sexual taboos

Ugh I hate all this discreet sex business. If you’re not man enough to admit you’re having sex don’t fucking contact me! I don’t wanna fuck a man with sexual taboos.

a budded potato

So yesterday was a good day. I got my disability percent thingy back. Still at 80%. And yesterday I thought I'd be getting my benefit money on the 5th but today I read the email again and I might not. Ugh.

And I know this is unrealistic bullshit but I just saw what kinda chicks my celeb crush goes for and I feel like a budded potato now.

I hope at least work goes well.

Sounded like a horrible idea til

Was cooking today at mum's place while she was in sauna. Sounded like a horrible idea til I heard this amazing song on the radio - Chasing The Moon. And Now I'm obsessed with Mary Lambert. I know I said Elisa was my fave lyricist. Think I found a competitor lol. Nah, they're both amazing. But Mary is new and I'm just so amazed and in awe. Love, love, lover her stuff.

This is the result of the wonderful summer weather we had this year

This went down yesterday. Lauri caught it on film. This is the result of the wonderful summer weather we had this year. We have so many broken and unstable trees in the forest. This summer has been all about them.
That's mum next to the car with the blinking lights on. Watching out for cars. I was on the other end of the road waiting to warn cars.

I'm done!

Uuurhrghghhh, men are so annoying! Like, they're like "wanna see me shower?", "want me to give you head without you doing nothing in return?", "wanna see me wank?". Like, bitches, stop!!!
Just cause yous like to wtach someone take a shower, give you head or flick their bean doesn't mean women want the same things from you!!! These are your fantasies, not the women's you send your idiotic messages to.
I've so had enough of the oral sex offers. No, I don't want your grubby mouth anywhere near my vag. Just cause men are notorious oral sex enjoyers, doesn't mean women are too. I find the idea of going down on a woman extremely nauseating. I will never do it and I don't want anyone to do it to me. So please stop grossing me out!!!
Plus, while we're on the subject - men, please don't finger women! Hard with a finger is not the same as hard with a dick. Fingers hurt like shit and just feel extremely uncomfortable.
Also, french kissing is gross as shit too. Don't do this shit to me! Tongue kissing to me is exactly the same as going down on a woman: slimey, gooey, fucking gross. I don't want your damn tongue anywhere near my mouth. Fucking shit, it's gross!!!!
I'm done!

Chrome

Argh! Chrome nail tutorials are my thing! Like watching them on YT. The powdering bits are just orgasmic. I love it so much.
Plus this week has been a little crappy. My stomach, abdomen feels sick. Last week was fine but the week before was the same thing. Ugh. I really don't wanna go up on my Olansapiin dosage. So I'm just keeping it as is and hope my sickness will pass.

Shut up, dumbass!

A stress management specialist is over at the Formans' house to find out the source of Red's stress/high blood pressure.

SMS (to Red): I think I know what the problem is. I believe the source of your stress is your son.
Red: Him? (Points at Eric)
Eric: Me?!
Red: You think my problem is my own son? My son is a fine young man.
Eric (baffled): Wow, dad you don't-
Red (cuts Eric): Shut up, dumbass!

still going strong

Ahhh, still going strong, girl! She's one of my fave lyricists. She's just amazing. And judging by her lyrics, a great person and a friend.

in a madhouse right now

Jesus, I feel like I’m in a madhouse right now. I live in a block of flats and two neighbouring apartments are playing music too loud I can hear them both. Mostly, I can hear the bass and beats all over one another. Doesn’t sound good. :s

impromptu date

Had a quick impromptu date with this guy tonight. We met up in town. He was a little too bountiful with compliments. I mean I didn't know what to say back or how to react. I said thanks a few times but...what else am I supposed to say!?
He brought em flowers and a little cake.

Going to work kit

4 yellow valerian pills (to calm myself), 1 white escitalopram (regular antidepressant), 2 purple ginger-oak bark-blueberry pills (for nausea), 1 white cerucal (for nausea) and 5-28 drops or Valium (to calm myself). Life is fun! At least today I don’t have to take a painkiller. Yet.

in pieces

I wanna cry at the moment so bad. I still feel like shit. I wanna cry cause it would make me feel better, physically. I always feel better when I've cried. I thought I feel shit cause of periods but now I don't even know. My stomach is in pieces.
I'll try to ring my supervisor early in the morning and ask her if she can find someone for tomorrow to cover my shift. Ugh I hate to do this but seriously, the work time was horrendous today.

I mean I know it's cause of periods but fuck!

Holy shit what a horrible day I had! Went to the shop to buy rolls cause the sandwhich I had was gross. Got anxiety in the shop. Like what!? Haven't had that happen in months!
Then it carried on til I got to work and had it pretty much all of the work time aswell.
Man I felt sick. I took so much medication. Luckily I managed to get all of my work done and by the end of the work day I started feeling a little better.
I mean I know it's cause of periods but fuck!

a cool and cute story

So a few days ago I uploaded a mug pic on this dating website and this guy wrote to me, saying I was "that girl from the car shop". I asked him who he was and was all panicking thinking he was a worker in the shop I work at cause... I have all my naked pics up there and shit. He then said he had been trying to find me on one of those websites. He said that a couple of months ago or so I had almost run into him with my bike near the car shop I work at and had smiled at him. Okay, sounds plausible, eventhough I don't remember it.
He sent me a pic of him. Apparently. Like it would have been such a cool and cute story how I almost organically met a guy but he turned out to be a perv so I'm not talking to him anymore.

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sad news

So...sad news. I didn't get my pension today. Why the fuck not though!??!?! I always get it on the first friday of the month! That means I won't be able to go to the cinema tomorrow. Have to go to mum's place cause I'm all out of money.
I hope my contract thingy isn't up yet, that they're just slow.

I'll be good

Ahhh! I better get my pension on friday cause I wanna go see Sausage Party on saturday. I was gonna go with the bro and his chick but he fell ill and the film is on at 8 in the evening so he couldn't come from the countryside anyway.
Ahhhh! I'm so excited! I felt so victorious at the cinema the last time when I went to see Dory. I wanna make this a monthly thing now.
I mean I'm gonna illegally download those films anyway cause I like watching stuff over and over but...ahhh.
I am a little worried about the film being shown so late though but I will take my pills or Valium and I'll be good I hope. :)