Oh bother!

Oh bother! It's so snowy out that I didn't get to cycle to my mum's place. Ugh, who asked for this much snow anyway!? I soooo cannot wait til spring.
Now I'm stuck in my bed and will do fuck all over the weekend. Not that I ever do shit at my mother's place but still.
Maybe a lad will come over tomorrow, Raivo. He said he'll take me for a walk. We'll see how that goes.
Yeah and I cannot believe it's the end of November already. And still. On one hand, where did November go? And on the other hand, the winter hasn't officially started yet and it's already this snowy.
Blah!

Glee Thanksgiving review

Okay, who's great idea was it to have Naya sing back up to Dianna? It was very disturbing.
And again, why are random people walking through the school like nobody's business? Is it an American thing?
I cannot believe the whistle song was on Glee. Don't the bosses know what the song is really about!? And why censor "handjob" then!?
Hahahaa...the party in New York was fun! :D
The second act at the sectionals was good.
I'm sorry...I try not to be rude but it's impossible. The Sasquatch has the ugliest mouth ever, it's just gross when she moves it. Plus the horrible bingo wings.

other worldly

Okay. Everytime I pass the cemetary I talk to my grandmother and grandfather. In my head. I mostly ask for support and alleviation. You know, for anxiety. And maybe there is something other worldly going on. Cause last week I didn't make it to uni once. Thinking maybe the alleviation took this kinda form. When I'm not in lectures I don't get anxiety. This is not what I actually want but I appreciate the support. If it is other worldly.

I'd be bedding the fit lad by now if I was in town

Okay, the fit lad only wants a sexual relationship. I wouldn't mind but I dunno how long I can keep it up since I might get into a relationship with another lad.
Oh how I wish I hadn't come to my mother's place today. I'd be bedding the fit lad by now if I was in town.

I wish!

Squee! The fit one night stander just messaged me. Marko. Ahhh, he's so yummy. Hopefully we'll have another night together. I wish!

Glee Dynamic Duets review

Um, not much to say. I guess the show is getting better since I don't have much to bitch about.
I was a bit excited about the special needs teacher since I'm studying to be one. Well, sort of. Haven't been to lectures for a week.
Yeah, and the Marley thing was relatable for me when she went and asked that guy out. Been there, done that, under this very same circumstance. Hell, that's how I lost my virginity.

Kinda scary

Okay, I might be stepping into my second relationship. Kinda scary. Will see how it goes.
Oh and I'm totally boycotting uni. Should totally start going!

G or V?

Ahhh, I just love having toy boys! Had one over just now. Raigo.
He kinda was talking about a relationship aswell. Um, this might get tricky since another lad was kinda talking about it too. Raivo.
We'll see.

I'm officially 27 now

Blub. I'm officially 27 now. Friday was a crappy day. Haven't really felt like eating for a few days. Don't know if it's the anxiety or just a cold. Have a little fever and all. I hope it won't last long. Will go to bed soon, hopefully when I wake up I'll feel better. Cause like... we're making salad and we have a cake, I'd like to be able to eat.
And it took me forever to watch Glee cause I felt so ugh. Was okay I guess.

a few one night stands

Okay, so I basically have a lad who's willing to be my boyfriend.
Ughhh..I dunno if it's right though. I mean the one guy I really fancy doesn't want me. The guy I have a chance with, I mean he's okay looking and all and we get on but I don't feel the kinda spark like I do with the other dude. Why can't I for once in my life, get what I want and who I want.
I don't give a shit that I slept with the fit guy, I want him for myself, like for regular shagging and cuddling and stuff.
We'll see how that goes.

Anyway, have a test on Friday. Ugh, the tests just keep getting harder and harder. I don't wanna do them anymore. I hope I get at least 5 points for the test. I'm making cheats tomorrow cause there's no way I'll be able to know the stuff by heart.

And then it's onto my mother's place! And my birthday!!!! Yay! :D Hopefully my dad's family can make it over to my mum's place.
Ahhh, cannot wait for the weekend.

Oh and I wanna shag someone. Think I'll have a few one night stands before deciding on the dude.

Well done, Taylor

being a whore

Okay, yesterday I met up with yet another lad. Seemed kinda okay. He brought me flowers. Three roses. Luckily they're not red, pinkish white.
Didn't sleep with him so that's something new.
Think it was my mother's talk that made me change my natural routine. She said I was being pretty much a whore. I didn't think there's anything wrong with being a whore but she said I need a good positive relationship and it might just help me with my anxiety. She told me not to be so open. We'll see.

Glee The Role You Were Born To Play reivew

Oh fuck, if it's not Kurt and Blaine all lovey dovey, we have to put up with them crying over eahc other.

I kinda have a feeling the show is gonna fail real bad amongst the die hard fans when all these new people come in.

Well, I must say it was a rather good solution to make Finn the leader of Glee club.

On a personal note, didn't go to class today cause I'm so embarrassed for not being able to learn stuff. I just can't study...nothing sticks.


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Right!?

So I can add yet another lad to the list who isn't my boyfriend, Martin.
God, he was stuck on my like a clam. Thought he was gonna break my ribs. Eugh... don't fancy him. I so want it to happen between me and the Kevin-dude, Marko. He is so cute! Don't think he's interested though since I sent him a message and he replied very briefly. Sent him a text asking him to come over today and he said he couldn't. Think if he was interested he'd say "Can't tonight but maybe some other night". Right!?
Wanna cuddle with him so bad!

And I'm almost twenty fucking seven!

Oh come one! What's a girl to do to get a boyfriend!?
So far I've had Stephen whom I dated for four months.
Then Connor who I dated for three days.
Then Robert whom I dated for three months.
Then was flirty friends with David and got down once with him.
Then my only boyfriend Ronan, whom I was in a relationship for a year and seven months.
Then a shag buddy Teet.
Then Magnus for a while.
Then Rando and that bastard raped me.
And now I had the fit guy but nothing's gonna come out of that.
Blahh....and I'm not counting the other nothings.
And I'm almost twenty fucking seven!

Oh and today was the unfortunate day I had to leave a lecture cause my anxiety was so bad. I'm thinking it was cause I hadn't eaten or cause my period is about to start.

Kevin McHale lookalike

Gah, just had a Kevin McHale lookalike over! Thank god we shagged!

birthday gift from the mother

Plus! I will get a new jacket for winter. It's my birthday gift from the mother. Yay! Cannot wait to wear it. I've become too fat for most of my clothes. It's the antidepressants for ya.

just talked economy

Woah, just talked economy with a guy. Never have I ever done it before.

thank goddess for my blog

Ahh, thank goddess for my blog where I can rant. I got this whole thing..the adenoid thing out of my system when I ranted about it before and the mother's man clearly didn't.
So when I went downstairs later he was still in a fit. Hahahaaa....it's his own fault. He so wanted to be right and shit. Then he accused me and the mother of being nervous and stuff when he was the only one blabbing in the middle of the kitchen while me and mother watched on.

So damn healthy!

Gahh! Men!
The mother's man was saying how doctors don't know anything and how he knows better. He was saying he had an old man as a doctor and how he was so sure of himself when diagnosing. And he was saying the doctor was an ass. Which was sort of ironic since he himself is old and so sure of himself.
We were talking about how my friend's baby has adenoids and she needs to have an operation done. And my mother's man started ranting about how the baby doesn't have adenoids and he was so right about it and that the doctor who diagnosed her was an ass.
Oh god! Yes I agree doctors are asses and don't know shit. But I believe doctors know more than the mother's man. After all, they studied the thing for 10 years.
Besides, the man hasn't even ever seen the baby. So how the hell does he know what she does have or not?!
I only said the baby is said to have adenoids and he started telling me how she doesn't. What a tool!

And I hate it how him and mother are trying to get me to drink alcohol. They say it works better than my medicine and that my doctor doesn't know anything. Yeah, I can see how healthy they are! He is sick with tuberculosis and she has bladder problems. So damn healthy!