what choice do I have

So there's a christmas party coming up at my workplace on friday. Was hoping to get the day off. Yeah, just got a phonecall from my supervisor, I do have to work on friday. They will drive out all the cars in the shop and I just have to do the floors, on the first floor. Have to be there at 18:30 and the party will start at 20:00. Hopefully I'll be quick enough and gone before the guests get there.
Yeah and then, I have to work on saturday to clean up properly, the tiolets and offices. Ugh, okay I guess, what choice do I have. :)

It's time!

I think I’m lonely without realising or feeling it. Like, before my first boyfriend I used to get super lonely and sad and cry about it. Now I find myself looking up the guys I went to kindergarten with. Like… cause I hate dating and the getting-to-know-him period. And I hate being on a date as in being in a forced situation. I just want a guy I've met and got to know naturally. Yeah, the kindergarten business is worrying lol, I'm, we're too old, the guys are probably married with kids already by now. Ugh. Yeah I’ve been single for almost 7 years, I'm ready for the loving. So tired of one night stands. Yeah I'm not lonely as in feeling sad and desperate but yeah I want a man. It's time!

the first floor of the building

Oh goodness! Just had a panic attack. The nap I was talking about, yeah it really threw me off just now. I was legit thinking it was monday evening today and I freaked out thinking I had missed work. Fuck. It felt so bad. My stomach just dropped to the first floor of the building.

that's it

If I remember correctly then I haven't napped ever since I started working this year. And today I got sleepy and napped. I would have slept even longer but it was almost 12am so had to wake up. I woke up around 5pm and went to nap before 10pm. It felt nice though. Um...yeah that's it.

an organic crush

I think I'm developing an organic crush on this guy at work. He's short, dark haired. I noticed him when he started saying hello to me. Like, he doesn't seem to say hello in a nice way, just in a polite way but yeah...I noticed him. I say hello back and check him out. He doesn't check me out. I'm just glad I like someone other than a celebrity.
The bad thing is, I work in the shop part of the place, where they sell cars, he works in the garage part of the place where they fix cars. And I'm pretty sure he has a girlfriend (cause...my luck!) and even if he doesn't he most probably wouldn't be interested in me.
I'm just happy seeing his cute face around a few times during the week. I wanna ask my co-worker, who cleans the garage part, for his name. She probably knows since she's been there for about three years. Although I only started noticing the guy like a couple of weeks ago. Maybe he's new?