feel normal

Okay, went to the doctor yesterday. Wasn't anxious about it beforehand. Got a little bit of it when my blood was taken and when I had my x-ray done.
Got my results back today. Lungs are fine. Prolactin and white blood cell count are fine. No inflammation found. Hemoglobin was a little on the low end (mine was 120, and the lowest norm is 118). Also lacking MCV. That's um...like iron reserve in blood. The norm's 82, mine was 80. Bought iron tabs today. Have to take them for two months then go back after three for another test. I've taken them before when I was in my teens and when my anxiety got really really bad. Fuck my iron levels were really low. I couldn't lay down in bed cause my head started spinning like crazy and I couldn't stand up cause I felt like I was gonna pass out straight away. So I was just stuck in some weird sitting position in bed.
Right now I don't feel tired or anything, feel normal. Don't seem to have any weird symptoms. :)
Yeah the iron pills I bought were almost 7 euros. There were also the organic ones that the body absorbs better and shit but they were almsot 15 euros so... And my mum has had problems with iron levels all of her life so maybe I'm the same.

My little celebrity encounter

So work is the only place where I listen to the radio and hear new music... for a while now the station has been playing this song:

Yeah... I and then this happened:

He liked my comment and replied to it! Love this dude! :D My little celebrity encounter.

It's so satisfying, more so than sex

Man, I love turning down horny guys. It's so much fun! It's so satisfying, more so than sex.

Yeah, last week I called Lembit and asked if they had any old speakers left over, for my laptop. He said Lauri has broken all and the only ones that are there aren't compatible with my laptop. He said he can look for new ones for me and I said there's no need. And talked to mum today and she said Lembit had bought me new speakers!! Fuck! :D I feel so bad. I didn't need them that badly. It's just my laptop's speakers are so quiet and I don't wanna use my headphones all the time, especially when snuggling up under my quilt and hitting my head on my pillow. I'm thankful but he really didn't have to. At least they were some cheap ones. Mum will probably bring them over this week.
Oh speaking of that... last night I went to bed at 7:30am, was trying to fall asleep when my mum called me at 7:45 asking if she could come to my place. Well, she had forgotten the key to her workplace so there was nothing to do but to let her in. We bought this nice tunic/sweater for me on the internet. Yay!

Um, what else? Oh tomorrow I have to go see my GP about my white blood cell count and prolactine levels. Just basic blood test I guess.

Yeahh, that's about it :)

How are you supposed to have one of those idiots as a parent to your child!?

Okay, I wanna be like an ambassador for child adoption. Is there such a position, such a human out there!? Adopting a kid is the most amazing thing ever! Fuck, I wish I had money, my own place and better health, I would adopt right now. I can't financially even take care of myself so... Yeah and I can't get pregnant myself cause of Olanzapine so... Been thinking about them babies since my last shrink visit.
Oh and I just love when I'm right about people... men. Like this recent dude, I told him I don't shag outside a relationship and if he's after that then it's not gonna work out. He said he was fine with my wishes and now he's not even talking to me anymore. Ha! I knew he was after sex only. Men are just pathetic. How are you supposed to have one of those idiots as a parent to your child!?

so soft and sweet

Oh wow! Just made an amazing dish! Boiled rice. Plus sort of a stir-fry with chicken, broccoli, brussels sprouts, cauliflower, string beans and mushrooms. Salt and about 4 bigger garlic cloves for flavour. Shit it's so good! I love brussels sprouts! It's my first time cooking them and I had so much faith in them. They're so soft and sweet. Ahhhhh, yummmm!