blind

Being too enlightened will make you blind. Or it's just another Bermuda triangle, making the weak ones lose their hearts, minds and sense of humanity.

Fuck! What is this? Ughhh.

Okay yeah so friday was a bitch ass horrible day. Went and did my work on saturday. Felt pretty okay. Then today was fine too. Til now. Have a fever again and this wobbly, unsteady feeling, even sitting down on the bed. Fuck! What is this? Ughhh.
I dunno, like is it cause I'm trying to go off of Olanzapine? I know it's uncommon to get a fever with the pill or anxiety, but like.... ???? Yesterday was fine and the whole day of today, why now!?
Have no clue what is wrong with me. I just feel weak, poorly and nauseous.
And when I strain a bit my head gets weird, like I have a headcold. But if I'm just sitting, I don't have that headcold feeling.

Will do it tomorrow

Ha! I'm sick. Won't be going to work today. Will do it tomorrow. Damn, I almost lasted a year without skipping a day. But I did some extra days, on my days off so this one time is okay since I'll do the needed work on my day off tomorrow.
Luckily my supervisor said it was okay. I also called into the shop and asked the man I talk to most if it was okay if I did my work tomorrow. He said it shouldn't be a problem. I was gonna go in and empty the bins on the first floor and do the first floor/customer toilets but I asked if the woman who cleans the garage part could empty the four little toilet bins cause I've closed doors for her and cleaned toilets for her when she couldn't come in before.
I took a flu pill now, maybe I'll feel okay enough to go do the toilets myself, we'll see.

Yeah, for three days now I've had random anxiety and I was like fuck! It's the withdrawal symptoms. But yeah, luckily I decided to take my temperature and found out I have a fever. It's this fucking spring man! I mean I feel like shit but at least it's not anxiety related. And it's common for me to have anxiety when something else is wrong with my body. As long as it's not anxiety related I'm happy.

And I wanna post stuff about my last weekend when I went to mum's for the first time since october last year but I'm a lazy fuck.

True story

I legitimately just cooked for two hours. True story. This just means I'm out of money and can't afford to buy ready meals.

no lattes anymore, ever

Ugh, the day started so good and then I had a latte. Yeah, no lattes anymore, ever.