paying my respects

Today I'm paying my respects to Raido. A lad I was in the same class with for quite a few years. Just found out he drowned. How horrible!

I'm meant to complain and suffer

Blah, so I won't be going to any universities which means I gotta start looking for a new job. Life sucks. And all of this is happening when I tried to be more poisitive and happy. It's impossible. I'm meant to complain and suffer!

Ah yes!

Ah yes! I got the appartment that I wanted. Can't say it's entirely what I expected but... meh.
And unfortunately I'm so so anxious. Like the lady I'll be living with had baked a cake for my moving in and I couldn't eat it cause I was so nervous. I felt I was being so impolite and rude.
My mother's man helped me to get all my things to the appartment and he said he thought it's gonna be a bit difficult living there cause of the lady. She is a bit old and in need of serious communication but I think I can handle it.
The only downer is I can't have men staying the night. She disallowed it. No more one night stands I guess. Maybe a boyfriend?!

it's... mad

Wah, I so hope I'll get the place I'll be checking out tomorrow. I'm so anxious about moving. New place to get used to and a new shop to get used to. Plus I don't know what's gonna happen in september. Like whether I'll be looking for a new job or going to university. And how I will cope with all that. Scary. If I didn't have anxiety disorder it would be an anxious time but with the disorder it's... mad.

good fun and lovely

The father's family came to visit us yesterday. Was good fun and lovely. Unfortunately they didn't spend the night since my brother was ill and they thought it was better for him to be at home.
And I think I found a new place for me to live in. Hopefully I'll get it.