sweet sugar muffin

Oh god, I'm totally head over heels in love with Jonathan Taylor Thomas. :D
I've seen Home Improvemnt like a hundred times and I was fine but for some reason now, I fancy him. I've been looking him up on the net and he looks like a sweet sugar muffin even now. I think it's the first time I'm attracted to someone older than me. But he's short and dark haired, so no change there. I just love his mannerisms.

wishful thinking!

So I have my job til the end of July. I thought of going to my father's place for August but I'm not too sure. I'm afraid I will get anxiety while riding there. Riding my bike that is. The father said he can come and collect me in his car but...yeah, I don't do cars.
So I don't know now... I really wanna be at my father's place but the going there is kinda blah. I thought I'd ride up to Viljandi (about 60 km) and get a room in a hotel for a night. Then ride the next 30 km to Võhma the next day.
Everyone's kinda bashing my bike. It has served me so well and I love it and I doubt it'll break down. Although, I'd like my father to be available to pick me up in his car when I get too tired from cycling.
But the problem is that the father will go on a holiday to Russia on Tuesday and won't be back til the ninth or tenth of August. And I wanted to go there right at the satrt of August. Ughh...so I dunno what will happen.
Oh and I'm off my antidepressants. I'm only taking the antipsychotic now. Will take a lowered dosage of that tonight, for the first time. Maybe I can get off all of my pills and then get by with 7 drops of Valium per week.
Ahhh...all this wishful thinking!


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I somehow hurt

Woo, went swimming for the first time this year. I somehow hurt my thumb:

So I was pretty shocked about Cory dying... but come to think of it he's just another drug addict who overdozed. It's sad really, cause it seemed he had everything going for him. Well, to be honest it was my mother who made me look at it rationally since I myself was pretty shocked. I also found out my mother doesn't like Glee. She called it stupid. Yay, mother!

rehab is a pointless place

Wow. What horrible news to wake up to.
Looks like rehab is a pointless place.

Burn!!!

Absolutely loving this song! Ellie can do no wrong. I'm so glad she's become so popular ever since I first mentioned her on my blog.

I won't bitch

I hereby promise I won't bitch about Jenna Ushkowitz anymore and I'm sorry that I have.

More about mowing the lawn

More about mowing the lawn. LOL :D
Mother's man bought a lawn mowing tractor. I used it. I got a little anxious but hopefully driving it will help me with riding cars. I even sat in my mother's man's car today. Yeah, just sat there.

Thank you actor

Lawn mowed. Scared the shit out of my mother. She told me to leave the bushes and trees where they are.
She also said, "Thank you actor. The lawn was mowed in five minutes."

mow the fuck out of the lawn

So apparently Kevin McHale is engaged and expecting a baby.
I'm gonna go and mow the fuck out of the lawn now.
Shit! My weekend is ruined!

Wake Me Up

I had really bad anxiety and nausea yesterday. Maybe I had sunstroke, dunno.
Anyway, today has been a lot better. Plus I found this song I heard on the radio a while ago and I'm loving it:

Aaand... oh...I don't even know what the situation is with me and men. One dude wanted to give it a go but haven't heard from him for days. And I really want the one who went to army. He seems really nice.

coffee and cream

It's unreal how well coffee and cream go together! Yum!

I'm at my mother's place. Got here one hour and one day too early. Left work an hour ealry and the boss gave Friday off. Yay!

edit: oh and I just noticed that my previous post was my 1000th post :)