a summer like this

Okay, the summer this year sucks. I've never ever witnessed this kind of summer before. Even when I lived in Ireland. It's just so cold, windy and rainy. I leigitimately cannot remember a summer like this. I mean I know I just complained but... I hope the weekend will be all that so we can't work outside. I'm a lazy fuck.

Talking about C

Ugh, why do I do this!? I'm so early into talking with this guy and I deliberately turn the chat into sex talk. So annoying! I want a relationship not another ride. Oh well, I guess I'll just fuck him and never see him again. Talking about C.

Holding out for a hero

Where have all the good men gone?

I'm panicking

I forced myself to go out today. Wasn't gonna go but talked to mum on the phone and she said it was nice out. So I went. Didn't feel as comfortable in the shop today, maybe cause I went there around five o'clock when all the people finish work and go to shops before going home. But I spent about two hours on the town. Feeding birds and chilling at the park.
Yeah I don't know how people meet people organically cause not one man looked at me today. I know I'm not a looker but still!
Yeah and I'm panicking cause I'm afraid I won't have enough money for the week, have about 30 euros left. And then I'm worried I won't have enough GBs left, have about 20 left. I know it's enough but I still worry cause I've been spending money like crazy and watched a shitload of vids on the net.

little knots in my stomach and little shaky legs

Okay, what the hell is going on!? So now all of a sudden I can go to grocery shops? Anxiety free? I'm not complaining though. Just got in from a shopping trip. Had to buy stuff for Ilme. I mean I still get little knots in my stomach and little shaky legs but I manage to pull it off. Yay!
I'm not saying I've conquered this beast but for the last few days I've managed to get by with it.