seen a lot of this kinda commotion in the garden

Okay, I've lost a followe. Bye and thanks for stopping by.
I've tried playing the violin but since I've been feeling slightly better I've stopped breaking my fingernails and it's hard to play.

Also seen a lot of this kinda commotion in the garden:

Gis a bite of that aaaaapplleeee!!!

Here's one more pic of me with the "mum haircut"


And two before pics:

big fat head

Anxiety is sticking it's big fat head in my life at the minute.
Ughhhhh.... I SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO gotta be okay tomorrow.

My mum cut my hair

Plus, I'm applying for the disability benefit. Had to do a few tests with a psychologist. Again, she thought I wasn't Estonian and had brought Russian tests. Ugh.. plus she said I have an accent. I do not have an accent, I'm like... fucking one hundred percent Estonian!

Oh, please please please.... let my study, body!

Oh Goddess. I soooooooo hope I can study! My anxiety just needs to pull back  a bit. That's all I can think of at the minute.
Been cleaning out my closet for a couple of days now, getting ready to move out. Oh, please please please.... let my study, body!
I looked at my syllabus and I'm a bit worried about chemistry. Hopefully they don't expect us to remember anything from secondary school cause I don't.

Oh well... heh, this looks nice though:

I'm also about to finish my goddess symbol thingy so when I'm completely done with it I can meditate and hopefully things will pick up.

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Bum Palace

So, I went to the orientation thingy today. The college orientation. I wasn't there til the very end cause I was worried about getting back. Thought I'd be too tired by the end of it all. So I left pretty soon after it started.
I did take Valium drops but I was calm enough. Although the rooms were very stuffy and warm so I sneaked out a couple of time for fresh air.
When I had the test to get into college I met this girl and todayI found out we're on the same course. Her name's Kelli.
I also got a place in the dorm. Well... the place looks very much like prison or something like it. Very... minimalistic and gross. But I'm gonna have to live there. Should move there on Monday and I'll definitely post pics of that Bum Palace.
And I continue to be worried about my anxiety. Please, please, please, let me study!