First Jonathan, now James

Okay, I have so much love towards people tonight. :)

I think James Franco is awesome. He's so well educated and a busy man. I don't particulary fancy him, although he's sort of attractive I guess, but he's actions and personality make me like him. Plus I read the article where Seth Rogen said James doesn't smoke weed. Major turn on!
What is it with me liking older men!? First Jonathan, now James. Too bad Jonathan smokes...he's still my number one crush though.

super sore

Blah, it's the second day when I grit my teeth. They're super sore. I guess my anxiety has to show somehow. The 12th of March was pretty awesome in a way. I went to a ton of shops and didn't have any anxiety at all.
And now when I tried to eat dinner, my appetite was gone. Hopefully it's just tonight. I hope it's not cause of my not taking Olansapin. As I said in my earlier post, I'm terrified of getting a job. I hope, again, it's just something I can fix with a pill. Although, I kinda don't believe these last two amazing days could be the end of my anxiety problems. Yeah and I bought incense for my mother and I haven't even burnt it yet and it's making my room all smelly. Reminds me of this shop I want to work at. They sell all sorts of crystals and incense and burn it in the shop aswell. And that is making me anxious, what with me being scared of work.
Blaaaaahhhhh! And my internet is screwing me over and won't let me watch 8 Simple Rules. Guess I'll keep watching this Miley Cyrus film. Ugh, she is so pretty and talented...why has she lost her mind!?

I'm at home and feel terrified

Went down town today again. Went into a few small shops to see if they were hiring. Left one of my CVs in this one shop. Yeah when I was in town I felt super great and confident but now I'm at home and feel terrified about going to work.
Oh and they're tearing down the old mall:

a GREAT day

Ouch. I've been gritting teeth all day. They're so sore now. All in all, 11th of March 2014 has been a GREAT day.

I love it when I don't have anxiety

Just got back from down town. Ahhhh, was so nice. I love it when I don't have anxiety.
I got a book from the uni's library about two years ago, took it back today. Better late than never.
I love buskers and other street artists!
When I went to the mother's place on friday I forgot to bring my pills with me. I went to the pharmacy in Melliste to buy new pills. I got Escitalopram and Mirtazapin but they didn't have Olansapiin so I haven't taken that since friday. I don't have my crazy on just yet so I won't take it again until I cannot eat.
Yeah and for breakfast today I had coffee and crisps. I'm badass like that.
I dunno what the day will turn out like but for now I feel great. Too bad they promise snow for the weekend. *sad face*