Friday, July 02, 2010

The thing is K works with U's husband C

Well, unfortunately the woman never got here today.
To collect one of my suitcases, but hopefully she'll be here tomorrow.
I even found a bit of my own money, like my homecountry's money.
It's not much, but that's all I have left from the last time I was on holiday over there.
267 moneys. That's like 17 euros or so.

I also got a hold of my psychologist.
The thing is I can take out only a week supply of the antidepressants.
The psychologist talked to the psychiatrist so instead of me or one of the people I know picking up a letter at their office the psychiatrist will come to my house tomorrow.
Well, there's one letter for my GP in my homecountry saying that I'm on the tablet and been on it for this and that long. And one letter for the pharmacy here so I can get a monthly supply of the tablets.
Hopefully I can talk to him and he'll give me something for flying aswell.
I just want something that knocks me out. Completely.
I'll be sleeping downstairs tonight so I'll hear the door bell in the morning.

And then I also talked to a girl I've mentioned earlier.
She's the one I went out with one night last October or so.
I got a skirt off her and a top and shoes.
I left my trousers and boots at her place so hopefully we'll get the chance to swap the things.

And I'm gonna see my mother's friend U tomorrow aswell.
We didn't talk for quite a while.
Well since my birthday and then December.
She wanted to come over to my place on my birthday and I said I can't stay up long cause I needed to get up early the next day to go to Dublin to hospital to see a doctor.
And she got all offended and said it was a "nice" way of telling her not to come.
Er...
Then in December when I had my scope done I called her to see if she could take me home but she started all giving out to me and shit so I didn't bother talking to her.
Anyways I texted her the other day and she never got back to me.
I told K about it aswell.
The thing is K works with U's husband C.
And she said C's always going on about me and said I definitely have to tell them I'm leaving.
I said I texted the woman and if she doesn't get back to me I'm not gonna tell her anything.
K asked me if it was ok if she told C about me leaving.
I said whatever.
And today U rang me and I'm going over to their place tomorrow evening.

So... I dunno.
I feel kind of weird.
Kind of sad.
Feels kind of weird going back to living with my parents and being dependant.
I'll be looking for volunteering in my homecountry aswell.
I wouldn't want to sit at home all the time.
And possibly badminton aswell.
Hopefully some of the kids living in the small town my dad lives in like badminton.

Mh, talked to "Bf" today aswell.
He told me to do as much as possible during the time I have left here.
Er... I just sat at home all day today.
Well, to be fair, I had period pains most of the day so...

Yeah...Hm..think K's downstairs.
Will go and see if she wants to play cards.

Thursday, July 01, 2010

Kevade

Had terrible nightmares last night.
Mostly about flying.
I cannot wait til I'm done with it.
I just hope I won't have some crazy panic attack.

Gah, it's so crappy I don't have money.
I wanna text/call people before I leave to meet up with them, but have no credit.
And I'd like to have a little get together, but have no money for that either.

Haven't finished packing my suitcase yet.
Have way too much stuff.
Blah...

Oh and how fit is mister McSex?

I'll tell you. Totally fit.

Just watched a film called Kevade (Spring).
Loved it! :)
It's on Youtube.
No review on it cause it's a classic.

Oh, just got a call from the woman I'll be flying with.
She'll call over later so I can give her my stuff.
Said I can put my things into the black bin liner.
That's good cause I don't have to worry about an extra suitcase then.
Well, I was gonna put some things into a suitcase and then buy another one.

Well, I'm gonna go and play the violin now.
Got a playing bug cause of the film and I might send the violin with the people who are leaving on the 3rd of July.


TS300610

Wednesday, June 30, 2010

Paid for

Well, the ticket is paid for.
"Bf" paid for it.
Then had one of his weird moods again.
Probably cause I have to pack my stuff today cause some people will be leaving the country before me and they can take some of my stuff with them.
Anyways, I have loads of stuff.
Have to give away loads of clothes and leave stuff behind.
I'm leaving my computer for the "bf".
Dunno what to do with all of my CDs and DVDs.

...back to packing now.

Nerve-wracking to say the least.

Well, looks like I am going back to my homecountry.
Nerve-wracking to say the least.
Have to go and get some things sorted now.
Just in case.
Then enjoy the last few days I have in Ireland.

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Doesn't sound too bad, but I dunno...

Hmmmh.
Talking to Dad online.
He wants me to go and live at their place.
Study over in my homecountry and all.
Doesn't sound too bad, but I dunno...