Load of bollocks

Gah, so I tried my best to stay super calm.
Started fasting since 3 at night.
Waited until something past 5 this evening to see the doctor.
Was told that endoscopy is only done on Mondays.
Um yeah, I was sent 2 letters with today´s date, time and endoscopy on it.
What kind of idiots work in that hospital?
Was prescribed Nexium tablets, that are very very expensive.
That reminds me that I have to get my medical card done.
Okay, as of now, my next endoscopy appointment should be on next Monday at 8:45.
Just took a Motilium tablet the doctor prescribed aswell.
Waiting a few minutes and then I can finally eat!

Today´s the day

Yeah, I´m worryingly calm.
We´ll see what I´m like once I get to the hosptial.
Think I´m relaxed cause I have a bit of self control, over myself aswell as the situations I get into.
I don´t have to do anything I don´t want to and noone can do things to me I won´t let them do.
I know I need to do it, so...hopefully it´ll be okay.
I´m starving though. Been fasting since 3 o´clock at night.
Boyfriend just texted, wished me best of luck.
Said he found Nemo. :D
Well, that was my DVD and it was missing. He had it, packed away in some bag.
Oh well, hopefully I´ll get out of it alive and when I do then hopefully not scarred for life.

Okay so, off to take shower and get ready for my endoscopy.

Kevin

Oh, I meant to talk about this quite a while ago, but here I am only now so...here goes:
I think Kevin McHale is hot. I know I have a boyfriend but it´s not like I´ll ever do anything with Kevin, you know like...meet him, see him in person. Besides I happen to know my man likes Rihanna and Cheryl Cole and I believe some other people with boobs, so...

Anyway, Kevin McHale is super hot: short, kind of dark haired and from what I have seen - decent bodied.
He´s an American actor and a singer.
Been on some TV shows and in a band.
His latest piece of work is on Glee.
Yeah and the show got 4 Golden Globe nominations today, so woooo! Congratulations to the people working on the show. Maybe it gets even better and they win. ;)
The show is about secondary school pupils and their problems and songs and dances and other people´s problems. :D
In very short so.

Glee on Youtube - check it out, Kevin´s singing there. Somewhere.

And the first glimpse of him I got was in this little number:
Ahh...wub!

Anyways, I´m always going on about him, but I´ll try to leave it within this post only.

I think I did a pretty good job at keeping it clean, cause he sure is a handsome citric acidic and fructose sugary of an oxytocin bomb.

Tomorrow.

Right, haven´t been updating for a while.
Life has been boring.
Been stuck in the house and turned 24.
Did nothing on my birthday, maybe felt sick.
Got money from bf and father and socks from a friend.

Been out of money as usual.
Couldn´t afford to pay for the course.
Did go a few times, very...powerful experiences.

Have had reiki done on me. Also powerful.
Lovely Lady C is a very warm person and makes me feel nice, after the cramps in legs, waves all over the body, sharp pains in certain body parts, sicky feeling in stomach from all the energy, of course.

Been surviving on Ulcid tablets. Woo hoo!
Who doesn´t like taking pills every day?

Anyway, what got me writing today is the fact that I have gastroscopy tomorrow.
Hm.
Scary.
But will see.


And another thing, I´d like to dedicate a special thank you to Virgin Mary and Ixchel.
I´m so not a religious person, but wow! I can feel the loooove.
And my lovely crystals aswell. Everyone and everything that has been nice to me. :)
It came out naturally although I was kind of told to send out love and positive energy.

Sincerely.

TSD7

Course

Started a course of psychology and some holistic stuff.
Should be fun and it certainly is interesting - got me thinking of metaphysical things.
So far I've learned that talking doesn't really solve your problems, you need to get your energy cleansed.
And I can't remember the word for word definition, but it sounded nice and spiritual and a little like this: A human is put on Earth as a healer of themselves first and then live amongst others as their healer. Sounds good so.
The only thing that kind of bothers me is that the other people taking course talk about god.
I don't believe in any of them.
I was told to think of a guardian or an angel then, but I don't really believe in those either.
I believe in energy. They also mentioned higher self and sort-of-a-higher-self.
Guess I have to go with my higher self so.
Have to sort of meditate and do reflexology on myself.
The hypnotherapist who heals me and leads the course, said I've a gift.
Apparently I'm an expert at reflexology. Think it was that.
Next year we should get specialists in to discover our own special holistic qualities and talents.
Then I'll know for sure.

On another note, life has been boring.
Should be going back to work next week, three months of sick leave is over.
We'll see how that goes.
Boyfriend's been here and gone.
The last time I saw him, nothing hurt. Twice.:)

Oh and my birthday's coming up soon.
Want stuff.
The Sims 3 World Adventures will be out exactly on my birthday.
Want that and some RAM.
Plus I need woolly socks, a woolly hoodie, woolly slippers.
And I wouldn't mind if I got the first, second or third season of That 70's Show. Have the rest, except the 8th - that's without Topher so don't need it.:D

Right, off now.

Oh, started my period early again, on the 9th. What's up wih it? The cold weather? Climate change? Recession? George Bush?

Like Demi on a record, but not live.