book a date without a date

Oh my god! What dream I had!? I had a dream I was hanging out with the Kardashians. Was talking to Kendall and Kylie about modelling. And then we went to buy a wedding dress for me. I said I have no man but I have the wedding date and Kim said it's so her style to book a date without a date. Fucking weird! I'm afraid to go to sleep! :D Don't wanna dream about that family.

Nothing interesting has happened

Okay, I'm a little nervous. I won't be going to mother's place this weekend. That part is fine I guess. But she asked me to help her out at her store on Saturday. That part I'm worried about. I wouldn't mind helping out but I get bad anxiety in the store.
Yeah, life has been sort of okay. I've been feeling a little crappy when it comes to eating but I've rearranged my pills so I should be good now. On last Friday when I was at my mother's I discovered I had left one pill behind so on Saturday I biked to town and back. Wow, I was so tired. :D
Yeah that's about it. Nothing interesting has happened.
Been worried about my mother. She has high blood pressure, low hemoglobin and thick blood. Sheõs been feeling like crap. Worries me. Think she'll know the reason behind the high blood pressure next Tuesday.

It covers all areas of my life, it's entwined into every aspect of my life, it's the foundation of every bit of me

Okay...went for a bike ride in the rich part of the town again. And again, started thinking of how I'll never have a nice house like those there.
But then I thought some of my dreams have come true. Like, for instance, I was obsessed with Ireland as a... well not kid but a young teenager. And boom! I got to live there for 5 years. And while I was living there I was sort of "rich". As in, I always bought everything I wanted. There were no financial limitations. And I always had money left over every month so I could collect it. I spent about 400 euros on food, 400 on clothes and other stuff and more than 400 was left over.
Then I got myself a boyfriend I had wanted for years. And got my dream date with a guy. I think I've talked about this before on my blog, but I always wanted to go to an art gallery on a first date and I did it. It was with Stephen and we went to a museum and art gallery. Perfect! Then I always said I wanna go to a Vivaldi concert with a guy and me and Stephen did it together.
Then since graduation from secondary school I had always wanted to go to uni. I got to go twice, albeit I never finished the courses.
So... I've had some pretty great perks in my life. :)

Sad thing is, I don't have any more dreams. I've thoroughly succumbed to my illness. It covers all areas of my life, it's entwined into every aspect of my life, it's the foundation of every bit of me.

Too subtle me thinks

I just hate the way some men approach me on dating websites. This one's pretty horrid. Too subtle me thinks.
I especially like that I'm such. Never heard a compliment like that before.

edit at 23:10:

How charming! :D

Maybe it's a sign

So I feel so sick that I can't do anything. So I was just randomly picking on stuff in my room. I opened this drawer and I FOUND MY WICCA BOOK! It was lost for about two years.
I will totally bring it to town with me and read it.
Thing is...when I talked to this "Aleks" guy I joked I was religious and go to church everyday, he said he wouldn't go out with some crazy religious girl. Ha! I then said I'm not religious and I feel the same way. But now that I've found my book...I dunno man. Maybe it's a sign that I found it at my lowest.

Ughhhh...I dunno what it is that I feel sick at my mother's place. I never feel like that when I'm in town.
Ugh, I just have major discomfort in my tum, weakness and a bit of nausea. Uurrrghhh....so sick.

Going back to picking on random things in the room.