Okay. Everytime I pass the cemetary I talk to my grandmother and grandfather. In my head. I mostly ask for support and alleviation. You know, for anxiety. And maybe there is something other worldly going on. Cause last week I didn't make it to uni once. Thinking maybe the alleviation took this kinda form. When I'm not in lectures I don't get anxiety. This is not what I actually want but I appreciate the support. If it is other worldly.
