Here I am looking like a... person who looks horrible with glasses

So, I've been taking a new pill - Zalasta - an antipsychotic. Helps me eat. Apparently I do have an eating disorder but it's not about body image. I'm like, absolutely terrified of getting sick so my psyche works in a way it thinks it's helping me. It makes me stop eating so I don't have anything to up chuck. How is that helping me again!? Luckily I haven't lost any weight. Well, I did a while ago when I weighed about 55 kg and before that I weighed about 62. Well, right now, just today I weighed 59 so whoop! :D
Oh and I got a hold of my mum's glasses. Here I am looking like a... person who looks horrible with glasses. These are the best pics anyway. And never mind my hair, I washed my hair two days ago and I haven't brushed in months. :D

a bitch is a bitch

Ahahaaa. Ooooh, I'm a troll!
Well, the thing is I signed up on this god awful dog forum to ask why our dog Donna rolls around on foul smelling things. First response was by their moderator who posted this random snarky comment and other cunts followed.
A very warm and welcoming people, just makes you fucking love dogs.

They all made sure I wasn't wanted there because I said if we don't solve the problem the dog will be put down or given away. And obviously those retards got on my back. So when I said something back I was "insulting" them. And when one fat-ass shitfaced cunt-whore said they wish I went away I said I have the same right to be there as them and that was concidered as backseat moderating.

And they obviously didn't like my photos I posted on there so they called it trolling.

Well, since I have quite a bit of time in my hands right now I'm gonna properly terrorise the forum and show them what all those things actually mean. Thank a goddess for dynamic IP!

Luckily I will forever and ever hate dogs and dog people. I mean, a bitch is a bitch.

COTD - Aphrodite///Level myself with the "divine"

Are the cards giving me fashion tips? The question was about my health and college, how I will get on. I also got Freya before which makes me think I just gotta give my all and be the bitch, about my health and life and just go do it. Or maybe level myself (dunno if anyone can actually say so) with the "divine".

Even if things will turn to shit, at the minute the look at my future life seems pretty nice

Woohoo. Just got off the phone with a lady from adoption service.
Well, the thing is, I'm scared to apply for the benefit of disabled persons cause I'm thinking I might not be able to adopt a kid later in life. But the woman said it's very individual and people who are in wheelchairs or have bad diabetes have adopted so.... it depends on my criminal record and on the valuation a psychiatrist gives me when I'm applying for an adoption.
So, tomorrow I'll go and file in the benefit. Plus buy a few things for college.
And I started thinking.... the college building is right next to the madhouse so.. even if I have to go to hospital I'd demand to go to college during the day.
Everything's pretty good at the minute. Even if things will turn to shit, at the minute the look at my future life seems pretty nice.

COTD - Green Tara, Nemetona, Ostara

Well, back to my card business. It's all about my health and college. So, I told my stepmother yesterday I'm gonna start meditating and shit. Have to get on with it cause there's only two weeks left in August and then... COLLEGE!
Yeah, the father and stepmother visited us yesterday. They brought my winter clothes that I had left behind when I moved to Tartu.
Uggghghhhhhh, I sooooo hope my anxiety will let me study.
Plus yesterday it kinda came out that I'm pretty much addicted to my pills and have no indipendance (sp). Like, whenever I feel I'm getting my looney on I rely on my pills to make me feel better. I supress my anxiety.
Anyway...there's like a camp/fieldtrip type of thing before college where you get to meet all the new students and get to know the courses and the buildings and student life and I really wanna go there. So... again, I hope the anxiety won't  butt in.