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Shit, how I loathe men!!!!!!!!!!!! I FUCKING HATE THEM ALL. FUCKING FUCK YOURSELVES YOU CHEESEDICKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Shittttttttttttttttttttttt, he keeps coming to my room to talk about this shit. I swear I'm so close to running away from this hell.







shit, andA I SIAD I\LL FUCKING DO THE SHITTY DISHES JUST NOT WHEN HE TELLS ME TO. HE'S A FUXCKING NOBODU AND HE DOESN'T FUCKING TELL ME WHAT TO DO. SUCK DICK YOU SHIT YOU SHIT YOUSHIT YOU SHIT YOU SHIT YOU SHIT. I FUCKING LOAHTE TH HELL OUT OF YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I SWEAR HE COMES TO MY ROOM ONE MORE TIME I WILL FUCKING GET ON THE BIKE AND GO TO TARTU THROUGH THE FUCKING NIGHT.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Shut up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, my father's going on again how my stepmother works herself to death and I as a woman am not doing anything at home. I swear!!!!!!!! I hate his shitty sexism and chauvinism!!!!!!
I'm fucking struggling so hard with my anxiety and staying calm (fuck, even a bike ride freaks me out and eating!) and in he comes with his shit for brains sexist talk. I swear I loathe it sooooooooooooooooo much. He can totally suck dick if he's so manly. I don't give a shit, I won't be his fucking slave!
Ugh, if riding the bike didn't freak me out so much I'd get on it first thing in the morning and get the fuck away from this sexist shit. It's unbelievable how sexist one can be!!!! He's always putting me with my 11 year old brother so when he told me I wasn't doing the dishes I told well the brother isn't doing it either. And then he's like fucking protecting him like he doesn't need to do anything. Of course he doesn't he's a fucking tiny man. And men only do FUCK ALL.
Argghhhhhhhh, he came in again and was like blahhhhhhhhh.

I swear he drives me crazy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Every fucking mindless thing on earth that is anything with a pussy do the dishes, spread your legs for the glorious god that is a dick, suck it, fuck and then get back to cooking and doing the dishes. I swear all men should be fucking gay. Fuck each other and stay away from humans, that is women. I will never ever. Ever! Get married. I swear, I'm a lot closer to suicide as it is but I'd totally rather kill myself than do anything for a man. Never will I ever please any man. Fuck, no more blowjobs and luckily for me I always come before the man so I will fucking treat them like they should be treated. Or I deliberately get pregnant and force the custody to the man. Hell, I'm half crazy and monyless and jobless anyway. I'd only do it to ruin a man's life. I swear, I wanna kill a man. Any man. Fucking bring it bitches, I will fucking kill you.

Card Of The Day - Mawu & Ixchel

Why, why why!? I just got in from a bike ride. That lasted like....5 minutes. Because for some idiotic reason I get anxiety attacks now when riding a bike. Like, seriously. What. The. Fuck? Cause of the new pills the general nausea has died down but I cannot believe the bike ride made me anxious. How on earth am I supposed to get to Tartu?! I can't go by bus, train or car and now I can't get there even on a fucking bike. Do I really need to fucking walk up there? I swear this body! Like, I did energy cleansing the other day with stepmother and decided to be positive and fucking loving about my body but it's so fucking ridiculous that I just can't love it. My body is an idiot! Flat out! Anxiety this, nausea that, panic all over! For fuck's sake!
And these two cards are about me going to Tartu by bike. Whatever Mawu means but this Ixhel business I don't wanna know. Everytime I get messed up Ixchel pops up.
Blah, everything is so shitty! I wanna go to fucking Tartu and ride my bike, I don't wanna know about any anxiety! Ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, I'm just gonna go back to the garden. Walk up there! And work cause otherwise I'd be sitting at home, in my room alone and let my fucking body party in loneliness, away from the scary bike! Jaysas, the idiocy of the body!