regressing

Haven't been to mum's house in about two months. Mum thinks I'm regressing. I think she's right. She says I'm on my way back to rock bottom. I hope this doesn't happen though. I feel alright, the only reason I don't go out now is cause of the damn season. I hate the cold! And it's just so shitty riding my bike in the snow. I just really gotta start going to bed earlier. That's the only thing that's really out of place right now. And yeah I only get out of my house when I need to go to work/the shop. I basically don't move or get fresh air at all.

The song about how much I hate winter

https://www.youtube.com/embed/iq0ExlC11a8
Waaaah, soo sooo so good! On repeat all day today. My exact feelings.

being nice

Haha, Ilme was being delusional again. Luckily it didn't make me mad. Like the first thing I do when I get up is go and put the kettle on for my tea and wash my cup at the same time. That's what I was doing this morning. And I've said before that the first thing Ilme tells me in the morning is to do shit for her. So when I was doing my thing, she came into the kitchen and asked if I would take the garbage out today. I was still sleepy, so I was very calm and told her I just woke up and wasn't even thinking about such things yet. Then I totally forgot about the conversation cause it was so unimportant. Then before going to work I remembered the garbage and I went into Ilme's room to tell her I'd take it out tomorrow cause I wanna have a bath today after work. And she was like okay but don't get moody with me, talk nicely to me. !?!?!?!?!? Bitch, seriously!?!?!?!?!? I was in no way moody with her lol. And I was being nice to her. The fact that she didn't think I was being nice to her was cause I didn't jump the fucking gun and run outside right then and there when she brought up the garbage. Like, no, I'm not gonna take the garbage out the second you think of it. And are we really, really really, gonna talk about being nice!? Um, what about the time you barged into my room after when I had had sex to give out to me about having sex when it's not even your fucking business?!?!? You can just shut up about being nice since you clearly have no idea what being nice is about. She thinks being nice is obeying and worshipphing her. What a hag!

healthy and responsible

Yeah I was trying to be healthy and responsible. Started feeling sleepy at 4am and went to sleep. Woke up at 5am feeling like shit. So here I am, browsing the web cause I feel too sick to sleep. Fun times.

brain and memory

Okay :D I read my this years' blog posts and I keep repeating my stories. Girl, where's your brain and memory!? So lame.