Congrats to me

So I successfully finished my first week on the job! Woohoo! Congrats to me for sticking it out, with my anxiety and all.
At mother's house.

so pampered...yet not well

I feel so pampered...yet not well. My feet are absolutely killing me. But I got to take a shower, rub some gel on my feet and put soft socks on.
Ahh...work. Tomorrow's my last day this week. Mother here I come!

Ahh...work. Can't wait for it to be weekend!

Ahh...work. Can't wait for it to be weekend! :D
It's not too bad actually but I haven't visited my mother's house in ages. Friday, right after work I'll go down there and enjoy my very first official days off from work. Well, I hope I'll last til friday. Anxiety hasn't been too bad so I should be good.
I'll take my camera with me tomorrow and take some pics of the cherry trees I'm working on. Not that there's anything beautiful but still...

in a greenhouse all day

Oh dear goddess. Yesterday I had my very first day at my new workplace. Was in a greenhouse all day cleaning up cherry trees. I was literally dead by the end of my work day and was too tired to blog.
I was just dozing off til I properly fell asleep.
Had a bit of a fever aswell and felt crappy so I didn't go in today. Ugh, I wish I was rid of this flu already.

What a doofus

Okay yesterday was one of the worst days. I didn't feel my best and still don't feel okay as of today. So no work for me, for now.
Secondly, I think I was sort of raped. Had this guy over and he was waaaaayyy over eager. Plus the dink didn't cum on a safe place. What a doofus! I hope I won't get pregnant from him.

The future is looking bright even if it won't be

So I managed to fall ill after all, after all this time. Have a sore throat and runny nose. Have been feeling quite okay otherwise. Anxiety wise. Been super bored though, cannot wait to start working next monday. And I cannot wait to go down a dosage of one of my pills. The future is looking bright even if it won't be.

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been taking the wrong pills all along

So it looks as though I've been taking the wrong pills all along. Last night I felt a cold coming on so I drank a flu tea which contained paracetamol. After a while I started feeling so good. It totally worked for my anxiety aswell. I went to the shop and didn't think about anxiety at all when normally I have to keep fighting against an anxiety attack when visiting a shop. I have yet to discuss it with my doctor.

dried leaves on cherry trees

Okay, the job interview went quite well. Will have a test day on Monday. Have to clean up the dried leaves on cherry trees. :)

job interview this wednesday

Squee! I've got a job interview this wednesday. If I get the job I'll be working in a garden. My anxiety should really chill for now. I can have it when I'm at home.

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it's like going into snakepit

Oh dear.
I just made an appointment with a psychologist for 27th of March. I'm already dreading it now.
Mother said she wants me to be in hospital.
Ugh, it's like going into snakepit.