Tuesday, March 30, 2010

Higher

Right, it's really hard to get up at 9 in the morning when you're on sedative antidepressants.
Saw my psyciatrist today at 10 and the psychologist at 3.
Was prescribed a higher dose of Z, so I'll be sleeping again for the next few days.
Got a CD from the psychologist (Dr. D). Haven't listened to it yet.
Apparently it's for relaxing and stuff, some exercises.

Blah, anyway, I'm super sleepy now, cause I couldn't get the full night and half day sleep the pills make me need, so...I might go and take a nap.

Will be back in a few days when I wake up...

Sunday, March 28, 2010

The big one-oh

So, it's my baby brother's birthday today.
He's 10.

:)

Learn from your mistakes... or don't.

Slept with the window open again.
Have pain around my left eye and in my left ear.
Ow.

Well, well, well, looks like I had a reason to be pissed off.

Yikes!
I called the guards on those people.
I hope I don't get in any trouble for anything.
Nervous now.

If I heard it right then the other neighbour went out a few times and told the Polish people to shut up.
They kept shouting so I called the guards.
Don't know what happened but it's quiet now.

Nasty

Oh dear, what a nightmare evening.
The Polish are having a party near my house and they're speaking in their goddamn language so loud.
Shut the hell up or at very least speak in English.
Kurva yourself.
Damn it, they can only speak one word of their damned language.
Kurva this, kurva that.
I really really don't like that nation.
I don't care it makes me a racist.
They asked for hatred, they get hatred.
I had nothing against the people before I met them.
They're a horrible horrible nation.
Yeah, stick together and get the fuck out of this country - back to your shitty homeland.
Scream and curse there all you want, you shits!

Saturday, March 27, 2010

14 hours, 2 GBs of Internet volume and loads of other numbers in the form of Sims updates

So I finally got my Sims game sorted and luckily my family saved.
Big thanks goes out to Sassy0984 for helping me so much. :)
I'm so tired of all this update thing I don't even wanna play the sims at the minute.
I will soon though, cause I wanna go on those holidays and explore the tombs.

Friday, March 26, 2010

Citrus blah

Lime
Orange
Lemon
Tangerine
Ew, these yokes are horrible!
I hate lime so much, cause it has the limiest taste!
Lemon's worse than orange, but you can use it when cooking so, it has a plus side.
Tangerines are as bad as oranges.
Eugh!
Just remembered as I'm eating tic tacs, lime and orange flavour.
Don't get me started on peppermint.
I hate that even more.
I have to have fruit flavoured chewing gum and toothpaste.
Peppermint
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Yesterday I crocheted a little bag:
little bag
On Tuesday when I saw my psychologist in a different town, I also went to a shop there
and bought Californian Sage and a new crystal to my collection:
Bloodstone











Messed up friends

So, when I was about 11 I was friends with this girl who ended up in a madhouse cause her parents were divorcing and fighting and what not.

Then a few years later a childhood friend of mine ended up in jail because of drugs and robbery and stuff.
And I received a mail from my mother the other day that the girl's pregnant again (the first time she wasn't put to jail when she was supposed to cause she was pregnant and had her baby and had to feed it and such). And so she's pregnant again and her man is beating her really bad.
And her brother drove a car to another town to get away froma drunk father or something. When he was 11.

So and now, another firend of mine is really messed up. She's being kicked out of her house by her mother and she had to walk out of her job, cause she didn't want to go in without taking a shower for a week.
And the "lovely" managers at the work place obviously complained that, "Oh what a bother, we have to find someone to cover you, blah blah blah". Have you been kicked out of your house by your mother or been homeless, bitch?! No? Then shut the fuck up and find someone to cover her! Gobshite managers!

Will get the girl to come and see a shrink with me next Tuesday at 10.

Been messing around with the Sims patches, confusing and time consuming...and byte consuming.
The bill will be a high one, I can tell ya.

Thursday, March 25, 2010

Armageddon

Ha! Saw the film yesterday.

Now, imagine there's an asteroid rushing towards the Earth.
What does an american do?
He sends a crew of 14 people, most of them deep core drillers, to space with only 12 days preparation, and one bomb.
Plus NASA is so out of this world that they won't budge when the existence of the Earth is at stake.
And then comes the all mighty president of America who has the world's future in his hands.
He gets to decide whether detonate the bomb or not.
Well, I guess the last bit's kinda true.
Bush did fuck up the world.
Speaking of Bush - is he neutered yet?

Glitches and bugs

So, this guy has been calling me, looking for a friend of mine.
Yeah, I don't know where she is.
Apparently she was found at someone's place.
Safe.

Not so informative and quite random.
Yeah, I just got phone calls from this guy asking if I had heard from her.
No.

Got to rant about my bf yesterday to Colette.
Was a good rant.
Talked about psychological stuff and phobias.

I also bought World Adventures, the Sims 3 EP.
Yeah, sent a sim to France and when she came back the sims panel was gone.
Woohoo, I'm so happy I wasted 30 euros on a bunch of glitches and bugs.
Thank you so much, EA.
Wish you good luck of releasing that kind of shit.
Next time just call you EP's The Glitches or The Bugs or The Shit or Go-on-waste-your-money-on-this-massive-label-whose-product-quality-has-hit-rock-bottom-and-the-makers-don't-give-a-shit-cause-they're-filthy-rich-from-stealing-your-money.
Anyway, I'll try reinstalling it and if it doesn't work, the shop better give me my money back.

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

Evil

Well, in the words of Eric Forman, yesterday was "one rooting-tooting, big old crap of a day."
Boyfriend was being absolutely evil to me.

Ate 6 Kinder Eggs.
Early Easter.

Got a phone call from a nurse from the clinic.
Will see a psychiatrist at 10:00 next Tuesday.
Psychologist at 15:00.

No sign of periods. Should I be worried?
Think it's either the antidepressants or my nerves.
Blah, today better be better.

Monday, March 22, 2010

All words

Yeah, so the last few weeks have really taught me that the life on internet is no life.
So there's people who give out to other people when in 'real life' they're as quiet as a mouse, under everyone's thumb.
You can have a big and long following on internet whereas in 'real life' you have no one.
And! On internet you can say stuff like, "Yeah, I want to participate in this project, I will write for my fucking life," or "Sure, I'll do this survey myself," when in reality people just fuck off and you're the one who has to do everything for the same fuckers who failed to carry through their promise.
Number one internet rule - trust and rely on noone!
Shane Dawson, get a proper job!
Damn those people. I hope you'll fail in your final essay.
(This is the first time I've used courier font. It's because it's ugly. In your honour, 'writers'- get bent and up yours!)

Sunday, March 21, 2010

Like a road runner coming after you

Billy Ocean
Geoffrey Oryema
















Well, well, well... I just love the look these two men have. Love the dark skin and light hair contrast. Absolutely gorgeous! And Mr. Oryema's eyes are just amazing. They're both singers, so I'll post some videos:

I love his voice!





 This man takes my breath away!





And well, since I already mentioned...er..coloured? men, I have to mention Lionel Richie.
Go on, Richie, rock the white hair!
Lionel Richie













  

God, I love these songs!







Oh well, I'll post about this young chap aswell:
Craig David

 Can't get enough of!






Damn, this could be my favourite ever post on my blog.
In addition to all of this dreamy abundance, I have another thing that has made me really excited:

Out later on this year! Woo hoo!

Saturday, March 20, 2010

A lesson

Sleeping with the window open has tought me a lesson: don't sleep with the window open.
Think the windy, wet weather crawled into my room and murdered my neck.
Sore.

Friday, March 19, 2010

I just cooked

I just cooked.
Wow, right?

Bought a stir fry mix - bean sprouts, red onion, peppers, corn, carrot, some white thing.
Plus prawns. I love prawns! YUM!
Plus a sauce - some oyster and garlic sauce.
Plus noodles, egg noodles.
Cooked them altogether.
Seasoning - chili powder and ginger.

Also made a smoothie.
2 bananas
1 kiwi
half of peach and cereal yoghurt
milk

The food wasn't the best, but I was hungry, so stuffed my face.
Smoothie's lovely and sweet.

Also bought Double Decker chocolate.
Yeah it says "milk chocolate with a soft, chewy nougat top & crunchy cereal bottom"
It tastes more like "milk chocolate with a soft, chewy toffee top & crunchy rice crispies bottom" to me.

Anyway, so I went to the shop before all this.
Really didn't like it.
I get really self concious when I'm the only person crossing the road when all those long lines of cars are wating after me.
Mh, I just hate all the traffic and the hustle-bustle.
It's so much better in my quiet little room.

Oh, paid 10 euro for the hospital bill.

Rockin' the REM with Chester Jenston

So, I had the weirdest dream this morning.
Had my window open and since there's like a transformers' gathering spot outside my window, the noise woke me up several times.
I guess that's why I never fell asleep deeply and had the chance to have this weird dream.
At first I was bathing my daughter who looked like a rag doll.
She jumped out of the bath and ran outside to play.
I ran after her to put a hat on her.
Then for some reason my bf was after me with no good intentions.
He then turned into my father.
So I got my daughter and we hid in the basement under the stairs.
Then all of a sudden I was attacked by this big burly man, wearing a tight gray short sleeved t shirt.
I kind of saw a sign under the stairs on the wall, that said Chester Jenston...or Jensen.
I was like, "Omg! It's Chester Jenston!"
He was sort of raping me, in doggy style if you must know.
I was freaked out at first and thinking, "Ew, a blond man is shagging me," (he had quite a puffy blond fluff on his head and I don't fancy blond men).
Then I told him, "Hey, this actually feels good."
And, "Can I put my daughter on the ground?"
For some reason we were floating while doing it and I had my daughter in my hands.

Anyway, then I woke up and went online to check who this Chester guy is.
Well, this is what I found when searching for Chester Jensen:
Does this look like a burly blond man wearing a tight gray T shirt?

Chester-Jensen are manufacturers of sanitary stainless steel heat exchange and processing equipment.
I have no idea why I got that name in my head.

Just got out of shower, will try to pay some of that hospital bill today. Got my money.
Feel shitty though...must be PMS.

Thursday, March 18, 2010

Prone to addiction

I'm absolutely craving for crisps and sweets.
It's insane!
I've watched That 70s Show like a hundred times and it never gets boring.
All of the 8 seasons!
The same goes for all the other DVDs I own and the films on my computer.
When I start liking a song, it's the only song I listen to for days or in some cases weeks.
Like yesterday, I was watching videos on Youtube and came over a Justin Bieber song.
I listened to it so so sooo many times.
Yeah, his voice is kinda girly and blah, but he does a decent job, plus I like pop music.
I don't fancy Justin - he's a child afterall.

Gaahhh, I need money, I want to buy yummy stuff. Damn the Social Welfare people.
If I don't see my money tomorrow I'm gonna be super pissed. And I mean super pissed!
I'm thinking maybe they won't send me the money cause I didn't pay the hospital bill yet.
Oh, let me tell ya, if you don't send me the money, I'll never pay for the damn bill. Just cause I don't have the money.

Moan. Moan. Moan!

Maybe I'll ask someone for a euro and buy a pack of chips. Then eat them with Taco sauce..mmmm.....

Saw the plains from a closed point of view

Saw a psychologist.
Talked the same thing all over again.
Stomach is being a bitch, must be the crisps I had last night.

A few posts ago I was talking about collecting money.
Well, since the damn Paddy's days has been all over the place this week, the Social Welfare bastards have been slacking and I didn't have money for the bus fare to go to the psychologist.
Had to cash my change.
Boo!
The bus took the long way to get to the town. Saw the plains I go walking on from the bus. Was weird.
Felt like a different place.

Anyway, putting some clothes to the wash and trying to eat something for the first time today.

Little funnies

Just have to say the old prayers






  






Father Dougal: Our Father, who art in heaven... (thinks)
Father Ted: Hollowed.
Father Dougal: Hollowed be thy... (thinks)
Father Ted: Name.
Father Dougal: (indecisively) Ah, papa don't preach.
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Gotta love the popculture

(Nicked it off someone's blog. Thanks!)
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Grooming when you're not grooming

(Father Dougal walks into the room)
Dougal: Morning, Ted.
Father Ted: Morning, Dougal. Uh, Dougal? There's, uh... There's some shaving cream just there. (points at his own neck)
Dougal: (looks at Ted's neck) No, there's not, Ted. You're grand.
Ted: No, on you.
Dougal: Oh, where exactly, Ted?
Ted: Just there, below your ear.
Dougal: Here? (rubs below his ear)
Ted: Yes, there's a bit more... (points at his own chin)
Dougal: (rubs own chin) Gone?
Ted: No, there's still just a... Dougal, it's all over the place.
Dougal: (walks in front of the mirror) Oh, God. How on earth did all that get there? I didn't even shave this morning.

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Shitty greetings from the arse

Oh, I just got 'owned' by a thirteen year old.=D
Was told to stick my forum up my arse and shit my pants.
Hahahaa. I was gonna leave a rather piquant comment on the child's formspring or blog, but thought it might be seen as an assault.
Oh well, shitty greetings from the arse so. Have a nice trip! ;)
Don't hurry back, nobody will miss you.
Nah... I'm not bothered, just thought it was funny how 'angsty' and full of 'attitude' the mail was when in her blog she said she's leaving a good forum cause the admin "doesn't want her there" and she was feeling all boo hoo hoo.
Oh well, it's my job to keep the forum clear of fakers.

Next!

Anarchist commie

I finally got Colette to go for a walk with me.
After asking about 20 times and being rejected.

Was kind of educating.
Talked about politics.
I learned way more about political stuff in those few minutes than I did over the years in school.
I now know that capitalism means working hard to earn the money and keeping the money.
Then I also learned what communism means - it's the equality of people.
I've heard people giving out about the communists, putting the idea down.
Well, I'm all for communism.
Back in the day when my home country was under the great wing of Soviet Union, my family was middle class.
As were most people we knew.
Everybody seemed to be living in those five storied blocks of flats and as much I remember from history class everybody had pretty much the same items cause the products were made and put on sale in bulk only once in a while.
So, as far as I remember so, people were living in middle and upper class.
Whereas now it's upper class and lower class.
I don't understand the negativity towards communism.
The idea is good and speaking from experience life was nice aswell.
I loved those big milk bottles and plastic toys.

I asked Colette if there was ever a country where anarchy was  accepted in the gorvernment.
She then said it means you want to kill the president.
I take it that it's well accepted in every country among the people aswell as the government.

I quess people hate communism cause they're all selfish greedy bastards.
Starting with the politicians.
I think there should be change of law in every country that states the decrease of politicians' wages by, say...90 per cent.
Come on, everybody knows politicians are bottom feeders.

At some point Colette said I was an anarchist commie. Sounds fair, so be it.


Then we passed a house that had a very smoky chimney.
The whole street was covered with smoke.
Think there was a fire, people were coming out of their houses and looking around all confused and worried.
Freaked me out. At that point I realised I'll never be a firefighter.
I got so freaked out I wanted to turn around and run away, off of that street.

We also got to rant about teachers.
She said she hated her art teacher.
Apparently the teacher would kick her out of the class cause she was a 'bad influence'.
The thing was that Colette at the time was into monochrome painting and the teacher didn't like how she wouldn't use other colours.
My stories included the never ending and never to be forgotten rants about my head of year in secondary school.
He was this old, fat stupid man.
When we first had him as a teacher he didn't know what our writing level was (I went to a literature school), so he made us write an essay. We had to pick one of these compositions: tragedy, comedy and sublime.
I wrote my story in a tone of sublime: was about a little boy who was stuck in the house cause of his illness and he had a dream of going out to the beach and swim in the sea. He eventually got to the beach and went for a swim, but he drowned. Got angry and scared at first and felt disappointed that the sea had done such a thing to him, but soon he realised he was free from his disease and...free altogether and was thankful to the sea. Very sublime indeed! :D
Anyway, I was absent the day we got the essays back but apparently he said that there was only one essay that fit the criteria and was 'perfect' and it was mine. He read it out loud and all.
Anyway, that was when he didn't know me. As time went on, the heavier and darker things got.
At one point he gave our essays back with grades on them, except on mine.
I went to him to ask what the deal was and he just wrote a negative grade without reading it or even looking at it. Tool!

And another time, we were talking about an upcoming essay. We had to do like research and soul search before writing a goddamn piece for him. So we were sat down in the class when he asked what was the most important thing in our lives. What matters most. He got every pupil to tell their things. Everybody named things like family, friends, love and money and a house and stuff. I was thinking the same, but what was the most important thing for me was time. The time to get all those things and to have them, to get done with my business here on earth while I had the chance. So when it was my time to name something important I said time. I couldn't start explaining myself cause the fucker started taking the piss out of me. Like, 'oh, okay, you think you stop the clock and the time won't move on...' Whatever. I don't think I explained myself.
The class was finished.
Next one was in the same room with him.
And at the start of it, he said the next essay we were gonne write was gonna be about time.
The little shit said exactly what I was thinking and suddenly it was all normal and not worthy of mocking.
He then asked some pupils in the class what they thought of the subject, he also asked me.
I said that I just said that a while ago and it was the biggest problem in the world for him.
He said, "If I were a dog I'd come and bite you right now."
What a tool!

Anyway, end of rants. I'm off to play the violin. Have to clean and tune it first, then apply some rosin on the bow... I guess I have to do it every time I use it, but I'm just too lazy.

Yeah, everything's cool

So after panicking, texting my bf who's probably drunk out of his mind by now, browsing web for possible side effects of a missed dose of an antidepressant, and ringing the hospital to talk to a doctor I realised that I have been on the tablet for two weeks, the first 4 days I took only half a dose - two tablets, which means I have two extra tablets.

Jaysas, the panicking!

First I texted my bf and aksed what was the chance of me going absolutely crazy.

Secondly, I browsed the web for free information numbers in Ireland.
Yeah, there aren't any, apparently. Well, they didn't show up on the internet.

Found the 118118 number. It said I can type in my number and question and they would send me a free answer.
Yeah, they didn't.

Well, that means I didn't have credit.
So, at around half one I went out to McLoughlin's to buy credit.
5 euro Meteor.
085.

On my way back I rang the hospital, asked to talk to a nurse.
Gave my DOB, name and phone number.

Got home and I don't know why or how, but it struck me then -
I must have two tablets extra, which means I should be covered for today and tomorrow.

So I started looking for them hoping to find them before the nurse called back.
Then I started doubting myself, thinking maybe they didn't give me 7 tablets for the week eventhough the prescription was weekly. So it is seven days. It took me a good 20 minutes of hard math time to figure it out.
Very hard! I'm really bad at math and I was panicky.

I was looking all over the place for the tablets, couldn't find them.
People even got home by the time I found my tablets.
One's sleeping in her room, her friend in the sitting room.

Anyways, then the doctor called and told me to go down to hospital in the morning and that they'd write a new prescription.

And then I found my tablets. Took one, feeling sleepy now.

Oh no! I'll go mad!

I forgot to go to the pharmacy and get more tablets!
Oh, I'm afraid I'll go all mad if I don't get a dose.
I don't care what the doctors say, those things are addictive!
Yikes, I will go sooo mad. Like the time I was too scared to take shower cause I thought I'll drown and too scared to go out of the house thinking I'd have a panick attack in the middle of the street and jump in front of a car and kill myself or too scared to be on my own cause I was worried that I might hurt myself somehow and die or too scared to be around anyone thinking they'll tell me I've gone mad when I have a panick attack.
Damn, damn! How did I forget!?
Fuck, I'll be missing two days! I will go soooo mad.

Everyone's gone




Yeah, everyone's off to celebrate St. Patrick's.
Everyone has a day off.
I hope the people in Social Welfare who forward money my way got my form done today.

Got a phone call from a man about me not paying the hospital bill.
I'll get round to it this week. I promise.
Boyfriend's car broke down.
Don't know what the situation is.
Like, car-wise and every other way aswell.
Mmh, I just hate the thought of this horrible thing I can't even type.

Anyway, things are not so saintpatricky for me.
I hope the corner shop will be open tomorrow, I need to buy food.

Two nights ago I watched Monster House:

It was quite good. I liked how grown up and realistic the characters and the conversations were. Very plausible.
Although the first thought watching this was, "That's way too scary for kids!" After the first...say, ten minutes Katriona went to take a shower so she wouldn't have to have one in the morning, so we paused the film.
I then checked the DVD box and it said Parental Guidance as a rating. Too right! I also read that it was by the makers of Back To The Future and Jurassic Park. Can't remember the Future dude's name, but I swear in the last scenes the house looked like a dinosaur. Don't know if it was cause I had Spielberg ringing in my head or if the house actually resembled a dinosaur. Anyway, I'll give it a 4 out of 5. See it!

Yesterday, I watched The Hangover:

Well, well, well... I had heard people say that was very good and very funny. So me and Katriona were in Tesco, I needed something to cheer me up, cause the tablets are making me either emotionless or negative emotional. I bought the beforementioned Monster House and Over The Hedge (which I haven't seen yet). We were standing there infront of the shelf with The Hangover on it and I said something like, "too bad I don't have money for that aswell, I've heard it's really good." And then Katriona said, "Oh I'll get it. I like it. I'll get it so you can watch it."
Okay, as said so done.
So I watched it and was waiting for "best comedy of the year""this film is brilliant" (as said by The Sun and FHM) moments, but I either missed them in the 96 minutes of the film I saw or they just weren't in it. The film itself is a big bad hangover, forgettable. I just feel bad now that Katriona got it just so I could see it. Oh well, at least she likes it herself. and



I've gone a while without mentioning my new followers. Got three more! :) Making it a total of 8.
Here are nellu. :), siiri and Annabel =) :
Hmh, what else. Oh yeah, I have to talk about it.
Lady GaGa and Lady Beyonce's video.
Too long. Less gibbersih, advertising random brands, more of the song and an actual music video.
I quite like GaGa's Monster.
"We might have fucked. Not really sure, can't recall"
Aw, what a good girl. :)
Oh well, I guess a girl's gotta do what a girl's gotta do - earn money.
So hopefully Monster won't be out as a single, cause I wouldn't like to see some milk ad as a video to this song.


Laters, have to take my pill. 29 minutes late.
Happy St Patrick's! Go easy with the drinks! ;) 


Monday, March 15, 2010

Change collecting

So, I will stay with this flowery layout.
It's not exactly my favourite, but it's the best I could find and it's fits here best too.

Have some new music, think it's hardstyle. No?
I don't know what it is since I don't normally listen to that kind of music.
But these three tunes I like.
I cut them short and all, just left the best bits.

So, now I have the best stuff out of the stuff I don't like that much.

Yesterday was another sleepy day.
I hadn't taken a nap since I started taking a full dose of Z, but yeah yesterday was a drowsy day.
The tablets make me feel like going crazy, like the time when I went off X.
Mad mad times!
Those tablets really mess with your health and head.
Luckily I will be seeing a psychologist on Thursday.
I hope it'll be a psychologist this time.
I also hope she will be able to sort me out.

Anyways, today I talked to Leanne.
We want to go live and work in Spain, cause it's warm and sunny out there.
Leanne's being kicked out of her mam's house.
Ahh, brings back all the 'lovely' memories from the days I lived with my 'family':
"I think it's time for you to move out, cause you're not part of the family..."
That was my mother having a conversation with me while putting socks on my bother's feet.

-"What's for supper?"
-"Oh, there's some cheese in the fridge, make a sandwhich if you like."
That's my mother having a conversation with me while eating dinner with her man and my brother.
Oh there's so many more of these little warm family moments.

Anyway, me and Leanne said we'd start collecting money.
Obviously the notes will be spent quickly so we're going after the coins and cents.
I have quite a nice little collection of change, hopefully I won't cash it soon to spend it on rubbish.
I want to go to Spain for the sunshine and beaches, she wants to go there to party, drink and shop.
Each to their own.
Hopefully will be able to do it all.

Saturday, March 13, 2010

Maybe temporary

I found a few skins so.
Searched for blogger layouts, found layouts, said to be for blogger. Were for Wordpress.
Some of them looked kind of weird on here, settled for this.
I just wanted one with some colours cause the old one didn't show the background picture.
Might change this one though.
Uploading new songs for the player.

Alright, Z is doing it's thing on me - feeling sleeeepy!
Night night.

Thursday, March 11, 2010

Save Tonight, brutally.

So, I've been told before that I'm kind of outspoken and rude.
Mostly by young girls. But as of today I'm also like that by older people.
Yeah, I'm not.
I'm rude only when I use rude words, like when I was ranting about internet or doctors.
That's when I am rude. It's deliberate.
I carefully find the perfect rude words when cussing.

Any other time, when I don't use rude words, I don't intend to be rude.
So when I say something that can be classed as brutal - I like to think I've picked the correct words to express how I feel exactly.
I'm only telling how I feel about something, I cannot help the way I feel and I didn't  invent any languages, so it's not my fault they have the 'brutal' words in them.

I'm not an evil person and would never be hostile toward a person for no reason.
I can be cranky cause if I do feel anger then it's mostly towards myself or my own life.
If I'm really pissed off about something I don't talk to anyone - I just cry, huff and slam doors.
Silent treatment is my bread and butter when dealing with a person I'm pissed off with.

So in the words of Jackie Burkheart: 'You know, I should probably be more generous and considerate with you... but I am what I am.'


Hmh and I think I'm gonna look for a new layout, cause for some reason the background picture of this masterpiece doesn't really wanna show that much.
Will upload new songs with the new look aswell. :)

Anyway, some tunes from Youtube.
Something for the girls that visit my blog to drool over:


Such a sexy version of the song. Love it!