Yellow

Ahh...bleached my hair. It's sort of getting to the colour I want. Yeah a bunch of selfies to show it off and to just show off.

 The last pic is a fail :D I was about to take a photo and the sun shone right into my eyes, so it's not posed. I know my hair is yellow and blah blah blah but I wanna be blonde.
Yeah and here's what I did today:

Painted the shed door yellow. Like my hair :D

And Lembit finished our new DIY grill/oven thingy:

Whichs also seems to be yellow. Ha!

the happiest time of my life

I put my boots on the market.

Ahh...that was the only time I wore them. I think that time was the happiest time of my life. I loved living with Natasha and Suzy. Although that dress is freaking me out. When I was in madhouse, the last week, I wore that dress everyday.

Plus I found these two pics from the photoshoot I did for the acting agency thingy:

Gahhhh, I love my hair in these pics but the top was a wrong choice. Katriona gave it to me. I like it but it doesn't look good on me.

considerate

Okay, my mother and co want to be considerate of me and go to a lake close to our home tomorrow. But I cannot be in a car at all. I just can't be arsed to deal with my anxiety. I hope they'll go further so I can stay at home. I don't wanna swim that badly. Yehh.

Life's good

Okay so...my family is vacationing today. Without me. And it's not that bad for me actually. They probably have a lot of fun at the beach but it's waaaaaay too hot for me to be outside today so I'm happy being home, indoors. I only had to take down the curtains in my brother's room and wash the windows, it's all done now. So I get to sleep some more and watch Friends some more. Life's good. :)
Oh and I don't think I got stung by a wasp. Think it was just a bitchy horsefly.

80 cents

Yes! I mowed all of the lawn. Well, my bits. Yeah and my brother got generous today... he bought me a drink with his own money. It cost 80 cents but still!

Mmm...it tastes so yummy. I imagine Franco's cum tastes like that :D It's definitely my new fave beverage though. It's too sweet but whatever.

Oh and this happened:

Yes! I'm at twelve percent. Last time the best I got was 11%. Last time being the time before I did system restore to my latop.

Oh and I got talking to my ex. He is in an official music video! He got into the band when I was in a relationship with him. Glad to see they're evolving and not just covering songs but writing their own...and recording stuff and making music videos.

Yeah..to end this thing here, I'll post a couple of selfies... just cause I'm hip and happening like that :p

James Franco is god!

I really want to work on a farm. I even applied for a job with pigs and piglets. Got a call from them (as in the farmers not pigs :p) this morning, had to turn down the place cause it's too far out of town.

Yeah and I just got back from swimming. Think I got stung by a wasp on my neck. It wasn't as sore as when I stepped on a bee but it's not itchy as if a say gnat had bitten me. I hope I won't get fever again like with the bee sting. That would ruin my weekend. :(

And I mowed a bit of land already...want to mow some more so I can do fuck all tomorrow. Yeah and watch Friends.

James Franco is god! I sooo wanna shag him. I know he's no different than your average guy but my feelings are different.

I've got nice boobs

Yay! In 2009, on the 25th of july I started my blog. Was called doowally then. Happy blog birthday to me! :)

Yeah, as I've said before, I'm rewatching Friends at the minute. I would have loved Home Improvement or That 70s Show but I know the shows too well. I konw everything that's about to happen or what they're gonna say so...I went for something more unfamiliar.
Yeah, I still very much hate Rachel...although this bit was funny:

Monica: You wore your nightie to dinner?
Rachel: Oh yeah. And the best part though was when the waiter spilled water down my back. I jumped up and my boob popped out.
Monica: Oh no!
Rachel: Yeah. It's alright, I've got nice boobs.

Maybe I found it funny and liked it cause I'm in my body loving period at the moment.

Yeah and I'm loving Tumblr these days. I love how I have followers whom I follow and we keep liking and reblogging each other's stuff. :) Well, James Franco stuff. I basically live in his tag on Tumblr.

painfully difficult

Okay I'm a painfully difficult person to date. I keep blowing men off. Mostly cause of my anxiety. And secondly cause of my laziness.
Like today I could have entertained two men. But no... Thing is, I took a shower yesterday and can't be arsed to take one today. And I cannot have someone over when I'm dirty. Especially a man.
Yeah and I have half a mind to go to my mum's place right now.


Okay...the previous bit I started writng at about 20:30. By 22:00 I was already at my mother's. Yehh... glad I came. At least I get to be outside tomorrow.

I just wanna show it off

Okay... =D Now it's my cooch's turn to be at number one:

 Okay...I have this newfound excitement about my body. I know I'm unfit and shit but I love my body and I wanna show it off. A guy on the website asked my why I was uploading such pics when I'm not looking for sex. I didn't feel like replying and justifying my decision to him. But that's exactly why...I just wanna show it off.

Yeah and my mouse battery just died. Ugh. Won't get a new one til tomorrow. I only have three euros left for this week. And I'm sort of a psychic. Yesterday when I was riding my bike I thought of going into the shop and buying a new battery for my mouse. Damn, why didn't I!?

Yeah...on friday, as per usual, I will be going to my mother's place. Crappy thing is, they will be going to some sort of a lake with the family. And I obviously won't be going cause of my anxiety. Shit!
I have to stay at home and work. Mow the lawn and weed.

I'll stay 25 forever

New URL, new look.
I wonder if I'll ever change the description of myself on the right. I'll stay 25 forever on my blog :)

undoable

I got in from a bike ride about 20 mins ago. Yeah... my anxiety suck so much!!!
I went to ride in the rich part of town with the nice houses and it reminded me how I can't get a job cause of my health. Like, I will never ever live in a beautiful house like that cause I just cannot afford it. I'll probably stay in a rented appartment for the rest of my life.
Yeah and I keep pushing men away cause cause of my anxiety I cannot be in a relathionship. Anything that requires commitment and responsibility gives me major anxiety.
And then I rode past the Tamme stadium where people, mostly men, were playing basketball, football, volleyball and were just having a good time. And that reminded me of how I cannot enjoy myself cause of the anxiety. Ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!! I wish I was a man with ball playing skills. If I cannot have that then I wish I didn't have anxiety. Looks like both are undoable.

totally caught the selfie bug

Yeah..I've totally caught the selfie bug. Well...I'm in town and have nothing to do.

pics from the road to Tartu

Ahh, just arrived in Tartu. Was such a nice ride.

Yeah, took a few pics when I was resting at bus stops :)

Got a phone call today from an unknown number. Thought it might be some workplace. Didn't answer cause I chickened out.

I hugged

Ooh, I hugged my brother a while ago. Felt so nice. I was in such a good mood cause people on the Sims website made my simself for me:

 I really wanna hug my borther more but he's such a pain in the ass for the most of the time. :s

Oh yeah and I got my first "hate mail" on the sexy website I'm on:

Like, what is wrong with people who have Down's syndrome!? And the dude is like 40 or something...what the...!?
Oh and here's a lad who fancies me sooooo much:

:D

weird water whistle

Me and mum were cleaning out the sheds today. I found this weird water whistle. Didn't throw it away since I thought my brother, Lauri, would have fun with it. Yeah I shouldn't have given him the damn thing. He's blowing it nonstop now and it's majorly annoying.
Ahh, this weekend has been pretty tame. Cleaned the house yesterday and today, the sheds. Mother and Lembit went to see Smokie on friday and yesterday they went to Jaan's (Lembit's sister's man) birthday party.
Yeah I was trying to play a hidden object game and watch a film with Lauri but he was his old arrogant self so you cannot reason or communicate with him at all. I hope it's just puberty or a phase so he'll grow out of/get over it.
And I took a selfie yesterday, here it is:

Sweet Kroshka

Okay, I got my new URL - Sweet Kroshka. I know I wanted sweet. And I have loved the word kroshka for years. Plus now I have my fave language - english - and a bit of my Russian blood - kroshka - in my URL. Plus they're both cute words. :)
I just hope it won't revert back to my old URL cause it took me soooooo many tries to get it permanently changed.

I want my new URL!

Ughhh! So I finally came up with a decent name for my blog and I cannot save it. Motherfuckingoddess' time is over. I want my new URL!

incredibly hurt and sad

Fuck! I hate it when I come online in a good mood for a little bit of fun and shit hurts my eyes and heart. I'm trying really hard to be rational or indifferent but I cannot deny my heart. Why do I have to fancy a celeb whom I'll never even meet, let alone get close to!? It all just makes me incredibly hurt and sad.

Plus, ugh, I tried out new URLs for my blog for hours yesterday and nothing fits! I thought of krõpakrõpa, but it doesn't have a meaning or anything. I gave our dogs the crunchy dry food and called them to eat "krõpa, krõpa". :D I like the way it sounds but I cannot even keep the original and correct spelling if I was to use the name. Lame.

going crazy thinking of a new name for my blog!

Gahhhhh!!! I'm going crazy thinking of a new name for my blog!!! Absolutely everything is taken and the last posts, if there even are any, are made in 2000. Like, if you don't use the blog, fucking delete it so that others can use the name!

Like a latex t-shirt?

*mother getting dressed*
Mum: Now I just need a t-shirt to push all of my fat together.
Me: Like a latex t-shirt?
:D
Yeah I'm lame and laugh at my own jokes.

And mother made up yet another new word - magelema. It's a mix of magama and vedelema.

Shitballs! Monkey balls!

Shitballs! I've been going to town for the past two days and got anxiety. Monkey balls! But I managed to sit for a few seconds at the town square and ride through the town without taking Diazepam.

Yeah and it bugs me sooooo much I can't come up with a cute new name for my blog.

Yeah and there's this guy...I've even blogged about him, our first meet up, and... maybe something will come out of it. I hope so. He's name is Rando I think. He's 23 and his birthday is on the 5th of november. I should haved asked him to come over today cause my body wants a dick. :D Yeah, we all get horny, no shame in that.

That's what's freaking me out

Gahhh! I'm shitting my pants right now! On tuesday I gave my CV to a second hand clothes shop. I was told the manager/supervisor will be in the shop on  thursday/friday. So I imagine that's when she'll get in contact with me. I'm so anxious about it. I could handle the job interview I guess but I'm afraid I'll get the job. That's what's freaking me out. :(

number one again

My tits were number one again! :D

Jossu

Well, I didn't get a photo of Jossu but I recorded a video. Yeah he really likes to sleep in my bed. :D

Not that I look cute

Yeah, I tried to take a few pics of our dog Jossu but he just doesn't look cute in photos. So I took a couple of myself. Not that I look cute :D

not everybody gets to go to the grazing grounds

So apparently James Franco and Lana Del Rey have something going on. Told my mother about my jealousy. She said Lana called the dibs on him and that "not everybody gets to go to the grazing grounds". Fuck!
I wish I wasn't such a jealous bitch but I cannot help it. My situation doesn't particulary help either, what with me being a nobody from a place nobody knows about. Ugh!

Okay... I gotta love my brother

Okay... I gotta love my brother. He went to steal peas off of somebody's land. He got a whole big bagful of them. He gave me lots to since I borrowed him my bike.

My first peas this year :) I love love peas!!

my tits are on the number one spot

lol, my tits are on the number one spot on this sexy website:

Ei koti

Ughhh! I'm fighting with my brother. He's unbearable.
For example...yesterday when I needed to paint the porch I needed to remove the detachable stairs first so that the dogs wouldn't get on the porch and in my way. I asked him to help me move it since it's very heavy. His answer was "ei koti" ("don't care").
Because I was painting the porch we couldn't use the front door to get in and out of the house. We used the window in my mum's bedroom. It's on the first floor but we still needed a ladder. So in I go to the bedroom and see that my brother has pushed the ladder to the ground. I told him to hop out the window and put it back up so I could get out. His respnose was "ei koti". I got so pissed I took away his fucking smartphone. He lives for and breathes it.
Then today I was cooking mashed potatoes (which came out a bit weird but meh... the mother shouldn't leave me in charge of cooking then :D). I needed him to hold the pot in place while I mash the potatoes. He obviously said "ei koti". So I told him he couldn't eat the mashed potatoes.
Ughhhhh..he's driving me insane! He's so unbelievably cocky and horrible. You cannot have a normal conversation with him. And I'm not exaggerating. He just says one thing over and over and over. And he's always swearing so much. And he's not like that just with me, he's like that with mother aswell. He's such an arrogant, rude smartass. I'm obviously the tattle-tale in this shitty situation and have told my mother about his stupitity. Mother's pissed off with him aswell and told me she'll take away his phone again.
Fuck!

Help me! I'm cooking and hating it!

Help me! I'm cooking and hating it!
Mother is late tonight and told me to get the dinner going. Ughhhhhhhh!!!
I'm making mashed potatoes with groat, bacon and onion. I peeled too many potatoes and I'm using the biggest pot we have and it's spilling! I just hate it! And I have too much of bacon, it won't fit into the pot!

operation baby bat

Well I almost took a pic of something far more interesting than my mug. We had an operation baby bat going on just now. I saw one on the ground, a baby bat. Lembit said it must have fallen out from under our sauna roof.
He got gloves and a ladder and stuffed it back in there. It was so cute and small!! I totally regret not taking a pic but it all happened so quickly. Hopefully it'll be fine from now on.
Yeah tomorrow I have to repaint the porch cause I didn't use enough aint the first time. The wood absorbed most of the paint. Ugh, that means another early morning tomorrow.

They don't look like they wanna be weeded by me

Okay, the porch is long painted. Mother told me to weed the strawberries. Yeah I was about to but then saw the state of them. They don't look like they wanna be weeded by me.

Yeah and it's not fair to women to have periods in the summer. I don't support the usage of tampons since they're poisonous and killers. It's so warm out, it's the perfect weather for swimming.

And I wanna change the URL of my blog. "dianaboo" and "sweetd" are taken. And I cannot go back to "Doowally". Bollocks! The two other names I thought of, they were available but they both had rude words in them so I wouldn't be making an upgrade. Yeah, have to think of something cute, cool and...neutral.

Oh and as I said in one of my earlier posts, I'm watching Friends again. Yeah, I still very much hate Rachel. She's just such a stupid bitch.


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narcissism all the way

Yaaaa...I was bored so I snapped a few pics. I was actually looking for a suitable little top to sleep in (the white one) and got to trying on quite a few things. Got vain infront of my mirror so...yeah...narcissism all the way :D

Error

Ugh...I get some Error 502 page when I try to come on blogger. Hopefully it's not to do with my account or anything. I always think I'm gonna get in trouble for my blog URL.
Anyway...today I went swimming with mum, Lauri and the dogs. Was skinny dipping alone. Ahhh, so good!
In the morning I'm gonna paint our porch and mow the lawn. Ugh, seems like my period is about to start so no swimming for me. :(

as if I'm an expert

Haha...I just had a dream about olden times. This one girl was supposed to meet with this lad. And I was teaching her how to do a handjob and a blowjob. I told her not to sleep with the guy cause she could get pregnant. I also told her about him going down on her and what to expect if he does. What a weird dream... as if I'm an expert.
Yeah...I'm off to eat breakfast now! And then  I'll clean our porch cause I gotta paint it tomorrow.

don't nobody look at me for the state of them!

lol My brothers playing some computer game in the next room and he's making all sorts of funny noises and talks to himself. Hahahaa...he's so funny.

Anyway... today the whole family was home. Did a bit of cleaning up.
We had this big, tall bookshelf in the hallway downstairs which held books and shoes. Lembit cut it in half and now one half is downstairs for shoes and the other one upstairs for books. We (me and mum) had to clean all the books cause there were cobwebs and mould on them. Yeah...they're not my books so don't nobody look at me for the state of them!

at least I get to be outside

Well, I've been in town for a couple of days. Going back to my mother's in the morning. Apparently the weather will be really nice so...at least I get to be outside when I'm at my mother's.
Yeah...more of mugshots: