Wow, what a day. Left half an hour early from work to get to this second hand clothes shop to give them my CV. I went to print it out at my mother's work place (the shop is like a minute away from there). When I checked my e mail I discovered I had got into a university. Wow, I dunno what to do now. Like, if I'll get the job I don't know whether I'll take it or go study.
I'm just scared cause of the anxiety. Dunno if I'm able to be in a strange room full of strangers. Think I'd adjust to the work better.
Thursday, August 02, 2012
Wednesday, August 01, 2012
no bitch can bitch
Well, I got my first bollocking in my new appartment. Guess for what! Windows!
What is up with people wanting the windows closed!? Like the old lady said nobody in Tartu has their windows open like me. Seriously, I just don't give a fuck how others have their windows, mine are supposed to be open. I like fresh air in my room.
She was saying how she continuously has asked me to close the window. Well, fuck, I continuously open my window cause I want it open. Why in the world is her wish more important than mine. I understand it's her apartment but it's my room, I'm paying for it.
Seriously when I have my own house or apartment one day I'm not building any windows in, I'll just have holes in walls so no bitch can bitch.
On another note, I might go to my classmate's funeral on Saturday. I found out today that I was in the same class with him, not for "quite a few years", but all of the 12 years. I just didn't remember it at first. Gah, it'd be my first funeral. I'll pack a pack of tissues just in case, although I think I won't be inside the crematory long enough to get emotional, my anxiety will kick in first. Ahh, nerve wrecking.
Annnnd, I'm looking for a new job since the one I have now is seasonal, til the end of September.
What is up with people wanting the windows closed!? Like the old lady said nobody in Tartu has their windows open like me. Seriously, I just don't give a fuck how others have their windows, mine are supposed to be open. I like fresh air in my room.
She was saying how she continuously has asked me to close the window. Well, fuck, I continuously open my window cause I want it open. Why in the world is her wish more important than mine. I understand it's her apartment but it's my room, I'm paying for it.
Seriously when I have my own house or apartment one day I'm not building any windows in, I'll just have holes in walls so no bitch can bitch.
On another note, I might go to my classmate's funeral on Saturday. I found out today that I was in the same class with him, not for "quite a few years", but all of the 12 years. I just didn't remember it at first. Gah, it'd be my first funeral. I'll pack a pack of tissues just in case, although I think I won't be inside the crematory long enough to get emotional, my anxiety will kick in first. Ahh, nerve wrecking.
Annnnd, I'm looking for a new job since the one I have now is seasonal, til the end of September.
Monday, July 30, 2012
paying my respects
Today I'm paying my respects to Raido. A lad I was in the same class with for quite a few years. Just found out he drowned. How horrible!
Tuesday, July 24, 2012
I'm meant to complain and suffer
Blah, so I won't be going to any universities which means I gotta start looking for a new job. Life sucks. And all of this is happening when I tried to be more poisitive and happy. It's impossible. I'm meant to complain and suffer!
Monday, July 23, 2012
Ah yes!
Ah yes! I got the appartment that I wanted. Can't say it's entirely what I expected but... meh.
And unfortunately I'm so so anxious. Like the lady I'll be living with had baked a cake for my moving in and I couldn't eat it cause I was so nervous. I felt I was being so impolite and rude.
My mother's man helped me to get all my things to the appartment and he said he thought it's gonna be a bit difficult living there cause of the lady. She is a bit old and in need of serious communication but I think I can handle it.
The only downer is I can't have men staying the night. She disallowed it. No more one night stands I guess. Maybe a boyfriend?!
And unfortunately I'm so so anxious. Like the lady I'll be living with had baked a cake for my moving in and I couldn't eat it cause I was so nervous. I felt I was being so impolite and rude.
My mother's man helped me to get all my things to the appartment and he said he thought it's gonna be a bit difficult living there cause of the lady. She is a bit old and in need of serious communication but I think I can handle it.
The only downer is I can't have men staying the night. She disallowed it. No more one night stands I guess. Maybe a boyfriend?!
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