I REALLY need the money!

Have a job interview on friday. Hopefully the job is okay and I can do it with my anxiety. I REALLY need the money!
Am still at my mother's place. Have my window open. I swear one of the birds singing outside sounds like Jossu's whining.

naked in the nature

Well...I had a pretty good day. Went swimming with the whole family, dogs included. Skinny dipped. Man I love being naked in the nature.
Then after swimming...we have this shower type of thingy outside...I took a shower...felt good to be naked again. :D
I won't go to town tomorrow. We're building a new chimney to the house. Jaan (my mother's man's sister's man) will come over tomorrow to build it, have to help him.

Damn son!

Damn son! Looking good. I won't be jumping on the Bieber-wagon just yet but he looks good in this pic.

Ughhh, I need a job so bad. I really really need a new laptop. I miss playing Sims. It won't play on my laptop anymore :( And Sims 4 will come out in September or around that time so... I need to buy that. And I have my James Franco books that I need to buy aswell. Yeah...money is needed here!

the first swim of the year

Yeah I decided to come to Melliste afterall. Already mowed the lawn today.
When I arrived here, mother was out by the lake swimming the dogs. I drove to the lake and me and mother went swimming aswell. Was super lovely and warm. Yeah, it was the first swim of the year. :)
Have more mowing to do tomorrow and hopefully I get to go swimming again.

anxiety and guilt

Okay this hot weather is giving me anxiety and guilt. I feel guilty for spending the days inside when it's so nice out. Thing is...I have nowhere to go when I'm in town so I stay inside.
Plus I won't be going to Melliste this weekend cause it's too hot to ride my bike on the motorway.
And then I was supposed to meet up with this lad but can't be arsed. Mostly cause I don't want anxiety and I do get it when someone comes over.
And then I had a missed call from an unknown number...probably some workplace. Didn't ring back cause the idea of working gives me anxiety aswell. Yeah...life sucks sometimes. Or most of the times for me.