So I have my job til the end of July. I thought of going to my father's place for August but I'm not too sure. I'm afraid I will get anxiety while riding there. Riding my bike that is. The father said he can come and collect me in his car but...yeah, I don't do cars.
So I don't know now... I really wanna be at my father's place but the going there is kinda blah. I thought I'd ride up to Viljandi (about 60 km) and get a room in a hotel for a night. Then ride the next 30 km to Võhma the next day.
Everyone's kinda bashing my bike. It has served me so well and I love it and I doubt it'll break down. Although, I'd like my father to be available to pick me up in his car when I get too tired from cycling.
But the problem is that the father will go on a holiday to Russia on Tuesday and won't be back til the ninth or tenth of August. And I wanted to go there right at the satrt of August. Ughh...so I dunno what will happen.
Oh and I'm off my antidepressants. I'm only taking the antipsychotic now. Will take a lowered dosage of that tonight, for the first time. Maybe I can get off all of my pills and then get by with 7 drops of Valium per week.
Ahhh...all this wishful thinking!
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