Fun fact

I’m dying. Send dopamine antagonists!
Fun fact, olanzapine is a dopamine antagonist, the medication I'm supposed to go off of right now.
Fun fact number 2, trying to go off of that pill makes me feel sick in general and also nauseated. I treat my nausea with Cerucal. Which is also a dopamine antagonist. Great! I can't even treat my nausea cause them medications are basically the same thing. I'll just keep eating my ginger-oak bark-blueberry pills then.
Been feeling super sleepy and poorly since before 1am. And as always I can't go to sleep like this cause I know I'll wake up feeling even sicker.
Will try to watch a film I guess.

Still

Still don't know how work things are but learned today that my work crush was broken up with by his girlfriend. I didn't get overly happy. I just asked my source if he was sad. And then I remembered I still very much look like a potato so I still have no chance with him lol

love tweet

Another love tweet and reply.

On another note. I haven't really felt like myself lately. I was a little sick about a week ago or so and yeah... my appetite is now gone and messed up. Think it might be the Olanzapine dosage decrease. I just feel weird.
Also, I still hope I get to keep my job.
Oh and I learned today my psychologist is going on a maternity leave this year. Dunno how long for. Talked a little about being pregnant. She gave me a little hope. Like, she told me that emetophobia is no reason to not fall pregnant, that this fear can be overcome. She said there's special pills for pregnancy nausea. Ahhh, just have to find a nice man first.

debts or state budgets

One more thing for today... I don't understand how countries have debts or state budgets. Like, who's in control of all the money in the world? Can't the governments of countries just make more money when they need it?

bad advice

Okay... just remembered something.
Apparently I give bad advice lol. Was kicked out of a FB group a while back. There was a woman saying how she had made a post in that anxiety support group and nobody had replied to her. And I said everyone's just so caught up in their own problems that they simply did not see others' problems and that if she wants undivided attention she should see a therapist who is there only for her. Next thing I know I'm banned. I didn't say it to be mean, I just said it matter of factly.
And then mum said she might have problems with her thyroid. And she's always going on about how fat she is. So I said when she will have problems with her thyroid she might really balloon up so she should enjoy her current body while she has it. I was trying to put things into perspective and have a positive outlook on the issue. She laughed but said it was mean of me. No! I was being supportive.
Damn it. :)