Beauty killed the beast

I just realised how scared of heights I am.
King Kong (the one with Jack Black and one that I have on DVD) is on TV and it's about to finish. The monkey and the woman are on top of the crazy high building. I swear I cannot look at it cause I get butterflies in my stomach, I cannot stand the view of the background, the city far away and wwwaaaayyy down below.

those weird sites again that have all sorts of weird photos

Somehow I got lost on those weird sites again that have all sorts of weird photos. Well here are some:

Parenting fails

There's a whole bunch of horrifying images on the website. Seriously, how the fuck are those people parents!? I might start supporting abortion when I see more pics like that.

Funny and creative design

Euwww, who would eat off that table?

  

I'm not even gonna post more pics of this page cause it's very disturbing and scary but worth a seek

Weird ass "creature"

More pics here and what it is here

Funny and clever ads

Ahahahahahaaa

What Adults See vs. What Kids See

Card Of The Day - White Tara (upside down) and Ixchel

Right. So Ixchel is the shizz. I drew more cards last ngith to get more explanation and I got Ixchel three more times. No lie.
So today I wanted to see what my health was gonna be like and I got White Tara upside down and for explanation I got Ixchel. Okay, I take it as my health isn't as sensitive as yesterday and things should get better. Righ?
Although I just got in from working in the garden and I just felt like shit. The other day when I went to see the GP he told me that stomach ulcer is when you have pain after eating and another type of ulcer is when you get hunger pains. And I think I have the hunger pain one, cause it seems to be more awful when I haven't eaten, that is most of the time then cause I cannot eat.

what I'm supposed to doooooo! (Card Of The Day - Ixchel (four times)&Abundantia (upside down))

Okay, so I got to ran about my stomach and get it off my chest. I decided to draw cards to see what the hell is going on. And by the looks of it I'm very much back in my last year. In one of my earlier posts I have mentioned that the Ixchel card has come up a lot and I swear, no lie, this card showed up three times in a row again.
So I asked what does my stomach want/need for it to feel better, got Ixchel.
So I asked, what brought on this sicky feeling, got and upside down Abundantia (which I got several times before). To make it clearer I asked what kind of abundance have I missed then that I feel so sick, got Ixchel.
So I asked again what I need to do to feel better, got Ixchel.
This card scares me cause I don't know what the hell I'm supposed to do. I take pills for my stomach and anxiety and they're not helping. I don't know of any other way to heal myself.
My stepmother got a number of this guy that does energy cleansing type of thing, in Tartu so maybe I can meet up with him.
I just don't know what I'm supposed to doooooo!

(Okay, no lie, I drew another card asking what exactly I need to do, what kind of help am I supposed to get: medicinal, spiritual, emotional, physical and I got Ixchel. I swear!!! It's so spooky!!!)

FUCKING OBEY ME

Okay, it's been about a month now that I haven't been able to eat. What the fuck!?I just don't know why I feel sick. I take pills, I feel sick. I don't take pills, I feel sick. I eat, feel sick. I don't eat, feel sick. I go out, feel sick. I don't go out, feel sick. I do stuff, feel sick. I don't do anything, feel sick.
Seriously, I'm so not fucking going back to last year!
I wanna beat someone/something up so bad! How dare my body to feel sick so long? What the fuck have I done to deserve to feel like fucking shit for so long? Seriously, I don't have to fucking please this shitty body if it makes me feel like crap for so long. It's unforgivable.
Like, my stepmother said I have to ask for forgiveness from my body for causing it distress. Like, what the fuck?????!!! It's my fucking body and it fucking does what I want it to do. And if my stomach decides to be a bitch on me I'm not fucking accepting it as a part of my body. It can fucking get the fuck out of my body, fucking fuck itself and then fucking come back around and fucking kneeeeeel before me for ten fucking years (that's how long it's been causing me trouble) and fucking apologise and pleaaad for forgiveness and then I fucking punch the crap out of it and ridicule it and make it the most hated thing in the whole damn world so it feels like shit for the rest of its life and it will FUCKING OBEY ME and feel fucking good. UNDERSTOOD, YOU SHITTY PIECE OF A STOMACH!!!!???