the skin wtihin

Fresh cauliflower and cheese&garlic dip is making me cry. So good.

And a health related update... looks like it's some sort of allergy or something. Basically, my breathing is compromised and some muscles in the body that are not supposed to work for breathing have been working. And they just tense up and I get headaches from them.

My ears still ache, get blocked, ring and get whooshing sounds. My nose is pretty much the same as ears, minus the whooshing. Luckily my headaches are rare and not as bad. I dunno how the spring and summer will affect it all.

Went to the ENT and neurologist again: hearing tests went great. Got a brain scan too, all fine there. So... I'm just going to get massages from the physiotherapist and... that's that. Trying to rinse out my nose with saline water and use whatever I can to moisturize the skin wtihin my nose.

Also been taking iron pills since october?, maybe. And have the blood doc next week. Wow, I hope my ferritin levels are way up now cause if not then... I'm gonna have to have blood transfusions which I never wanna have.

he's my baby brother

Me, calling mum: What are you guys up to?
Mum: Me and my man are eating cake, Lauri's downstairs aching his tooth and his girl's comforting him. Dunno how he's gonna get through the night. He has to go to the emergency tomorrow.
Me: I know he's 19 but is it a milk tooth aching? Cause if it is they can just pull it out.
Mum: *laughs at my stupidity*
Me: I wasn't sure cause I don't know any 19 year olds and he's my baby brother.

Yeah I fail at biology.

handle it

Okay yeah. I'm old.
Thought I'd start dating older men. Like not older than me, god no! But older than 25.
I'm really looking old these days and thought I'd opt out of dating young hot dudes myself, before they start rejecting me for being too old cause then I'd feel way too old.

Oh yeah and it's theatre week. Will see how I can handle it.

be right all along

Yeah, I just realized I'm way too fat. I hate how I've left the gym thing til now. I'd hate to go in there and look like a resolutioner. I planned to lose weight way in august okay!? Just my health plummeted horribly first. And I'm only now starting to feel better. And I think this is as good as I'm ever gonna feel for now and for a long time from now too.
So I guess the concensus is it's either from low ferritin but most likely from some annoying allergy. So my GP seemed to be right all along.

Went to town with Hedi

Me: "Mis asjad need siin maas on?"
Hedi: "Käbid."
Me: "A, ma mõtlesin, et porgandid või viinerid."
Hedi: "Keegi viskab viinerid maha: "Kasvage!""

Me: "Lähme sealt maja tagant, tiigi äärest."
Hedi: "Sauna taga, tiigi ääres..."
Me: "Mida see Miku Manniga seal tegi?"
Hedi: "Mängisid. Konni püüdsid."
Me: "Ma ei mäletanud enam. Nii need kuulujutud tekivad."