an organic crush

I think I'm developing an organic crush on this guy at work. He's short, dark haired. I noticed him when he started saying hello to me. Like, he doesn't seem to say hello in a nice way, just in a polite way but yeah...I noticed him. I say hello back and check him out. He doesn't check me out. I'm just glad I like someone other than a celebrity.
The bad thing is, I work in the shop part of the place, where they sell cars, he works in the garage part of the place where they fix cars. And I'm pretty sure he has a girlfriend (cause...my luck!) and even if he doesn't he most probably wouldn't be interested in me.
I'm just happy seeing his cute face around a few times during the week. I wanna ask my co-worker, who cleans the garage part, for his name. She probably knows since she's been there for about three years. Although I only started noticing the guy like a couple of weeks ago. Maybe he's new?

our names sound alike

Hahaha, I laughed at and was embarrassed for myself today. Like, Lauri went on a school trip to Austria. Him and mum had a chat on Facebook. And mum told me about their convo on the phone. So basically she had told him to not get "us" anything but to bring back a chocolate for "Diana". And he was like,"will do". And I was all like "awwww" when mum told me the story. Then a couple of hours later I started thinking about the conversation again. Hah! I'm pretty sure mum meant not to bring us (herself, Lembit and me) anything but bring something back for Jaana, his girlfriend. :D I felt so lame after realizing that. It's not my falut our names sound alike.

vocalist

Yeah, Nicki Minaj is such a great vocalist.

waking up

Yeah so, I rang my shrink. Have to up my Olansapiin dosage. Just 2,5mg a day instead of 2,5mg every other day. Just til the end of year. She said other patients' health has suffered aswell, gone worse. She said it's cause of the season. Fuck! I knew it.
I had the worst night. I kept waking up after every half an hour, literally. And I started feeling like shit when waking up. Took Valium. Made it a little better but still kept waking up.
Man, I hope work goes well.

it's a tough life trying to be normal

Okay yeah. I gotta ring my shrink. I've been staying up til 8am (and actually falling asleep at 9am-12pm). I thought it was my Matthew Gray Gubler and internet obsession, which definitely plays a role in this whole thing, but now I'm sure it's cause of me going off of Olanzapine. Like, I've been sweating like crazy, in a horrible stinky way, my jaw clenching is still happening. And I'm sure my sleeping problems are cause of that aswell. I'm on 2,5mg every other day. I dunno if I should completely stop or if it's wiser to keep taking the pills. I've been lowering the dosage for months, gradually and slowly cause I wanna get off the pill for sure. So I wanna ring my doctor and ask her what to do. December's supposed to be the month where I was supposed to stop taking the pills all together but I dunno really...maybe I'll just take 2,5mg every two days. Argh, dunno! I read online that the withdrawal symptoms can last for months. Yeah it's a tough life trying to be normal again. :D