! :D

The weather looks lovely, really spring-y. Maybe I'll get to go out once I start feeling better, have to take a tablet...which doesn't really make a difference, but helps me waste money. A friend will be coming over soon aswell...

Fruit

Gah, I'd love some fruit.

An apple perhaps.

Blueberries.

Watermelon.

Hm, an apple's about 50 cent. Maybe I can afford it.

Just want something fresh.

Been eating garlic. :D

And I'd die for crisps, but...I'm trying so hard not to buy them. Have to think about my stomach.

Haven't had crisps or fast food for quite a few days. Hopefully I can keep it like that. Maybe I'll just get a small pack of biscuits.

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From formspring.me

On sul kõht lahti?

Tänan huvi tundmast. Kuidas endal kõht läbi käib?

What a bizarre thing to ask someone.

Anyways, doing some promo so Ask me stuff. I dare you. :D

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Oh and I had my first ever Skype call last night. This thing can come in handy. If only my family would get it.

And another thing I don't know if I ever mentioned it before, but I recieved a letter from my mother saying the brother performed a song and recited a poem at school Christmas party or some event like that. Good on him!

Loud

Yeah, last night was a loud night. :D Oops!

Can't help it.

Mmh, have to think of something to do on Valentine's day. Um, can't think of anything.

Any suggestions?

Watched Role Models last night. Wasn't as funny as I thoguth it would be, but it was quite a different film, so that was appealing.

I really really like garlic. Toast, garlic and mayo - yum.