8am

Shit, my sleeping is so off. I legit go to bed at 8am now. Ugh.
Been like that for about three weeks.

hacked

Ha! My Twitter account was hacked. I seriously cannot imagine what kinda person would wanna hack my account. I never ever tweet and only yhave 1 follower. :D
I kinda don't wanna delete the tweets they tweeted or change the name and profile pic :)

I KNOW MY BODY!

Been thinking about it several times but never blogged about it. My therapist is a lovely woman, I get on with her well. But she annoys me when we're talking about my weight. My body works like my body. I know how it works.
Like, a year or two ago we were talking about how I've gained weight cause of my pills. She said it's cause I'm older. No. Again, I know how my body works. I'm a naturally skinny person. I was skinny up until the point I started taking the pills. They slowed down my metabolism, that's why I've gained all this weight.
And last time I saw her we were talking about my sleeping habits. I really gotta do something about it cause I go to bed like at 8am.
She said that eating late and going to bed this late means I will gain weight. Again, no. And again, I know how my body works. That does not make me gain weight. I am a skinny person!!! Before pills I could eat whatever however much I wanted at any time of the day/night and I did not gain weight. I do not gain weight like most people. I have a fast metabolism. That's just my body. I know how my body works!
I have really bad sleeping habits and I eat shit but I've gone down on my Olansapiin dosage and I've lost weight. Tell me again how eating and sleeping make me gain weight!? Cause they don't! I KNOW MY BODY!

Fuck yes! Hell yes!

Omg I just found out Spencer Reid's mother is called Diana!!! Best thing ever. It's a sign! I'm destined to crush on Matthew. :D

How I found him? Well... not gonna lie, for a few days there I didn't even remember cause I was just absolutely crazy about him.
Anyway, a couple years back or so I saw him on Celebrity Ghost Stories. Didn't think too much of him. Then saw the epsiode again some time afterwards. Liked his story and the way he told it. I looked him up on the net a little. But that was it. I just knew him as the dude off CGS.
Then I watched Band Of Robbers in May this year. I knew he was in it but didn't think anything about him again cause I was lusting after Gallner.
And then last wednesday, 5th of October 2016, I happened to randomly see a video of him on youtube and I fell so hard! Dunno what made me like him. Anyway, all I knew about him was the fact that he was on CGS. Yeah and now I'm watching Criminal Minds just to see him. I wanna be really quick with it so I can catch up to season 12 lol. Gonna take a while.
Yeah and on tuesday I went to see my therapist and she said I seemed really upbeat and chirpy. Fuck yes! Hell yes! Everybody needs a little bit of Matthew Gray Gubler in their life!

Help yourself!

So Ilme confronted me today. Earlier, she asked me to go to Asta's place to take something there. I said maybe tomorrow, I'm busy right now. And I asked why Asta herself can't come and pick up whatever needed picking up. Then Ilme got mad at me and wouldn't talk to me. Whatever. I went to work.
After I came back she was like "what's with you standing up to me?" I couldn't think of anything to say at the moment so I just said "I told you I'd do it tomorrow". And she was like "maybe Asta's not home tomorrow". And then I didn't say anything. Seriously, I'm not gonna drop everything and jump right when she tells me to jump. I said I'd do it tomorrow. If she doesn't like it, too bad, do it yourself then.
Then she's like "I've helped you before too and keep helping you now". Yeah I've been helping you all this time aswell. Bitch, when was the last time you took out the garbage!??! For all the fucking four years I think I've been living here, I've been the one to take the shit out. Plus, how is she helping me now!? She gets her panties in a twist when I have a man over. Fuck you, dumb bitch! Help yourself! She acts as if I'm her personal assistant. And she so doesn't like that I don't do stuff for her. Tough luck, I'm still not gonna do shit for you. You fuck up my personal life, I fuck up yours.