I hope this drive will last for a while not just for tonight!

Okay, enough of the fat Diana business.
I look gross! Proper gross!
I gotta start working out, my belly's getting waaaaayy to big.
I have time to be so unfit when I'm old and frigid.
Ugghhhh, looks like I'm gonna have to start working out cause I know I'm not gonna eat less or less crap.

Plus, I really gotta do something with my life.
I hope this drive will last for a while not just for tonight!

Gahhh!

The Jessica sharing

Oooh! I just love it when I find a song that I adore and a singer with a voice to kill for!

I randomly found Jessie J today.

How amazing is she? Totally had to share her awsomeness.

Her official website, Twitter, Myspace, YouTube and Facebook

And here is some of her awesomeness:

Do It Like A Dude

the beautiful Who You Are

the amazing Mamma Knows Best

you are the man of the family, where are all the millions, why bring the shitty little cents home?

So my father continues to be sexist.
Like, earlier on today he told me to clean up cause "when there's a woman in the house the house has to shine".
What shit?!
First of all, he treats me like a goddamn little baby and he pretty much talks to me like I'm fucking retarded so by his words and meaning there's no woman in the house when I'm there.
Secondly, my brother is visiting me. I didn't see him clean the house when the other relative was around. His wife had to do all the cleaning.
And thirdly - if something is messy or dirty, clean it the fuck up yourself!

Ughh....I hate this sexist shit!
Well, I could so freely say, "Well, you are the man of the family, where are all the millions, why bring the shitty little cents home?"

Seriously like.

Aw

This is my brother's reply to my invitation. :D I just love his spelling! It's so wrong it's good. And no punctuation is the way to go! That single full stop really is unnecessary in there. :D

Terrible

Hahahaaa, oohh, since it's such a crappy day for me I'm allowed to be a bit mean to cheer me up.
That is such a brilliant thing to Google! :D

a stupid day

So, my father is being an ass as usual.
Like, my mother sent me money, but onto his account and he's not giving it to me.
He's like asking me what I want it for and talking about bills and shit.

Like I don't care, my mother didn't send it for bills she sent it for me.

And I don't know, like my father said that I got internet on my laptop that's why he should keep the money or something. Well, he told me that it was for free. Like, what the hell? I don't ask him for anything - the internet was the only thing and I never asked him to pay for the ticket back to Estonia, he did it all himself so he cannot act like he's done so much for me. Gahhh.... at least I have my own account set up now. Just have to go the bank to get the pass card.

Yeah... oh and this happened on YouTube today:

Yeah, there's no end to my sarcasm.
Gahhh, what a stupid day! Everyone's being a shithead.

Glee Rocky Horror Glee Show review

Oh. God.

I'm the one going on periods but it looks like my father is PMSing.

He started the whole window business again.

Like, he told me that the previous night when I had my window open that the temperature in my room must have dropped below zero.

I mean surely it did, it's only logical when the temperature outside is not below zero.

Like, seriously, I don't give a fuck about TVs and shit when I cannot sleep.

I need the window open otherwise the air gets so dry I keep waking up several times throughout the night.

And he got all smart and was like, "What? Are you hot?"

Erm...wow, what brilliant wit!?

Gahh, doing my head in properly.

I went out and bought three packages of noodles.

I only bought them as a substitute to crisps.

I know noodles aren't the best choice but I thought it won't be as greasy.

Just had bacon&cheese flavoured ones.

Were tasty enough.

Oh and it took me absolutely forever to watch the latest Glee episode.

Was quite blah, not too bad, not the best.

Finn was quite on the edge - all this "I'm self-concious about my body" business was cheesy, but luckily it didn't carry on for too long.

And I know what it's like to have tiny tits so I'm not being mean but it was really painful to see Dianna Agron's little cherries all squished inside that dress.

And Heather Morris sounded great.

That Jenna girl not so much.

And poor the blonde bloke.

Seriously, how did he dare dress up like that?

And I kind of looked up the guy, he's name's Chord Overstreet.

That doesn't sound human!

He's a great singer though and doesn't deserve to be embarrassed wearing golden shorts on Glee.

Please, get a real job, you're too good for that shi..ow.

And my main point was that my father's pissing me off, but since putting "Glee review" in the title got me loads of blog views, I'm naming the post Glee Rocky Horror Glee Show review.

Oh and my little brother will come over tomorrow. Woohoo! We'll be watching films and going for walks and maybe I'll be brave enough to travel to some place with him.

I'm officially fat!

Yeah bitches!
Just weighed myself - 59,4 kilos.
I'm officially fat!

Oh and about the Top Model shows or any other audition like the ones on the show - ugh, I hate it when people are like, "Oh I'm so fabulous and I want it more than anyone else and blah blah".
I know they gotta sell theselves but... ugh.

be miserable for the day and work on my forum all alone

Huh, so this morning had a bit of a weird start of the day.
Everyone in the family went to Tartu without telling me or even asking me to go along.
I wouldn't have gone anyway cause I cannot travel but it was super weird.
And I sooooo want to go to Tartu!
I haven't been there for like four years.
And about 4 months since I came back to Estonia.
Mmhhh... and on Tuesday I have to and see some woman in another town and this time I cannot go with my father, I actually have to go there alone by bus or train.
I will be freaking out!
I loathe travelling and it gives me such bad panick attacks.
Oh that reminds me I still didn't receive my important paper from my old workplace.
Get bent, fucks!

Yeah.. so I'm just gonna... be miserable for the day and work on my forum all alone.

Do you get nightmares or have nice dreams?

Oh and in relation to my blog entry Let The Illegality Commense - the relative who came to visit us, he brought a disk that has Avatar on it with him.
Yeah, it's a pretty good film.

Oh and my little brother will come and visit me next Thursday!
Yay!
He asked me what sleeping is like at my place.
He said, "Do you get nightmares or have nice dreams?"
What a boy, huh?
Mind!

He is soo amazing!
Like, he calms me down when I get a bit panicky cause of my phobias.
He says that things aren't ever really bad. He says that things are always natural.

he didn't and I caused a scene

Woop! I have internet on my laptop!
My mother sent me a bit of money...to my dad's account.
And I asked my father to buy the old... wi-fi router thing.
Well, he didn't and I caused a scene.
He then agreed to call the man over who sets up all sorts of internet and computer business.
And voila! I have internet on my laptop!

Yeah...and I've been feeling really sick.
Think it's a stomach bug or something.

Estonian people are pure evil. Period.

I've been feeling like poop for the last few days.
Kind of sick and tired.

One of my relatives will be staying with us for a few days.
I'm not sure I've seen him before :D

And hopefully my little brother will come over to my dad's place on his school holiday.
I really want to hang out with him cause he's such a tormented little soul.
Estonian people are pure evil. Period.
It's unreal how intolerant those bitches are.
Seriously, my brother is not a healthy little kid.
He has problems but there is no way grown ups are allowed or justified to blame him of such horrible things.
And it's not just me saying it.

The woman I flew to Estonia with, the last time I did it, her son has Asperger's or hyperactivity or something along those lines and people are just giving out to him.

You cannot do it!

Like if a child is unable to walk you're not going to give out to him and be like, "Fucking walk! Will ya!?"
Or be like, "Right, he cannot walk, he is sick - that means he's an idiot and a perv."

Right, off to clean the room for the arrival of my relative.

Thanks for stopping by

Teen and incest? Wow, you really are a perv! :D

Aye

I just realised my blog time is still in Ireland's timezone.
Oh and that reminds me, I saw a film the other day.
Brad Pitt was in it. Playing an Irishman.
His accent wasn't all that bad, although during the five and half years I was there I never really heard anyone say "Aye".
I loved hearing the Irish accent, made me feel warm and fuzzy. :)

bellyful

Had my very first belly dance lesson today.

Ha!

Never thought I'd dance.

Well the way I move cannot be called dancing so... :D

I missed the two first lessons but oh well.

One of these days I'll be downloading a "bellyful" of belly dance music.

Oh and I was the only person asking questions during the lesson.
I just tried to look involved and eager to learn.

Plus, I didn't understand that much! :D

Oh yeah and I'm officially the laziest person I know.

Went raking today.

Did it for about 10 minutes then came back home.

And I missed school today.

I woke up when the alarm went off and all but I just turned it off and went back to sleep. :D

I cannot help it! I like to sleep!

Oh that reminds me, I have to go to bed, it almost half one.

Let the illegality commence!

Okay, I'm totally on the hunt for a new film.
I mean a new film on my computer.
I'm thinking Avatar.
Let the illegality commence!

Life isn't fair.

This day suck so much.
I hate coding!
Div1 this Div2 that!
I spent the last few hours coding this stupid little thing and it still won't work.
Plus I think I'm coming down with a cold.
And I still cannot get internet on my laptop!
And Kevin McSex is too damn hot!

Life isn't fair.

it has got to be all white

So... I went for a walk the other day.
And it was snowing!
Woohoo!

Okay it has got to be all white out by my birthday.

Glee Duets review

Yeah, I didn't make it to school today cause I felt too drowsy in the morning.
Think it's the antidepressant making me feel this way.

Anyways, I saw Glee today.

Well, I gotta say it wasn't half as bad as the other episodes so well done Glee people.
I'm still not the biggest Finn fan but Cory Monteith has become a better actor.
And I dunno whether they got new equipment in the auto tune department but he sounds a lot better than he used to.
He hasn't been to cheesy in the last few episodes either.

Although I think he looks waaayy too old to play a 16 year old kid.

And so does Lea Michele.
I think she kind of forgot what her character used to be like and she just... played herself.
Where's the squeaky voice and fast talking?!

And I'm glad there was quite a bit of Santana.
She's the bitch!

And onto Artie.
Oh god. He is such a woman!
I was seriously like, "Oh shut the fuck up, bitch!"
He totally doesn't deserve any women cause he whines too much.
Damn drama queen.
Seriously like, if your virginity is such a big thing to you then why the fuck do you complain about losing it after losing it. That thing is about the manliest thing about him.
Like, thinking with your dick.
What kind of a normal man accepts a girl his girlfriend a few seconds after she randomly confesses she likes him.
Seriously?!
Get back to masturbation, mister!

And what the hell did the Glee people think they're doing when they made Quinn say, "I wanted to punch you" or something along those lines.
Yeah, it doesn't work when the characters of Glee say it. Only Glee viewers can say that.
And Rachel and Finn's "cheesy" number wasn't that cheesy it was just like a normal Glee song.
And no, it didn't sound/look like "Yeah, we're so cool at Glee here that we can laugh at ourselves" it was just like "Err.... boring scene much!?"

Yeah, that's about it.
I'll go now and feel drowsy.

Oh one more thing, I just looove this song:

sparkling f***

Okay, I ll try to blog without any curse words.
I know swearing is terrbile, but it feels so good.

Anyway, my swearing organ is sooo tired today.

Basically...I ve been doing this video thing for my forum all day.
I didn t even go to school cause of it.
Well sort of.
I just brought that out as an excuse.
But seriously I don t know what is happening to me.
I totally resent school.
In the morning I was like, "Oh its raining today, I don t have a warm enough coat to go out in"
And it s all true, but the school building is like a three minute walk away from my house.
I can see it from my window!
I think it s cause my sleeping is out of order.
I go to bed at three and four o clock most nights.
Again.
And it started when my father wouldn t let me sleep with his crazy window business.
I swear!
It would be kind of okay if I didn t go to school and studied a lot at home but I don t even do that.
I ve let myself go.
It s so disappointing and annoying.
It s one o clock now and I should be in bed but I just cannot go.
Oh and I dunno if it aired already but I was looking for the new episode of Glee online.
Didn t find anything.

Yeah the Artie - Brittany thing isn t fooling anyone.
Everybody knows it s a cover up for the Jenna-girl and Kevin s real life romance.

Yeah...I m so tired from working on the computer all day...

Oh... I m too tired to laugh now but some girls posted links to some really funny sites.
Oh how I laughed.
I laughed so hard I was hurting all over.

Even my father came into the room twice to ask what I was laughing at.
I ll post some pics off the site.
I ll upload the pics off the url so... I dunno how it ll look like.
Just... I don t anything and credit goes to whoever made them jokes.

Oh. My. God!!! That killed me!!! :D :D :D :D but it s so ture!

I just love how one person on thw website uses the word sparkling.
It just...brilliant!
Like, sparkling f***! (No swearing today!)
I hope it sticks!

Pahahaaa.. this one s just too good!

Aww... I fancy the older Rupert Grint.

LOL!

Ahahaaaahhhaa

I ll leave it at that. Oooohhh...too funny! I mean Justin Bieber is a cute little boy and all but the jokes are waaaayyy too funny. You gotta laugh! Whoever wrote these has to be a millionaire!
I like it that they re taking the piss out of Katy Perry cause she deserves it cause her man is an e****. Seriously... he probably got so angry at the papparazi cause Justin Bieber was under Katy s skirt. T***!

One thing I m complaining about

I ve gone fat, man.
My belly is like... fat.
I m feeling healthy and all but on the other hand I do feel like I m starting to worry about my figure.
Like I m so unfit it s disgusting.

The plaque of Youth

So, last night I got talking about being bullied.
It was with a girl on my forum.
And yeah...I discovered it s not so good to be all whiny and shit and be like "Oh, I was hurt!"
I mean seriously, I had my chance to stand up for myself and I didn't.
I let those people walk all over me.
I mean they were not in the right to treat me like shit even when I made myself an easy target but why the hell would they stop and think about me when I wasn't doing it.

And then I had a little chat with my stepmother today.
Like, there s a whole big bunch of girls on my forum talking about killing themselves.
So I asked my stepmother what to tell them.
She kind of scoffed and said saying stuff like that is stupid.
She said... basically... it s like, we don t live to be happy or to be on high.
We live to gain knowledge and to put the thing in good use.
So when you think life is supposed to be all sunshine and pink unicorns then when reality hits you you re "depressed" and talking about suicide.
Having "problems" is a natural thing.
And a thing really isn t a problem until you put that label onto it.
If you want to see a problem you ll see a problem.
The world doesn not revolve around any of us so we have to kinda move with the world otherwise there s depression.
Oh and if there are any obstacles then why be all like "Oh my god, it s all weighing me down!"
Not all problems are that important and need to be solved right then and there.
Start with one thing, solve it it and get onto another.
And if there s something that keeps repeating itself then the problem most likely lays withing yourself.

And then the kids who are talking about killing themselves - they say no one cares for them, not the parents nor the friends.
But it really isn t a one way thing.
If no one is showing you love then most likely you aren t either.
And mothers don t have the time to baby yous all the time.
They have to go to work, tidy up, cook and worry about money problems and lets their daughters be grown ups.

And I ve said that before that no one else can live your damn life.
You make it yourself and you live it.

I m so not preaching, just saying.

And where the fuck hass the aposthrope gone from my computer!?

kangaroo is the emblem of Canada

Okay, so my brother couldn't t find dandelion.
What turned out though, is that he didn't even need the word.
The word he was looking for was shamrock.

Oh and did you know that kangaroo is the emblem of Canada? :D

I swear, if I don't have a genius I don't want a child!

Gahh, seriously my brother is driving me mad!
When doing homework all he can say is, "I don't know, I don't understand"
He's been doing his English homework for two and half hours now.
First half he said he didn't understand what he had to do in the exercise.
And it basically said like "read".
He seriously has the attention span of a fish.

The other half he's been trying to find the word "dandelion" in the dictionary.
Yeah, he can't work a dictionary.

I swear, if I don't have a genius I don't want a child!

I'm famous! LOL

So I had pages and pages of Google alerts in my mailbox.
Went through them all to delete the unnecessary ones.
Here's what I received:

I made it to the Google Alerts.
I'm the bitch! :D
I can die happy now.


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How can you accuse a ten year old child of sexual abuse?!

Okay, so apparently one of my brothers is a bit of a perv.

He's always had problems in school.

And with communication.

So he's been chasing some girls in school and been all "kissy-kissy".

And the mothers of some girls in his class have threatened to go to police with the whole thing.

Like... err...

My mother got quite a shock when my little brother was still in kindergarten cause those little girls were like, "Oh, we have sex everyday". And everybody was like cool with it.

And now my brother is chasing girls and trying to kiss them and he's a perv!

And some asshole mothers want to get the police involved in it.

My brother isn't gonna shag the little bitches for Christ's sake!

He's only fucking t e n!

Seriously, those people in his school are riding him so hard.

He has ADHD okay, he doesn't fucking rape your precious little bitches!

Seriously, get your tiny cunts out the class and get gone!

If the police gets involved in the business then my brother will get kicked out the school.

And who the fuck! seriously charges a ten year old with sexual harrassing!?

My mother is totally ready to go to court cause of the fuckers in the school for blaming my brother for such thing. Like, okay he has a bit of a difficult personality, that doesn't make him wrong in everything he does and it is not fair to blame him for stuff.

They're totally over-reacting in the school.

And my mother has said like a hundred times that when there is a problem to contact her.

And no one does!

Everyone is being a self righteous cunt and want to go to police.

Seriously, for fuck's sake, my brother is ten, he's not a fucking murderer or a rapist.

I cannot believe how evil some mothers are.

How can you accuse a ten year old child of sexual abuse?!

Grilled Cheesus Glee

Saw the episode.

Well, it had it's ups and downs, more ups than some other episode.

Anyway.

How many people have been in a situation where one of their family member is in coma in hospital and when going to see the person they find a whole bunch of their own classmates/co-workers visiting their sick family member who have nothing to do with the sick person?

And they're all singing to the person and trying to convert them into three different religions at the same time?

Seriously, Glee writers?!

And Mercedes totally took the cake in this episode.

The cheesecake that is.

I seriously said, "What the fuck?" out loud when she said she can't say something, she needs to sing it.

In the words of Red Forman, "But really, who the hell talks like that?"

And then later on she convinced Kurt to go to the church with him.

God damn, let the kid be!

That's bloody christians for you, drag you down to hell with them.

And that scene totally backed up my point - Christianity is brainwashing.

Mercedes totally brainwashed Kurt with her glorious speech.

Oh and where was Artie when the football match was on!?

The rest of the characters and plot are just so boring, it's all a big blahhhhh....

Oh and I read an article that there was gonna be a gay suicide episode.

Seriously.

Back in the day when I just started secondary school we had to write an essay so that the new teacher would know what our writing level was.

We had to write thing in either tragic or comedy manner or sublime.

Think I have posted about it before.

Anyway the teacher said that it might be a bit difficult to separate the tragic from sublime.

But anyway, I managed to do it.

And I was a pupil in secondary school.

And it's just unreal how the professional writers of an international TV show can't separate sublime from cheesy.

Get back to school!

Now!

And don't even think about mocking such a serious business!

You're not as powerful and fucking glorious as you think you are.

Your show does NOT speak to the audience in the way you think it does.

It is NOT something new.

It's just a long pointless music video to cover songs.

Speaking of songs, I'm not too much intop them anymore.

Although Grilled Cheesus delivered a few good tunes.

I actually liked Finn's Losing My Religion.

And I'm not the Jenna-girl's biggest fan cause she's riding the hottest man on the planet, but she sounded really really nice on One Of Us.

And "thank god" Mark Salling has his solo thing going on.

He's too good for the show.

But you know, some jobs are just to pay the bills.

I've worked in McDonald's and delivered cheeseburgers so I can relate to the feeling of working on Glee.

God, I hated that job!

One turned 10 in March. And the other one is 11 today.

Well, it's my brother's birthday today.
My other brother, like.
One turned 10 in March.
And the other one is 11 today.

Cooking.

Hopefully will get a few nice pics later on.

Speaking of bitches and bitchiness

Okay, I gotta stop watching Friends.

I just cannot stand Rachel.

She is the most annoying and bitchiest character ever!

And why the fuck are the writers of the show shipping her and Ross so much?!

Like, I'd like to see what kind of people actually want their friends to go out with each other.

In most cases, it's like, "It's a very bad idea, don't do it" not like, "Aww, Rachel, you've got such nice hair, you're so not the cuntest ever person and I love you"

Seriously, like.

She is an annoying bitch and not funny or cute at all.

Like, why the fuck is she being such a cunt when the man has wanted her for years.

It's her own damn fault for being so goddamn stupid and not realising he liked her.

If you missed it, too bad, stop being a fucker and get over it.

Gah!!!

Oh and here's another blog entry of mine, in which I murder the bitch.

Speaking of bitches and bitchiness - yeah I was bitchin' about the bitch but that's not the point - I cannot believe how terrible the girls in those modelling shows are.

It doesn't matter whether it's American, Canadian or Australian models they're all so evil.

Like, why on Earth is it anyone's business if some contestant talks to her friends or has had a boob job.

If it's so against the rules tell it to the producers or something, why fight.

Oh and I had one favourite girl in one of the shows but she was being an arse so I stopped liking her.

Ughhh.... Yeah, I'll try to make it to school tomorrow.

Think I have chemistry. Hopefully just one class cause I'm still stressed out cause of the father.

Oh and I want to get my forum done.

I have a few widgets that I cannot get working.

I've spent so much time on trying to get them work so that I can't be bothered to get them work anymore.

And then I'm kind of disturbed by all this Kevin McSex business.

Something is so unsettling.

Yeah, if I were to have McSex only if I married him, I'd do it.

But it's so annoying fancying some famous dude cause you'll never have him or even know him at all.

Like one time, I fancied this non-famous guy for about a year.

I never talked to him.

Then I got talking to him and he was the arse.

I could not believe I had wasted a whole year liking him.

Blahhh...I have like a million thoughts in my head right now and they all want to come out at the same time so I better stop.

Husbands are stupid fuckers.

Okay.

Things are pretty serious around here.

The father is full on mad person.

I have no idea what's going to happen.

I haven't gone to school over a week now cause the man is stressing me out so much.

Gahhh, I'm beginning to hate this place.

Seriously.

There is absolutely no waz I will ever marry anyone.

Husbands are stupid fuckers.

veg is paranormal

So I was in the mood for a bit of thrill.

I decided to read some ghost stories on the net.

Yeah, I experienced annoyance more than thrill.

Why the hell do people think that everything they don't know how to explain is paranormal?!

Like, I don't know what happens to all the veg in stores before they're put on sale.

I don't know what kind of stuff the farmers use to make their veg better.

Does that mean veg is paranormal?!

I don't know how to build a house. Does that make all buildings paranormal?!

Seriously, a lot of people need a reality check!

After reading about the ghostly experiences I'd like to tell the people to either go get councelling or get a doctor to prescribe you sleeping pills or antidepressants.

There were no ghosts or anything paranormal in your stories, just your paranormal stupidity and personality/sleeping disorders.

Next time you talk about hearing, feeling or seeing things don't be so sure everyone's as stupid as you are - some people actually have brains and know you suffer from disorders and thanks to your blabbing about ghosts, your stupidity.

Seriously, like.

Another thing I remembered - why is eating meat bad?

Well, apparently it is bad. Especially beef.

My stepmother said that cows are wise animals and know very well when they're about to get killed.

So before they die/get killed they have this major adrenaline rush cause they're trying to survive.

And then people go and eat the cow's fear.

That makes people violent and angry.

Well, simply put, they eat the bad hormones that the cow's body produced when it was being killed.

Ugh, but beef is so yummy!

Especially veil!

Oh and back in one of the first ever classes in school - this year, like - the teacher asked the class what fabrics their clothes were made of.

One boy said, "Puusärk" - "wooden shirt" - meaning a coffin.

And another said, "My top's made of a rug"

:D Ha! I had forgotten how silly those secondary school boys are.

Yesterday was a big day for my forum as well.

I have been manning the thing for a year now.

How super!?

Oh and we're trying to do a video type of thing of the members.

That is such a great idea, hope it will work out.


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