Ugh, I feel like a total failure today again.
Just talked to my super clever friend.
He's studying like a mad person and is naturally so intelligent and bright.
And so is his girlfriend.
She's from South Africa (I think) and she went to study in China.
She did physics first but changed courses and now she's doing biochemistry.
I really want to talk to her about studying and the subjects I'm doing now and just...everything.
I so fucking hate the fact that I'm so damn lazy.
I want to be clever and successful and all but I cannot be bothered to work for it.
It's unreal.
I just have to get into the studying zone and when I'm in the flow it'll be easier to go with it.
Damn! Damn!
I totally wanna go and study in some foreign country now.
