Well, my life has turned into shit again. What with being anxious all the time and able to eat.
My mother said it would be best if I went back to hospital but I so don\t want to becuase it feels like prison. And what is the point in going back if it doesn\t help. If it did then I wouldn\t be such a wreck right now.
Oh and what are the lifelines for when you ring on one of those numbers and nobody answers the phone? Well, eventually I got a hold of this man and we chatted and I told him my tranquillizers are not helping, they just make me sleepy and he said it's cause my anxiety/depression is too severe/deep.
Yeah and then I called the ambulance. Just to talk to a doctor cause I didn't want to be taken to hospital. Plus my little brother is over visiting me so I can't even go. I feel so bad about it though, I was too much of a wreck today to even cook for him, let alone do stuff with him.
The ambulance woman gave me some doctor's number adn I talked to her aswell but me credit went low so it was cut off.
Anyway, I'm full of diazepam and mirtazapine now...so I'll try to get some sleep.
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