I want someone I'm physically attracted to

I signed up on OkCupid the other day. Yeah... I know I'm ugly as fuck myself but gosh.... Estonian men aren't even worth looking at. Maybe they have nice personalities, dunno. The website is forever suggesting me Finnish men and they're so much better looking. Estonian men look like peasants. Not that there's anything wrong with that but I want someone I'm physically attracted to.

numbing pain

Oh god. It started last weekend. I have a numbing pain in my chest, on the right side. It's not my windpipe. Probably nerve pain. If it continues this bad or gets worse I'll go to th doctor on Monday. Ouch.

mentally stimulating

Okay, I seriously want a man. Not in a physical way. I want a mentally stimulating relationship. And then emotionally empowering one and then...physical. Where are all the dudes?

I'm an open book. Don't look for the cover

Well  said.

What a traitor!

Think it was last Friday when I was chilling with my mother in her bedroom. The TV was on. Some Lana Del Rey song came on. Mother had almost drifted off but woke up to listen to the song. She said it sounds like "her kind of music". What a traitor!  :D
I then left the room saying I don't wanna listen to some chick who's canoodling with my crush.