Shit happens

Eugh, having the worst chicken soup.

Well, well...the weather is nice.

I guess I could have spent a lovely day with my bf, but shit happens.

Will go out on my own.

Be miserable in the sun.

Laters.

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In addition:
Get this, I have a candle on the windowsill and the sun is so hot today it has melted the wax.
It could be be in the sun, getting a tan!
It's a bit chilly wind wise.

What if no one will ever measure up

Uhhh...

So today's the day.

Thought of the unthinkable.

Started the waterworks and had to come clean.

I feel so so so bad it's...bad.

Scared now.

Thinking what if I'll be thinking, "Now what?"

"What if no one will ever measure up?"

Never ever did I think I'd be the one saying something as horrible.

I am very ungrateful.

Yes, I am a bitch.

And I too hope I will have a nice life.

I am very, very, very sorry.
My loss 100%.

R :*