So college's been on for two days. And I've got a beautiful bruised and battered neck to show.
Yeah, I know it's a form of self harm but whatever. It's been quite a ride, emotional and anxious.
Today was 8 hours long and I managed to stay at all of the lectures. Well, I fled once, said I was gonna go to toilet.
We had to do a bit of self introducing and I said never mind if I run out of the classroom all of a sudden, I'm only going to calm down cause I have bad anxiety.
I still don't have internet in my dorm room so...
I just got back to my mother's house. Man, it's so cozy and warm in here, I don't wanna go back to the dorm. I mean it would do if I didn't feel as strange and lonely in there. And the course sounds cool aswell if I didn't have my anxiety, it's very hard to concentrate on the lecture when my mind is preoccupied feeling weird feelings all over the body. Hence I've been self harming, pinching and scratching my neck, it's covered with bruises and scratches.
Had to ride in rain when coming back to mum's, hopefully I didn't catch a cold.
