I will never see him

So my brother graduated from middle school today. And he'll be going to a trade school next year. Yeah, I don't like how old he's getting. I don't want him to grow up. I hope he won't move to Tartu any time soon cause then I won't see him at all. Right now I see him when I come to mum's but when he moves to Tartu, I will never see him cause... why would he wanna hang out with me?!

Home and fed

Home and fed now. Thank god.
My, what anxiety I had today. Took four valerian pills, 5 drops of Valium, two activated charcoal pills, one painkiller and one pill of Cerucal. Plus, I got really hungry towards the end of the day and my blood sugar must have dropped so that helped along to the anxiety. Ugh. And tomorrow the woman who works the day shift is going to a model casting so I have to do her job. I don't even wanna think about the anxiety I will get.

The good thing is my brother past all of his exams and will graduate from the ninth grade. Wooo!

*super sad face*

I'm at work waiting to start. So anxious *super sad face*

Plus plus

Damn June, you're such a let down. It's so fucking cold and rainy. All day today. Plus I had to get up early to help mum out at the shop. Plus plus I had a cold bath. Fuck.
Had a three hour nap though :)
And yesterday this one guy started talking to me again, one who I've met before a couple of times. Haven't shagged him yet.
Mum said she set up a scarecrow. The name's Juula. lol So stupid. Our old one was called Marfalda. Mum's great at thinking up ugly names.

three weeks in

Damn my anxiety. I still feel anxious before work, eventhough I'm three weeks in. I normally feel like I really wanna go into work though. I like it so far.