Course

Started a course of psychology and some holistic stuff.
Should be fun and it certainly is interesting - got me thinking of metaphysical things.
So far I've learned that talking doesn't really solve your problems, you need to get your energy cleansed.
And I can't remember the word for word definition, but it sounded nice and spiritual and a little like this: A human is put on Earth as a healer of themselves first and then live amongst others as their healer. Sounds good so.
The only thing that kind of bothers me is that the other people taking course talk about god.
I don't believe in any of them.
I was told to think of a guardian or an angel then, but I don't really believe in those either.
I believe in energy. They also mentioned higher self and sort-of-a-higher-self.
Guess I have to go with my higher self so.
Have to sort of meditate and do reflexology on myself.
The hypnotherapist who heals me and leads the course, said I've a gift.
Apparently I'm an expert at reflexology. Think it was that.
Next year we should get specialists in to discover our own special holistic qualities and talents.
Then I'll know for sure.

On another note, life has been boring.
Should be going back to work next week, three months of sick leave is over.
We'll see how that goes.
Boyfriend's been here and gone.
The last time I saw him, nothing hurt. Twice.:)

Oh and my birthday's coming up soon.
Want stuff.
The Sims 3 World Adventures will be out exactly on my birthday.
Want that and some RAM.
Plus I need woolly socks, a woolly hoodie, woolly slippers.
And I wouldn't mind if I got the first, second or third season of That 70's Show. Have the rest, except the 8th - that's without Topher so don't need it.:D

Right, off now.

Oh, started my period early again, on the 9th. What's up wih it? The cold weather? Climate change? Recession? George Bush?

Like Demi on a record, but not live.

Diagnosis

Was diagnosed with a reflux disease.
Based on the barium meal so.
Have to take pills for the rest of my life.
Not to heal the condition, but to ease the symptoms.
There's no remedy - have an anatomical problem which can't be fixed even with an operation.
Bascially the food pipe muscles are too weak to hold the food and acid in my stomach, so I get heartburn, discomfort, pain, gagging throughout the day, every day...for the rest of my life.
I swear to...something super-important sometimes I want to get out of my body so much.

Plus, the sex this morning is giving me tummy troubles.:(
Could be the chinese I had last night that's making my tummy ache.
Well, it gave a bad stomach to my boyfriend.
Hmh, not fun, especially if you don't have toilet paper in the house.:D

Oh, I have been using this beauty lamp for spots on my face.
Skin looks better or different but it's only early days.
Got my tooth fixed. Good stuff. Was really proud of myself for not being nervous or scared of the dentist.

Just an update for myself with appointments...again:
2nd of October at 18:00 hypnotherapist
Breath test - Wednesday 11th November 2009 at 09:00
psychiatrist on 17th November 2009
Dr. at hospital - Wednesday 16/12/2009 at 15:30
January 2009 lady doctor
March 2009 dentist check up

Blah, nothing interesting so. Just health stuff.

The inner girl

Woohoo, went out.
Was kind of boring and felt a bit icky. But!
I didn't really dress up or make an effort.
Until I got to my friend's house.
She has like fuckloads of shoes and dresses/skirts/tops etc.
And they were all gorgeous!!!
I've never been the one to make a fuss about all that stuff but it was just too colourful and glitzy not to get excited.
So I went through my friend's press (read: treasure chest) and put together loadsa different outfits and had the girly panic where I didn't know what to wear.

Anyway, I went for this top, skirt ( front/back), the lovely shoes (friend got them for Christmas, so she calls them Snowflake Shoes). And that's little old me (fuzzy, I know. Friend took it with my phone. She had a date comin' up, so was nervous).

Yeah, went out so, talked to some airport man.
Didn't get into a nightclub, cause I didn't have my ID with me.
God, I'm nearly 24!!
Friend liked her date. Seemed like a nice guy.

Wing man

Went to have the barium meal done so.
Wasn't too bad, but had a sore throat at the time and the mix irritated it.
Didn't have anxiety management, just talked to my psychiatrist.
He was surprised I hadn't had any of those sessions since the last time we met.
Um, yeah mate, you're the one who's managing the whole thing.
Told my friend I tried to kill myself - she found a counsellor for me and is paying for sessions, cause she doesn't want to organize my funeral.
First time - 2nd October 2009 at 18:00
Plus
GP Monday 28th September 10:30 (getting the results of barium meal)
Dentist on Monday 28th September 10:45 or 13:45
(Damn a sweet destroyed my tooth - it just fell apart)
Seeing the psychiatrist on 17th November 2009 (Yes, on my birthday)
Breath test - Wednesday 11th November 2009 at 09:00
Dr. at hospital - Wednesday 16/12/2009 at 15:30

Blah - haven't seen my boyfriend for quite a while.
The last time I saw him (Sunday) I wasn't in pain.;):D

Should go out tonight.
To be a wing man to my friend - she's meeting a lad for the first time and is nervous.
Not in the mood to blog really, just a few updates for myself.

Oh and I started taking a few spoonfuls of Extra Virgin olive oil daily. Think it's helping a bit.
And I'm eating baby food instead of normal food. Everything else just makes me feel poo-y.

Thumbs down

Feeling shitty.
Finished my Mastika capsules, Pantup and Manuka honey a few days ago.
So, going back to feeling sick constantly.