What a sad life I live

What a sad life I live when I go through it as a woman without any boobs. Like... I'm a woman, why can't I enjoy all things feminine!?

No sex!

Ugh I loathe this type of attitude. It's the third time he's done it. Like, he only agrees to be in a relationship with me so he can get his leg over. For some reason he thinks that if I say yes to a relationship I'm gonna sleep with him straight away. Shit! I should play him! Tell him okay and then drag him along for a couple of months then dump his ass. No sex!

The beautiful blues

Oh man. When I don't live with my father, he's an excellent guy! The father's fam was over today to celebrate my birthday. Was super nice. And Tädi Iira gave me blue flowers!!! She remembered I liked them blue!

Fam

With dad

The beautiful blues

I feel so poorly

Oh shit. I'm officially properly ill. I thought I was feeling shitty cause I couldn't sleep well at night cause of the cough but yeah... have a fever and everything. Feeling kinda hungry but have no appetite.
Dad rang, was feeling too poorly to talk to him so didn't answer.
Yeah and it took all my strength to turn on my laptop. Maybe if I watch a film or something I'll feel better although I don't want any noise or visually challenging things around me at the moment.

Yesterday I had my third birthday celebration. Think next weekend my dad's family will come over.

Yeah... ouch I feel so poorly! *sad face*

Fuckface

Ugh, I loathe men like that. He doesn't deserve a response. Fuckface.

it hurts so bad

Ouch. Just boiled eggs and poured the water on myself. Now my lady parts, thighs and feet are aching. Have blisters and everything. :(
The birthday celebration was okay. Although I missed blue cheese and wine. We just ate cake (not the chocolate-banana cake I wanted but whatever) and did a little disco.

Okay I'm back to fanning my lady parts cause it hurts so bad!

carefree life

Shit. Two weeks ago I had diarrhea, last week I had runny nose, this week I have a sore throat. Like, wtf!? I don't have a fever or anything, like I'm not properly sick but I don't feel comfortable enough to lead a carefree life at this moment.
Yeah and this saturday I had my first 30th birthday celebration. Was cute! We'll see what I'll do on tuesday when I'm actually 30.

a hopeless and sad world

You know you live in a hopeless and sad world when a bloodshed conducted by humans gets more attention than a massive natural disaster.

bald spot

Jill: It's my hair, isn't it?
Tim: What!?
Jill: You don't like the way I changed my hair.
Tim: I told you I loved you hair.
Jill: No. I had to ask you first.
Tim: Well, I love your hair. I love the way it smells. There's no bald spot.

I lol'd

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Just like with the blender

Waah, I'm so full but I still wanna eat. Seriously... when I went off Mirtazapine I thought my appetite would drop but no such luck. It's not as acidic hunger like before, just a regular one now but still.
And today I bought this cake I actually wanted for my birthday:

Just like with the blender... I don't want it for my bday anymore. Now I want the chocolate-banana cake. :)

the best

Mmm... the best. www.felix.ee produces the best stuff! Today when I was at my mum's workplace I told her where to buy a cheap blender for my birthday but I might just tell her not to buy it for me cause I wanna start buying Pai smoothies. I mean they're quite expensieve, that small bottle costs about 2.50 euros.

And on another note... Caesar salad is also the best! Oh man... I'm so spoiling myelf what with ebing sick and all. Well, the last two days have been alright actually.

the good daughter

Ahh, it feels so nice to be the good daughter for once. Mother was all out of cash so I gave her 60 euros (she'll pay me back once he gets paid). And today I went to her workplace to help her clean stuff. Yeah, I'm good.

Healthwise... didn't have anything wrong yesterday. Got little pain in abdomen today but hopefully the diarrhea is gone now. I still have no clue why I had it.

Fucking British accent!

*whine* I wanna watch the second Nanny McPhee film but cannot find subtitles that are in sync. Fucking British accent! I don't understand it! I'm so used to general American accent in films.

it started all over again

Yeah I rang a GP and she says my diarrhea is probably just a virus not a withdrawal symptom. I thought I was done with it but it woke me up today at 7 and it started all over again.

it's final

Okay I think this craxy diarrhea business is over. Like... I googeled some shit and I think it was a Mirtazapine withdrawal symptom. This pill I swear. I've been off of it before and I was fine but I had to go back on it cause I couldn't eat again. This time with these crazy symptoms I'd like to think it's final, going off that pill.

I have no fucking clue what is going on

So I have this fuckin'-ass diarrhea going on. Started at 7:30 in the morning. Who has diarrhea at that time!? I was sleeping and was woken by sharp pains in my abdomen. Super weird. I don't have a fever or feel poorly. I have no fucking clue what is going on. Could be the dried fish I had yesterday or the flu.