call me a weak ass bitch but...

Okay, call me a weak ass bitch but I'm upping my escitalopram back on to 10mg. Yesterday was so bad and the night was even worse. I kept waking up with a fright non stop, shooting up in bed. And my appetite is out of control. Like I literally eat a ton right and am completely full. Then after only about 2 hours I'm starving again. I don't give a fuck about weight gain I'm worried about feeling sick cause it's not the normal kind of hunger, it's insane hunger where you feel sick in stomach and in the rest of the body and can't actually eat cause you're that hungry. Plus the headaches then and anxiety. I'm done for now. Wanna get back to feeling normal. Once I'm that, I'll try to go off Olansapiin cause it felt more normal eventhough I had more withdrawal symptoms but they weren't as bad. Yeah and when I wanna go off Escitalopram again, I'll do it differently, 7,5mg one day and 10mg the next, not 7,5 every day. Doctor said doing it like that confuses the body but that's how I got off Mirtazapine and that's how I feel comfortable so...

do not laugh