the sky turned pitch black and the moon appeared to be torn to shreds

Oh dear. This unbearably hot weather is causing nightmares.
Last night I had a dream of the end of the world.
I remember seeing it very vividly when the sky turned pitch black and the moon appeared to be torn to shreds. It was weird cause the sun seemed to become "extinct" but it's the one illuminating the moon.
I remember I just kept on rambling about killing myself cause I was too scared to go through the whole thing alive.
Hm, I think the feeling and situation can be applied to my current feeling about life and situation.
Speaking of applying... I'll be applying for some university courses later on today. Will see how all that goes.
I don't understand why it's so necessary to put singing abilities as crucial everywhere. Singing can hardly be associated with music. Fuck, I wanna do traditional music and instruments and I have to fucking sing!
I. do. not. sing.
It's like, say you wanna be a chef and the university tells you to kill a lion with your two bare hands. Like, lion is meat and it's food and you wanna be chef. It's exactly like that with doing music and singing. Not everyone's a fucking singer but might be really good at playing some instrument or composing and they cannot do it cause you have to fucking sing.

I'm scary, bitches!

Ugh, what a horrible day it was. Well, most of it. The rest of it was great.
It was too hot for me. I couldn't breathe properly for the most of the day.
When the sun was setting it got a bit better. I even mowed the lawn and hung out with my brother and his friend. Took the dogs swimming and then went for a bike ride.
Man, I saw this frog belly up on the road. I went over to check on it and it was still alive. My heart broke.

Oh and my mother forgot to buy me pills. She was so scared of me giving out to her she didn't come up to my room to say hello as she usually does when she gets home from work. Ha! I'm scary, bitches!

My mother's been looking at flats in Tartu.We might be moving soon since the mother and her man are... pretty much over and done.
Even my brother asked the mother today when this how-d'ye-do is gonna end. We'll see.