Monday, November 08, 2010

Biogeochemical

*sigh*
Well, I dunno why I torture myself but I've been watching some videos.
And they make me feel like crap.

Seriously, why is all this shit necessary?
I think it's so pointless working on preventing bullying or trying to stop it. I mean, violence is a part of human nature. You cannot deny nature. But humans are totally capable of adapting themselves into their surroundings. I think it would be a lot handier and pracical to teach people how to cope with tricky situations that they don't know how to deal with. I think people need to be taught how to deal with things reasonably and calmly, how to control and protect themselves and how to act with someone who isn't in control of their emotions and life. And more so when it comes to the "victims". I mean, I'd rather this than say, "Stop the bullying" to the "bully". And the reason I think that is that to me things aren't quite as white and black - like, one person is a victim and the other is a bully. I think everyone's a bully and a victim at the same time. Well, if not everyone the most of them anyway. I mean, there's hardly anyone who is mean just for the sake of being mean. I believe people have reasons why they're being a bitch. I know that doesn't justify their actions when they're horrbile to others but I don't think the "bully" is to be blamed instantly. I believe all this negativity is just rooted somewhere deep in the humankind and it just pops out it's sprouts here and there every now and then.
And I think that is why this whole thing cannot be prevented and stopped cause you never know where it comes out and how severely. And I think it would be wise to concentrate more on individuals so that the people who are saved from it all get saved properly and securely. Quality over quantity.

Saying that though, I think it is okay to organize school shootings if some person finds it necessary. Seriously, being mocked most of your life is way worse than being killed in a second. And I believe this girl in the video had something to prove to the rest of the school to keep her popularity and acceptance but does it look like a fair end to it all? A boy is dead and one of the reasons that amounted to his depression is on TV and giggling saying how terrible it all was? This is a classic case of "Poor boy...oh well, life goes on". Now if the boy had gone and done a school shooting people would have been like, "What a retard and perv. He probably raped the girl and was a douchebag anyway". And he probably would have gone to jail and all. So why do people like the girl get away with stuff? Murder by far is not the worst thing in the world. Violence is a lot worse. Violence is what makes people evil and violent, murder is just another aspect of violence just like bullying.

And after reading the comments on the film Klass I'm quite appalled. I mean, how can people say that it's exaggerated? Are they really so lucky that they haven't been exposed to such raw human nature or are they just blind? And a lot of people don't actually wanna know stuff like that and randomly judge the one who kills. I mean if you really want to be in denial when it comes to nature then don't eat, sleep, go to toilet, talk to anybody, breathe and socialize and see what a great intelligent mind you are? I mean, if you don't experience these thing it means they don't exist, right? If you don't experience bullying and the hurting and anger that comes with it, it doesn't exist, right?

And how does putting down your peers put you on a higher pedestal? It means you're at the same spot alone.


Anyway, here's another disturbing video:
 
Oh dear. Some people really are ignorant. Like, there's a person dying right next to you and you do fuck all? Especially if you're a hospital worker? I mean this goes to show that doctors and the likes of them are idiots.

The only doctor I can think of that is half arsedly normal is this doctor who works with my stepmother.
She said that he had said that when he was an intern he knew everything. He knew where things were, what to use and how much medicine should be given, but when he became a doctor he said he realised he doesn't know anything at all. And me and my stepmother came to a conclusion that a clever person is a person who doubts in things not says, "I know this is right, this is the only true thing".

I think it would be only humane and logical that doctors say, "I don't know what is wrong with you" rather than "take this random pill and you'll be fine". Like my personal experience is that I felt nauseous for forever.
Eventually the doctors said, "It's all in your head and here's a prescription for your tummy medicine". Very believable. Why give me a tummy medicine when the problem is in my head, you fucks?
Doctors are not to be believed and trusted cause they work by quantity not quality. They think that a hum,an body is a machine so they treat it like a machine, like if your symptoms tick all the boxes in the book you get the treatment the book suggests.
And another woman that was a patient at the hospital my stepmother works as a nurse in - she was brought in with liver failure. She had had very bad headaches and the doctor prescribed 8 painkillers a day for her.
And the stupid woman took all of the 8 tablets a days for a few months before her liver gave in. I mean how stupid does one have to be to actually prescribe something like it and then another doofus actually acts by the prescription!? Oh god.

Anyway..I think I'm done ranting now.
Ugh..my forum has been quiet for a while, wonder if it's gonna be over soon.
Oh well....it's hard work anyway :)

Oh and went to two classes today, chemistry and geography.
Oh, I heard of my new favourite word today - biogeochemical.
So cool! :)
It has all of my exam subjects in it, only physics is missing.

Saturday, November 06, 2010

Kevin is just gross

Some Kristy girl - "Kevin is just gross"

*gasp*
*goes cries eyes out*

Friday, November 05, 2010

Totally on the edge of my seat here!

Bhahahaa, oh shit I cannot stop laughing at this silly video I posted in my previous post.
Hahahaaaa.
Sooo intense! :D
1:19 LOL

This world was never meant for one as beautiful as you


Watched The Simpsons tonight and this song came on.
Oh it totally reminded me of this guy I dated for a while when I lived in Ireland.
He totally had me at this bit he said. He said that when he was younger he would skip classes to go and chill at the art museum. And when I was younger myself and hadn't been on a proper date (well...I still haven't been on a proper proper date) I always said I don't wanna hang about in the street with some guy and giggle and shit. I always wanted to go to art museum for the first date with some guy.
And with this one guy that is exactly what we did. Plus he said he was related to Yeats the painter.

And dunno if I have talked about it before but he was the guy who accompanied me to my first Vivladi concert. When I was younger I used to say that I'd marry the guy who took me to a Vivaldi concert.
Hm, as I'm typing this I kind of remember I've talked about it before.

Anyway, we were never really going out but we hung out and stuff.
He actually sent me an email a while back but I never replied. Mostly cause I had just broken up with my boyfriend and I didn't wanna see any men or talk to one.

And that reminds me (maybe I've talked about this aswell) but there was this another lad who said he wanted to open a bookstore. And that was a winner for me.

Yeah... good old memories of Irish lads.

Mmmm, and then the fit one. Yeah, there was a really fit one but he was a bit of an arse.
Like, he was a friend of a friend and she gave him my number.
We communicated for four days only.
First day he got my number he was constantly and over eagerly texting me.
I hadn't seen him so I was kind of worried.
The second day we met for the first time - and just as soon as I opened the car door and saw him sitting in the backseat I was like, "Wow!" and to be sure that he was my date I asked my friend who was sitting in the front next to her boyfriend who was driving if this was really the guy then everybody laughed and said, "Yeah". Well, was a nice start anyway. But the evening itself was quite tedious - we just sat in the car ith the windows down. There was another car parked next to ours in some field and they were all talking shit and smoking something and groping their boyfriends and girlfriends - some got their tits out and some their dicks.
I felt a bit weirded out cause I had never seen anyone before besides my friend.
Anyway, me and the fit lad went out for a walk and he tried to kiss me but I freaked out.
And it was the same during the other two times he tried to kiss me that night.
The third day we were constantly texting again. I went over to his place. We didn't talk, just watched Nacho Libre til my friends relative came over to his plac. He then walked me to the taxi...stop and tried tpo kiss me again but I freaked out (What a bitchy tease, right?!).
The next day after mad texting I told him I was totally gonna do it with him cause I was gonna get drunk so I wouldn't freak out. And he kind of agreed.
So since I'm very lightweight, I drank three beers and was sort of tipsy.
Off I went to see him again, in his friend's car with his relative next to the driver.
And then all this shitty handjob shit happened and he wouldn't go back to my place cause he had to be home by eleven. What. The. Fuck? What kind of normal man says no to sex? Well, I guess you can't really call him a man since he was only 18 and I was 22.
Anyway, he texted me after the date that he had had a great time and that I'm a nice girl and have a nice body. And that's the last I heard of him.

What bollocks? Seriously, why the hell did I have to get out of my house for some crappy two-way handjob?
Never again! I totally told him he can stay at my place for the night and he was totally the one initiating the whole thing. Tool!

Anyway, this thing went way off topic but I just couldn't stop while I was on a roll.

Oh and I can't remember what I was looking at on YouTube, but I found this so bad it's good video:

TS04112010

Thursday, November 04, 2010

Whatever, seriously, whatever, go PMS on your own.

Bahhh!
My headphones just broke.
How am I gonna listen to loud music now?
I have only a little bit of money left so I better be able to afford some new headphones.
I could probably afford earphones but those are so crappy and sore.

Oh and the father is still being an arse.
He was saying that everyone else in the house has their windows closed and that I cannot have my window open. And he told me that I cannot live my life and that he needs to tell me what to do.
Well, first - I don't give a fucking flying fuck about other people in the house or their windows.
Seriously, I bet there's no other eejit in this house walking into other people's rooms in the middle of the night saying that they know best how people have to live their lives.
Second - I've told him this before that I am not and never will be what and who he wants me to be. I might be his daughter but I'm not his fucking puppet (and by fucking puppet I mean someone who he can boss around in a non-sexual manner). Seriously, I asked him whether I have to work in a saw mill like him for him to leave me alone. I am not gonna get married and have children and do some horrible job and be stuck with my fat, my father type of an eejit husband and bastard children! If this is the right way to live life by his definition then no thanks, I see you living it and I'm not gonna make your mistakes.
And if he wanted to teach me so bad then where the hell was he when I was like 5?
He was divorcing my mother - that's where he was.
Okay, he was in my life my whole life but he never did any bringing up so...sorry, buddy, but you're waaaaaaayyyy too late. About 20 years!
And I'm soooooo over the window business and I just don't understand how he can be such a bitch about the window. If the window was not meant to be open then it would be a closed window, one you couldn't open at all.
And like, then he's going on about how I don't think about others in the house. Well, what's there to think about? You're all in your rooms, why the fuck cannot you accept that I live in this house too and I cannot sleep when the window is closed cause there's no air!
Oh and I'm totally done talking to him and it's all because it's just not possible, he's always being a dick.
And he made a fuss about that aswell.
Whatever, seriously, whatever, go PMS on your own.