Doctor

So I went to see the doctor.
Lost weight - now 49 kilos.
Blood tests.
Endoscopy that I'll never do.
Antidepressants that I'll never take.
Considering homeopathy.
Expensive - 80 euro a session.
Seeing GP tomorrow.

Did have sex this morning though:)

Oh and felt sick all night, What Dreams May Come kept me company.
Three times.

Right off to mix protein powder with banana-kiwi juice.

Conversation

Oh god, just remembered - talked to my ex yesterday.
On msn.
How annoying is it, when you don't like a person in a romantic way and don't want to have anything to do with them cause of your romantic past, but your conversations just have that magic flow?!
I hate talking to other men, especially an ex, when in a relationship - feel like I'm cheating on the current man.
Well anyway, now I know my ex has loadsa naked pictures of himself, he's dating some rich girl and that he's been to hospital with some unpleasant things.
Didn't really want to know any of it.

Went for a walk

Yeah if you don't go out much and then one day you do, you end up with a cold sore.
My body's not used to the wind.
Walked for one hour...along the town streets.
I have a massive fear that's keeping me on streets - crossing bridges.
Can't go for a walk on the countryside, cause this town is kept off from the rest of the world by this stupid river.
I swear to um...god, if I had to cross any of them bridges by myself I'd have a panic attack.

Yeah, had the weird buckwheat porridge yesterday again and this morning as well - think the E621 in it is making me feel all boo hoo.
So that means no naughty stuff has been going on - even though things were leading that way.;)

Today's a lovely rainy day - might clean up the house. It's smelly.


Good things:

• Doritos corn chips - tangy cheese flavour

Hmm...come to think of it, I had two packs yesterday, that could've made me feel sick.

• Edward Maya - Stereo Love ( Vika Jigulina's vocals)

Company

Right so, my boyfriend came home last night, around 11 or so.
Watched TV.
Sort of having a habit of going to bed at decent hour lately.
Woke up to sex this morning, which was finished off with a BJ.:)
Mm...cum shots! Hahahaaa
Going to take a shower and think about what to do today.

Goings-on

On a personal note - waiting for my man to come home.
Will waste another sunny day in my computer screen beams.
Ooh, just had chicken flavoured buckwheat porridge - not sure what to make of it.

Strings!

God, how I love Antonio Vivaldi!
I'm really loving his Double Cello Concerto RV531 Allegro at the minute.
Also Flute Concerto Op. 10, No.2 'La Notte'.
Yeah, the titles don't really say much, but Vivaldi says it all!;)
Have been home alone which means I've played the violin a lot.

A small list for myself, consisting of songs I can play (mind you, I'm hardly grade 2):

• Eanach Dhuin
• Carrickfergus
• Eleanor Plunkett
• Brian Boru's March
• An Bonnán Bui
• Do You Remember that Night?
• Cailin na Gruaige Doinne
• The Fair Maid of Wicklow
• Carrigdhoun
• The Old Truigha
• The Dawning of the Day
• Port Gordon
• Sally Gardens
• Planxty Hewlett
• The Banks of the Suir
• The Old Resting Chair
• Tabhair dom do Lámh
• Planxty Connor
• The Foggy Dew
• The Month of January
• Carolan's Concerto

That's just the songs from Ireland's Best Slow Airs book. Working on Bach's Gavotte from Suite BWV1012.

Getting started

Right, I planned to do this in my mother tongue, but since I don't have all the letters on my keyboard...English it is. Um, so what has happened recently?

Health wise:

I'm on unpaid sick leave.

Cause I've been sick for eight years and have finally had enough of doctors telling me I'm fine according to their test results and asking me for a diagnosis.

Yeah, made an ultimatum to my doctor that can backfire but...fingers crossed it'll work.

Personal:

Well, since my health has hit rock bottom, nothing much has happened in the wowza! area. However I managed to get one little nightly shenanigan done with my boyfriend two nights ago. ;P

Yeah, but that's not enough for a 23 year old girl!

Good things:

• Dried Brush tooth lizard fish (salted)
• Classical music (strings and Vivaldi - wow!)
• The user dsharptheviolinist on Youtube (check him out!!)