Yeah, everything's cool

So after panicking, texting my bf who's probably drunk out of his mind by now, browsing web for possible side effects of a missed dose of an antidepressant, and ringing the hospital to talk to a doctor I realised that I have been on the tablet for two weeks, the first 4 days I took only half a dose - two tablets, which means I have two extra tablets.

Jaysas, the panicking!

First I texted my bf and aksed what was the chance of me going absolutely crazy.

Secondly, I browsed the web for free information numbers in Ireland.

Yeah, there aren't any, apparently. Well, they didn't show up on the internet.

Found the 118118 number. It said I can type in my number and question and they would send me a free answer.

Yeah, they didn't.

Well, that means I didn't have credit.

So, at around half one I went out to McLoughlin's to buy credit.

5 euro Meteor.

085.

On my way back I rang the hospital, asked to talk to a nurse.

Gave my DOB, name and phone number.

Got home and I don't know why or how, but it struck me then -

I must have two tablets extra, which means I should be covered for today and tomorrow.

So I started looking for them hoping to find them before the nurse called back.

Then I started doubting myself, thinking maybe they didn't give me 7 tablets for the week eventhough the prescription was weekly. So it is seven days. It took me a good 20 minutes of hard math time to figure it out.

Very hard! I'm really bad at math and I was panicky.

I was looking all over the place for the tablets, couldn't find them.

People even got home by the time I found my tablets.

One's sleeping in her room, her friend in the sitting room.

Anyways, then the doctor called and told me to go down to hospital in the morning and that they'd write a new prescription.

And then I found my tablets. Took one, feeling sleepy now.

Oh no! I'll go mad!

I forgot to go to the pharmacy and get more tablets!

Oh, I'm afraid I'll go all mad if I don't get a dose.

I don't care what the doctors say, those things are addictive!

Yikes, I will go sooo mad. Like the time I was too scared to take shower cause I thought I'll drown and too scared to go out of the house thinking I'd have a panick attack in the middle of the street and jump in front of a car and kill myself or too scared to be on my own cause I was worried that I might hurt myself somehow and die or too scared to be around anyone thinking they'll tell me I've gone mad when I have a panick attack.

Damn, damn! How did I forget!?
Fuck, I'll be missing two days! I will go soooo mad.

Everyone's gone

Yeah, everyone's off to celebrate St. Patrick's.

Everyone has a day off.

I hope the people in Social Welfare who forward money my way got my form done today.

Got a phone call from a man about me not paying the hospital bill.

I'll get round to it this week. I promise.

Boyfriend's car broke down.

Don't know what the situation is.

Like, car-wise and every other way aswell.

Mmh, I just hate the thought of this horrible thing I can't even type.

Anyway, things are not so saintpatricky for me.

I hope the corner shop will be open tomorrow, I need to buy food.

Two nights ago I watched Monster House:

It was quite good. I liked how grown up and realistic the characters and the conversations were. Very plausible.

Although the first thought watching this was, "That's way too scary for kids!" After the first...say, ten minutes Katriona went to take a shower so she wouldn't have to have one in the morning, so we paused the film.

I then checked the DVD box and it said Parental Guidance as a rating. Too right! I also read that it was by the makers of Back To The Future and Jurassic Park. Can't remember the Future dude's name, but I swear in the last scenes the house looked like a dinosaur. Don't know if it was cause I had Spielberg ringing in my head or if the house actually resembled a dinosaur. Anyway, I'll give it a 4 out of 5. See it!

Yesterday, I watched The Hangover:

Well, well, well... I had heard people say that was very good and very funny. So me and Katriona were in Tesco, I needed something to cheer me up, cause the tablets are making me either emotionless or negative emotional. I bought the beforementioned Monster House and Over The Hedge (which I haven't seen yet). We were standing there infront of the shelf with The Hangover on it and I said something like, "too bad I don't have money for that aswell, I've heard it's really good." And then Katriona said, "Oh I'll get it. I like it. I'll get it so you can watch it."

Okay, as said so done.

So I watched it and was waiting for "best comedy of the year""this film is brilliant" (as said by The Sun and FHM) moments, but I either missed them in the 96 minutes of the film I saw or they just weren't in it. The film itself is a big bad hangover, forgettable. I just feel bad now that Katriona got it just so I could see it. Oh well, at least she likes it herself. and

I've gone a while without mentioning my new followers. Got three more! :) Making it a total of 8.

Here are nellu. :), siiri and Annabel =) :

Hmh, what else. Oh yeah, I have to talk about it.

Lady GaGa and Lady Beyonce's video.

Too long. Less gibbersih, advertising random brands, more of the song and an actual music video.

I quite like GaGa's Monster.

"We might have fucked. Not really sure, can't recall"

Aw, what a good girl. :)

Oh well, I guess a girl's gotta do what a girl's gotta do - earn money.

So hopefully Monster won't be out as a single, cause I wouldn't like to see some milk ad as a video to this song.

Laters, have to take my pill. 29 minutes late.

Happy St Patrick's! Go easy with the drinks! ;) 

Change collecting

So, I will stay with this flowery layout.

It's not exactly my favourite, but it's the best I could find and it's fits here best too.

Have some new music, think it's hardstyle. No?

I don't know what it is since I don't normally listen to that kind of music.

But these three tunes I like.

I cut them short and all, just left the best bits.

So, now I have the best stuff out of the stuff I don't like that much.

Yesterday was another sleepy day.

I hadn't taken a nap since I started taking a full dose of Z, but yeah yesterday was a drowsy day.

The tablets make me feel like going crazy, like the time when I went off X.

Mad mad times!

Those tablets really mess with your health and head.

Luckily I will be seeing a psychologist on Thursday.

I hope it'll be a psychologist this time.

I also hope she will be able to sort me out.

Anyways, today I talked to Leanne.

We want to go live and work in Spain, cause it's warm and sunny out there.

Leanne's being kicked out of her mam's house.

Ahh, brings back all the 'lovely' memories from the days I lived with my 'family':

"I think it's time for you to move out, cause you're not part of the family..."

That was my mother having a conversation with me while putting socks on my bother's feet.

-"What's for supper?"
-"Oh, there's some cheese in the fridge, make a sandwhich if you like."

That's my mother having a conversation with me while eating dinner with her man and my brother.

Oh there's so many more of these little warm family moments.

Anyway, me and Leanne said we'd start collecting money.

Obviously the notes will be spent quickly so we're going after the coins and cents.

I have quite a nice little collection of change, hopefully I won't cash it soon to spend it on rubbish.

I want to go to Spain for the sunshine and beaches, she wants to go there to party, drink and shop.

Each to their own.

Hopefully will be able to do it all.

Maybe temporary

I found a few skins so.

Searched for blogger layouts, found layouts, said to be for blogger. Were for Wordpress.

Some of them looked kind of weird on here, settled for this.

I just wanted one with some colours cause the old one didn't show the background picture.

Might change this one though.

Uploading new songs for the player.

Alright, Z is doing it's thing on me - feeling sleeeepy!

Night night.