A real person actually said this

*not even a faceplam but rather decaptiating self with hand*

brain: *is dead*
also brain: *still works better than the one of that not-condoning-obesity-person*

intense conversation

Two girls, about 5-8 years old, are walking outside with little blankets scrunched up and held up to their faces.
Third little girl from distance, "I see you!"
First girl with a blanket, "It's not us. We're just two little girls who look like us!"
Second girl with a blanket, "Yeah, my name is Hannah!" (supposedly a fake name)
Then the first blanket girl went on to say a fake name too but I was already past them on my bike and didn't hear the rest of this intense conversation. :D Teamwork though!

a big laugh

Me and my flatmate Hedi just had a big laugh. Good times!

Earlier today she said she doesn't like drunk men. Or men who drink in general. And just now, in the evening we had a talk about the moon. She said, "Kui Kuu on täis, siis ma olen nagu "Tule võta mind!" As in, drunk men are no good but the moon is fine.

Also I tried on one of her rings and took it off while scoffing, "Ugh, it doesn't fit my ugly janitor hands. Only rubber gloves fit my hands". Ain't that the truth!? :D

pictures of some crappy cars, their kids and with ex's

Crazy how men don't know how to use dating websites.
They post pictures of some crappy cars, their kids and with ex's.
Wow, so appetizing!

Also I started using Tinder on computer... yeah saw my crush from middleschool on there. Liked his profile of course!

Them establishing Enriques

Also, my ongoing reading troubles...

When Rimi gets you...

*blub*
We're so close. This bitch knows me and my secrets.

I spook myself sometimes

The spooky shit
Huh... 9th of august you say.... I spook myself sometimes.

Let's hope for the both of our sake it doesn't come to that

So yeah...shit sucks right now.
Just hoping for a good way out of intensive care.

And I swear I've been thinking of going to emergency myself. But I know there's no point cause they'll tell me there's nothing they can do, it's the GP and specialists' job to take care of my condition.
My head is aching like nobody's business. And I have this crazy pressure in my ears. It clicks and sends numb pain shots through them from time to time.
My whole head feels like a big zit, kind of like a huge inflamed, throbbing pile of puss about to burst. And that shit would fly out my ears.
I feel nauseous and have no appetite. Have joint, tension pains in my legs - knees and hips. Ankles get mostly tension pains. Luckily my left shoulder, elbow and wrist have calmed down. I feel so weak physically. Completely drained from energy.

And if need be there's no way I could ride my bike to the needed hospital in this condition. I'd have to be taken there in a car. Let's hope for the both of our sake it doesn't come to that.
And also, if need be I'd absolutely move away to help out.

too ridiculous

I'm gonna gab for a little longer actually as I have no energy to do anything else.

Okay so the systemic candida thing... I wasn't tested as I talked to the GP and she said it was unlikely and we shouldn't go there right now. And that it's really hard to diagnose anyway. Okay, not mad about it as I don't know anything about this thing really. It was just a thought someone put in my head.

I have my allergy thingy at 175. Was 217. Not the highest but could mean allergy. What am I allergic to? Who the fuck knows. The tests at the allergists didn't confirm mold allergy. Is it a false negative? Who the fuck knows. Been taking all sorts of allergy meds, don't seem to help too much.

Okay so what are my symptoms as of now? Joint/muscle/nerve/tension/ pains in my limbs, aches and tension in my head and ears, often in my face too, around the nose area. Dry, tired, irritated eyes. Nausea ocassionally, buzzing feeling all over my body. Super extreme fatigue/weakness.

It all gets worse around sunnier, warmer, drier days. It's not any of it currently really. But! My body also can't handle physical strain. I did a lot of physical stuff on sunday. And I still feel it.

About the iron I posted... taking iron made it worse for me. But it's not actually caused by iron meds as I hoped. Then the solution to ending my health problems would be an easy one.

Yeah... blah blah blah... Isn't it great when after 30 years of crap you get your anxiety under control and you're thinking "wow, a new lease at life! I can finally live! What should I do? How do I compensate all the things I missed out on for over a decade!? I wanna live life to the fullest! What do I start with, what do I do?" And your body goes, "How about have some more health problems? Why break the streak? Keep doing what you're best at... suffer" Shit! That was sarcasm. I'm not mentally beaten down actually. Yet. It's too ridiculous for me at the moment to be depressed about it.
But physically I do feel like I'm dying.

Anyway... in other news: I cut my hair short. -er. Did it the first time in July and got a trim now in August aswell. Too sick to move and get my phone for pics. But yeah finally felt healthy enough to sit in that chair, stuck for a while. Didn't even get anxiety.

I'm dying again

Yes.

Are you okay, n n?

Is it just me or are those 72 people not the brightest crayons in the box? :D

"weed"

You know when people praise "weed"?
If it's seaweed, I agree wholeheartedly!