cigarettes

Damn, this last weekend I bought my 17 year old brother cigarettes. I should have stuck to my guns and never bought them for him. It's illegal yeah but it's also super bad for health.
And mum just called and said she talked to the police. He got caught smoking at school. Dumbass. Mum has talways told him not to smoke at school.
Oh yeah and mum got all sassy with the police and told them to find the damn person who gives the young cigarettes and fine them. And when she hung up she remembered she had bought that packet for him. lol

Scaring the grays away

So, on sunday, this happened...

Scaring the grays away.
And this is the result:

Natural, like I wanted it. At least no gray can be seen. And I like it a little shorter :)

Also our garden got a makerover after years:

Normally we've always had the whole patch full of harvestables. Or like onions mostly. Maybe some peas and beans and strawberries. Anyway, this year we dug it up and planted grass on it. Second pic is of grass seeds. We got these cut outs of underground tubes, just like big cylinders and rolled them on the patch to...get the seeds to stick I guess. We didn't water, we hoped for rain that night. Didn't rain. Mum said the morning dew is enough. Hm...?

And the rapeseed is almost in full bloom. The dandelion yellow is cuter. More yellow and warmer.

Biology

Okay, I'll try to get into uni this year again :D
I'm fucking crazy. Maybe it'll all work out this time.
Biology.

still salty af

Okay, there were these people in the street dressed all nice and stuff, trying to talk to people. I thought they were selling something so I just rode past them on my bike.
Then later when I was going home they stopped me. Omg, the dude was so cute. He talked to me with that weird accent. And obviously that's why he was cute. Cause he wasn't estonian. Like I love my people, but we're an ugly bunch.
And to my disappointment he wanted to talk to me about jesus. Fuck! So cute but so messed up. He asked me why I wasn't interested in religion and I said I've seen what it does to people. And then, we were talking in estonian and I asked him if he'd prefer to talk in english "so it would be easier for him". He laughed and asked me if I wanted to practice mine and he was alright talking in estonian cause he was good enough. Like he probably was but I feel bad saying this, I just didn't understand much cause of his accent. The bits I did understand were great, he could really pull a sentence together not stumble and mumble but his accent was pretty bad. So when I asked if he wanted to do it in english I meant "sorry dude, I don't understand your accent". :D
I just didn't have the heart to tell him that cause as I said when I did understand him he was great and he was nice in general. Eventhough he wanted to talk about jesus.

And before that I had been at my mum's workplace and was on her computer. I saw a woman coming towards the cash register so I moved away so mum could serve her. I just wandered off looking at stuff in the shop. Then as I thought they were finishing the payment I walked back up, closer and I'm pretty sure the woman was my bully in high school. :D I kept my distance and stared at her to be sure.
She bought a broom and some little item. When she left the shop I walked up to my mum and said, "I think that was the girl who used to bully me in high school. You should have taken the broom stick and shove it up her ass". Damn, still salty af.

the colour of anxiety and depression

You seeing this motherfucker!? That's the colour of anxiety and depression.

My mum's always going on about dying my hair. And I'm always like no, leave me alone, my hair's fine. And today in perfect lighting I saw the reality. My head is full of gray hairs. Like for real. Much, much, much more than my 54 year old mother's head.
Anyway, I won't be going to my mum's place this weekend, maybe next weekend and I will be dying my hair. Next friday she should come over to my place so I'll get her to buy me a hairdye which I pick out myself and I will dye the fuck out of my hair. I was fucking horrified this morning!