pressure

Ugh. So I'm feeling better today withdrawal wise. Other than that, ugh, as I stated.
So my workplace is gonna be audited and everything has to be CLEAN! This puts pressure on me. So far I haven't got any instructions on how to perform a more thorough cleaning of the place. I wasn't that bothered about it til I heard the co-worker from the garage say they're moving furniture and shit over there to clean. Ugh. I'm afraid those auditing people won't be happy with my cleaning and then the car shop people won't be happy with me and then the cleaning company won't be happy and I'll be fired. Fuck! I feel like my work is representing the car shop in this case and it puts a tremendous pressure on me and I don't do well under pressure. They'll come by on the 31st of January and 2nd of February. Next monday is gonna be a madhouse. I'll be cleaning all night! And I will take a buttload of Valium to calm myself. Fuck, the christmas party thing was nothing compared to this.

TOO MUCH!!!!!!!!!

me: LOL, TOO ACCURATE!!!!!!!!

I give in and I give up

Okay, I give in and I give up. 100% sure the reason I'm feeling this crappy is cause of withdrawal. I took a full dose of my pill today and I will quit trying to go off of it. It's just too hard. Shit. It's crazy the effects these kindsa pills have on you.

feeling weird again

Okay, I'm feeling weird again. Dunno if it's just random anxiety, withdrawal symptom or I have something else wrong with me, like a flu or something.

detatched

Had this weird detatched feeling today at work. Like detatched from reality. Must be a withdrawal symptom. Luckily no headaches as of now.