Um...

That awkward moment when you haven't seen someone in a long time and you meet them randomly and tell them your health history and then to be polite you jokingly ask, "So, how's your health? You not pregnant or anything?" and they say, "Well, actually I am." Um...

I like

So yeah been a while.
Been to doctor a lot. Blood tests were fine. Typical. Urine showed some inflammation. Lung x-rays were fine. Did new blood tests and poop one, didn't ring in yet. The GP thinks I might have Lyme disease. Yeah no. She wanted to put me on antibiotics for a month, even without testing me first. Okay then.
Yeah I have like a fuckton of symptoms which I've been mentioning for months now on this blog. Been listing them to doctors too many times lately to repeat them here. I mean it's all cause of olanzapine but whatever...
Just waiting for the 3rd of october to know more about my polyp surgery. Maybe then the bleeding/spotting will stop.

Yeah, think it was the last weekend I put my cactus babes back in pots. Hopefully will be better this time. I got sand from the Anne canal beach. And gravel from my mum's man's work place. Won't water them for forever now. And when I do, I bought the spray bottle for them, I will be using it cause I was advised to. Just to like water the surface.

Been seeing the Core Guy a few times. He's still scared as ever. Little virgin.

Um yeah and got an extra little cleaning job on wednesdays and fridays/weekends. Didn't go in yesterday. Was out on town with mum. Cleaned today. Was nice. I like.
And when I got home from work I re-assembled my room. My back has been giving me serious stiffness and weirdness from the bad bed. Sleeping on the matress now. The bed kinda like concaves in the middle and you end up sleeping in a horrible position. So now I have a bed in a form of a matress on the floor and and extra place to sit in my room in the form of a foldable bed/sofa. Again, I like. Hopefully I'll sleep better, back wise.

Oh I got a new winter jacket too. Yay! It's dark blue. The sleeves are a little short but just gotta wear gloves.

The babes are out

The babes are out:

So they're still not doing great. Will leave them like thsi for a few days, then replant. I need a good soil for them. Where I will get it I have no idea.

Also. I said I had a hemorrhoid. Plus I'm spotting. Plus I've been getting bruises a lot in the last few months.
June 20th:

 August 27th:

September 10th:

My arms are clear right now. Oh and a sidenote, never mind my ugly skin texture and stretch marks. It's cool, okay!?
The bruises are not cool though.
Think I posted a pic or two before of my bruises. And this, by faaaaaaaaaaarrr, is not all. Maybe I mentioned it but at one point I counted, I had 17, 18 different bruises on one leg. The thigh ones, when counting, would be concidered as one. So there has been 17, 18 of those on my legs. Most of them a little smaller, but it's still alot for the same time and "without any reason".
Now I'm convinced all of that crap is going on cause of the antipshychotic I'm weening off. Talked to my stepmum. She said it could be my liver that's not producing enough...whatever the fuck it was called. Think it just means my blood doesn't properly coagulate or something. I don't even fucking know.
Will go do a full blood panel on tuesday. Could also be my thyroid. Went to see the therapist this week, she still doesn't believe the pill affects the body. Cool story.
Called my psychiatrist. She wants to swap Olanzapine for something else, Fluanxol. Another antidepressant. Doubt it'll make a difference. I just can't get off Olanzapine. I can go without maybe like 10 days or so. And when I take it I start spotting the next day. Lasts about a week. Then a few days it's all good. Then I have to take the pill again, and I start spotting again.
Yeahhh.... hope it'll all work out.

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