The cube test

So the guy who was over today did this cube test on me.
I had to imagine there was a white room. In that white room is a cube. Mine was in the middle of the room, it was relatively small and white. Then I had to imagine there were flowers in the room. I dreamed there were three lilac flowers in the far right corner. Then I had to place a ladder somewhere in the room. I had a tiny wooden ladder leaning against the cube. Then I had to place a horse in the room and describe it in three words. Mine was in the far left corner and I described it as hard-working, courageous and I said beautiful but he said, it had to be a personality trait so I said nice. It was also sort of little, about the cube's size, it was brown and I could see one little black eye.
Then there had to be a storm cloud. Mine was a small little thing above the cube.

Apparently, the room represents the world and the cube me. I can't remember what the colour white meant. The ladder represents my goals which apparently are small but reachable. The flowers were meant to represent my friends... and they're sort of distant. The horse is my significant other. And the cloud is my worries/problems.

feel like the third wheel

Okay, I had a guy over. Allan. Thought it would be weird to have a guy over and not sleep with him. And for a while there it was okay to just chat with him. Til he said he had a girlfriend.
He said they were looking for a girl for a threesome. Yeah...I won't participate in any unless we're all single or it's me and my bf and another person. I don't wanna feel like the third wheel when sleeping with a couple.
Yeah...was a waste of time. I could have had someone else over and got laid.