Tuesday, April 26, 2011

Red Riding Hood sitting in grass with some animal and an arrow pointing towards it with text "It's some god". The fuck!?

I had the weirdest dream. I saw myself playing a "computer/video game" which was actually taking place in real life. You had to pick up a garlic glove and move it to another place while hurdling obstacles. Then had to go back to the start, pick up a spider and bring it over to the other side like the garlic. Then a girl I used to go to school with showed up and she started playing the game aswell, she had to pick up a spider and garlic glove aswell and later on it was like...a fly and a fish. Fucking weird game!
Then Brian McFadden appeared and showed his new tattoo which was of Red Riding Hood sitting in grass with some animal and an arrow pointing towards it with text "It's some god". The fuck!?

Monday, April 25, 2011

Alexander

Alexander is on TV.
What the fuck? They all speak in English, okay.
The mother speaks with "Russian" accent. The son speaks in either Irish or some weird British accent.
Angelina is a decent enough actress though. But the casting person totally got it wrong, she is too young to play the mother. Either this or the make up people are crap.

Sunday, April 24, 2011

Card Of The Day - Ixchel

"Thank you so much for your help, father!" This is what my father sarcastically told me last night, except he said daughter instead of father. I was totally ready to start moving towards Tartu last night. Ugh and since I cannot go even on my bike I will go there on foot. I don't give a shit if it's "crazy" or "not normal".
Anyway, this card I got today when asked about the whole father-Tartu-anxiety business. He just fucking has to piss me off and make my anxiety worse. I do not obey any man and never will. Period!
I also talked to my mother today and told her if I'm sent to hospital then I will kill myself. And I mean it. I do not accept the anxiety and depression cause it's made my life hell. They do not belong with me, they are not a part of me or my life and I will never accept them and I will never again go to hospital to treat the conditions. If I'm forced I will end it all myself cause I will not let anyone else tell me I have these conditions and they need to be looked at.
Anyway, I'm off to practice walking. To see how far and long I'm able to walk without collapsing.

Saturday, April 23, 2011

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Shit, how I loathe men!!!!!!!!!!!! I FUCKING HATE THEM ALL. FUCKING FUCK YOURSELVES YOU CHEESEDICKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Shittttttttttttttttttttttt, he keeps coming to my room to talk about this shit. I swear I'm so close to running away from this hell.







shit, andA I SIAD I\LL FUCKING DO THE SHITTY DISHES JUST NOT WHEN HE TELLS ME TO. HE'S A FUXCKING NOBODU AND HE DOESN'T FUCKING TELL ME WHAT TO DO. SUCK DICK YOU SHIT YOU SHIT YOUSHIT YOU SHIT YOU SHIT YOU SHIT. I FUCKING LOAHTE TH HELL OUT OF YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I SWEAR HE COMES TO MY ROOM ONE MORE TIME I WILL FUCKING GET ON THE BIKE AND GO TO TARTU THROUGH THE FUCKING NIGHT.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Shut up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, my father's going on again how my stepmother works herself to death and I as a woman am not doing anything at home. I swear!!!!!!!! I hate his shitty sexism and chauvinism!!!!!!
I'm fucking struggling so hard with my anxiety and staying calm (fuck, even a bike ride freaks me out and eating!) and in he comes with his shit for brains sexist talk. I swear I loathe it sooooooooooooooooo much. He can totally suck dick if he's so manly. I don't give a shit, I won't be his fucking slave!
Ugh, if riding the bike didn't freak me out so much I'd get on it first thing in the morning and get the fuck away from this sexist shit. It's unbelievable how sexist one can be!!!! He's always putting me with my 11 year old brother so when he told me I wasn't doing the dishes I told well the brother isn't doing it either. And then he's like fucking protecting him like he doesn't need to do anything. Of course he doesn't he's a fucking tiny man. And men only do FUCK ALL.
Argghhhhhhhh, he came in again and was like blahhhhhhhhh.

I swear he drives me crazy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Every fucking mindless thing on earth that is anything with a pussy do the dishes, spread your legs for the glorious god that is a dick, suck it, fuck and then get back to cooking and doing the dishes. I swear all men should be fucking gay. Fuck each other and stay away from humans, that is women. I will never ever. Ever! Get married. I swear, I'm a lot closer to suicide as it is but I'd totally rather kill myself than do anything for a man. Never will I ever please any man. Fuck, no more blowjobs and luckily for me I always come before the man so I will fucking treat them like they should be treated. Or I deliberately get pregnant and force the custody to the man. Hell, I'm half crazy and monyless and jobless anyway. I'd only do it to ruin a man's life. I swear, I wanna kill a man. Any man. Fucking bring it bitches, I will fucking kill you.