stop using online dating websites

Oh I swear I wanna stop using online dating websites. The men on those websites are just stupid. Like I have it in clear Estonian on my profile that I like short skinny men and I get guys bragging to me how tall and sporty they are, which is actually fat. I'm like bitch you're barking up the wrong tree here!
Then the other selling point for them is "free sex". They go around offering free sex to women. Now I don't know if they're naturally idiots or if they're dumbed by their blinding horniness but the supply and demand business is totally off to be offering free sex to women. Like...for every demand there are hundred offers. Yeah...back to business school with ya!
And then they sell themselves by saying how they like sex and are up to anything. Yeah... every single guy on those dating websites are as horny as you are. I know your horniness is happening to you and it seems to worst to you but as a woman.... every guy is just disgustingly horny on the website and your horniness isn't a woman's problem or lure.

I mean.... the universe is telling me something, obviously

I know I complained about Estonian TV ages ago. But! It has improved. I've seen Tristan and Isolde on on three occasions, Eat Pray Love was on not so long ago and then Knocked Up and tonight Flyboys was on. I mean.... the universe is telling me something, obviously.

I didn't watch any of them though. I just can't... I get so irritated and bored when I watch the telly. I can only watch films on my laptop.

Besides all that glorious Franco galore I feel so sick. Dunno, what is wrong... ugh. Oh and when I went to the hospital the other day with mum, I cried. I hadn't cried in about two years. It wasn't proper cry cry, just a tear from each eye.

This old slut!? A virgin!?

So I went to the gynecologyst yesterday. She asked me questions about abortion and uterus and shit. Then she took a look at my hooha and asked me if I was a virgin. :D This old slut!? A virgin!? Told mum, she said men are lucky.

Phew, am I glad this day is almost over!

What an ordeal this day has been. I actually managed to sit through my therapy session today which lasted an hour and a half. I thought I was only gonna last 5 mins. Actually there was no therapy today, just gathering information to create a treatment plan for me.
Then what I thought would be easier than therapy but wasn't was the cervical cancer screening. Man, what anxiety! I even managed to make myself cry at the hospital to feel better. It helped. With the help of Valium of course. Phew, am I glad this day is almost over!

sleeping pattern

Wow, so it's 8:30 in the morning and I still haven't gone to sleep. I originally went at 5 but tossed and turn til eight til my stomach started rumbling. Yeah I'm finally seeing the world when it's light out. I really should reschedule my sleeping pattern.